This night is destined to be a sleepless night.

The decision to go to Xichuan was a difficult and painful decision for me, and Li'er, as well as the red shadow on the painting, each and every one of them was entangled in my mind, as if thousands of voices were constantly calling out to me, even if I closed my eyes and fell into darkness, I could not find silence.

But there was a voice, unusually firm, ringing in my ears, as if to drive away the ghosts that disturbed me.

It was Pei Yuanxiu's heartbeat.

Since I fell asleep, he has been holding me, letting me be in his arms, close to his solid chest, listening to his powerful heartbeat, and I have somehow found some of the power of reality, and when I opened my eyes, in the darkness, I still found his bright eyes, and I was looking down at me.

After looking at each other for a moment, he gave me a gentle kiss on the forehead.

Then he said softly, "I'm here." You sleep in peace. ”

Now he and the one who pressed me on the boat last night seemed to be two people, I couldn't tell the difference, and I didn't have the strength to tell the difference, so I could only slowly close my eyes in his warm breathing.

Nothing was said all night.

The next morning, I opened my eyes to the chirping of birds outside, and saw the bamboo leaves reflected in the window, shaking and shaking.

And the side is already empty.

There was still a little warmth left on the bed, and I sat up slowly, and as soon as I put on my clothes, Su Su came in with a few maids to serve me.

After a brief wash, I sat down in front of the bronze mirror and asked them to comb my hair, and asked, "Where's Childe?" ”

The maid next to her hurriedly said, "If you go back to Madame, the son will go out early in the morning." He told us not to wake Madame and let Madame rest a little longer. ”

I nodded, and without speaking, I saw my appearance reflected in the bronze mirror, still a little pale and haggard, but after making up my mind to go to Xichuan, I forced out some spirits. Su Su, who was standing behind me, seemed to be a little distracted.

I said softly, "Susu? ”

She was stunned for a moment, then immediately came back to her senses and looked at me in the bronze mirror: "Miss." ”

"What's wrong with you? So listless? ”

"Miss, I—" She lowered her head and said softly, "I'm sorry Miss." This time Miss Li's disappearance, I didn't do anything. ”

"It's not your fault. There are so many people in the house, and there are so many guards, they can't blame you. ”

"But—I'm none other than that."

Seeing her sad look, I turned around and patted her hand, but instead comforted her, "Don't blame yourself. How can a man be without a sage? ”

Hearing me persuade her like this, Su Su was a little relieved, and asked again, "Miss, do you really want to go back to Xichuan?" ”

I nodded, "Yes." ”

This time, she didn't speak, only gently combed my long hair, and when I saw her flickering gaze, I said, "If you don't want to go back, you can not follow me." ”

She was stunned for a moment, but immediately shook her head: "No, I'm going!" I'm going to take care of the eldest lady. ”

"Aren't you afraid?"

"Don't be afraid."

I didn't say anything, but Susu, while combing my long hair, I was thinking about something again, and after a while, I muttered: "Miss, when grandpa brought me here, I asked grandpa if he could invite you back, and grandpa said he wouldn't." But he also said that the eldest lady was going back to Xichuan after all, and he didn't need to invite him. It turned out that what Grandpa said was true. ”

I looked at her young face and clean eyes in the mirror, was silent for a moment, and then nodded.

After grooming, Su Su and the maids retreated, and I walked out of the inner courtyard alone, and asked a subordinate, only to know that Pei Yuanxiu called everyone to the front hall early in the morning to explain the next few things.

"And what about the others now?"

"When the explanation was over, everyone dispersed. The villain doesn't know what Childe is going to do now. ”

I nodded, waved him down, stood there and thought for a moment, then turned and walked to the other end of the house.

Along the flowery garden path, I walked forward in a hurry, and soon arrived at the waterfront pavilion, where I fed the koi fish with Li'er and Pei Yuanxiu, and the fish in the water were still competing for fish food, and there was a splash on the lake; Further on, over the stone bridge, there was the huge horse farm, and the horsemen drove a large herd of horses to it, raising puffs of smoke and dust.

Through the dust and mist, I saw a pink peach forest in front of me.

Before, Li'er and I came here to play, and the scene of her chasing those pigeons flying all over the sky is still vivid.

Today, the scenery is still the same, but my daughter is not by my side......

A tingling pain in my chest made my footsteps stagnant.

And at this moment, I saw Pei Yuanxiu coming from the front.

Although the forest was lush here, he still saw me at a glance, was stunned for a moment, and immediately walked up to me: "Qingying? How did you get here? ”

"I'm looking for you."

"Looking for me?" He subconsciously glanced back and immediately said, "I just came here to explain some things to Ruoshi and Zitong." We're going to Nishikawa, what's going on here-"

"I know." I interrupted him and said calmly, "I just wanted to ask you, when can we leave?" ”

He looked at me, paused, and said, "Now." ”

“……”

This time, it was me who was a bit surprised.

Although I also hoped that the sooner the better, I didn't expect that he had already arranged a qiē one morning. However, this is exactly what I wanted, and I hurriedly nodded: "Great, then let's go." ”

He nodded gently, "Hmm." ”

As he spoke, he reached out and put his hand around my shoulder, and walked back with me as I turned. And the moment we turned to leave, I looked back and glanced lightly at the quiet and exquisite garden that belonged to the Han sisters behind the peach forest.

When I walked to the gate, I saw that two carriages were already waiting, Pei Yuanxiu helped me into the first carriage, and I also saw Su Su and a few maids getting into the carriage behind with some simple luggage.

Without further explanation, he heard the whip outside, and the carriage drove forward.

Of course, I hope that the sooner the better, and it is naturally convenient to travel lightly, but looking back, such a light and simple trip is really not like the lineup we should have when we go to Xichuan.

I thought about it, but I couldn't help but look back and ask, "We-"

"Do you blame me?"

Almost at the same time, Pei Yuanxiu also opened his mouth, and I was stunned for a moment: "Huh? ”

"Don't you blame me?"

He sat opposite, no matter how spacious the carriage was, but in fact it was only a world, and in this way he sat in relative terms, and all I had—breathing, looking, expression, even the slightest throbbing. He looked at me and said seriously: "Li'er was captured by them, don't you blame me?" ”

I was silent for a moment and shook my head: "I don't blame you. ”

"Why?"

"It's not your fault."

There are some things that I can't say, but I know very well in my heart that he doesn't have any responsibility for leaving his son, and some are just the kindness that has been nurtured for many years. I am sad that Li'er was arrested, but no matter how sad I am, I will not lose my mind and use my mistakes as an excuse to blame others. Now, for the divorced child, only I, as a mother, have the responsibility and make mistakes.

If you want to blame, I can only blame myself.

It was a clear grudge to say this, but it did hurt him.

He and I are already husband and wife.

Thinking of this, I raised my head and said softly, "I really don't blame you. It's already happening, so don't think about it anymore. I only think about one thing now, and that is how to get Li'er back, that's enough. ”

He looked at me, a smile that bordered on joy, and reached out to grab my hand.

For the rest of the day, he and I were silent and didn't speak, but his palm kept warming my somewhat chilly fingers, and the carriage drove for a while, then stopped, and he immediately said, "It's here." ”

Arrived?

I was stunned, and before I could open my mouth to ask a question, I saw that the curtain was blown up by a cold wind, and outside, there was a dock for boats.

Pei Yuanxiu had already jumped out of the carriage and helped me down, and I saw that there was a big boat parked on the dock, and there were already many attendants on it, who were running back and forth to prepare, and someone immediately came down and took Su Su and them on the boat.

It turned out that we were going to take the waterway.

No wonder it's so light.

I'm not a person who likes extravagance, but on the matter, this time I went to Xichuan, and I really traveled lightly and didn't let us pick up any cheap, especially the biggest purpose of this trip is to get back to my son.

Moreover, there is one of the biggest advantages of taking the waterway, it is not for outsiders, that is, it can avoid meeting with Shen Xiaokun's people, which is indeed harmless.

Just thinking about it, a piece of wind was draped on my shoulder, and as soon as I turned my head, I met Pei Yuanxiu's gentle eyes, and he was about to say something, but before he could speak, he saw Yao Lao, who was following the attendant to explain the matter, came over.

I hurriedly turned around and whispered, "Old man." ”

He glanced at me, nodded lightly with a smile in his eyes, and said to Pei Yuanxiu: "Be careful along the way." ”

"Yes."

"And you, girl," he said to me, "with your status, no one over there may dare to touch you, but you still have to be careful." Either way, you will come back in peace. ”

"Yes."

"And ...... If I saw her--" I thought he was going to explain something, and I hesitated for a while, but I only heard his somewhat depressed voice: "It's good to see her." ”

I glanced up at Pei Yuanxiu, he calmly didn't say anything, but Yao Lao obviously didn't have such calm, and the gray hair that looked a little messy in the river breeze also showed some helplessness and vicissitudes. I hurriedly said, "I know, I'll help the old man bring it." ”

Yao Lao nodded.

Next, I didn't know what to say, because seeing that Yao Lao seemed to be a little depressed, Pei Yuanxiu reached out and stroked my shoulder, and said softly: "It's windy here, you can get on the boat first." ”

I nodded, turned and stepped onto the boat.

Walking on the splint, the wind here was actually stronger, blowing my hair on my face, reaching out and gently brushing it away, I saw Pei Yuanxiu finished talking with Yao Lao, turned around and got on the boat.

When he walked up to me, there were already attendants waiting for him to order, "Childe." ”

"Sail the boat."

"Yes!"

As soon as the words fell, the boatman over there let out a long trumpet and set sail!