Walking forward from the courtyard gate to the porch of the high pavilion, this part of the road is not far, but I have walked for a long time.

The two maids talked to me a lot, and in the end, I realized that I didn't seem to remember a word, because everything became confused. The drizzle turned into a torrential downpour, dripping on the roof tiles overhead, and after a while, the crystal raindrops rolled down from the roof like beads with broken threads, and the rain poured down from far and near, weaving an endless rain curtain in front of you.

It makes people feel like they are suffocating.

In the smell of rain, there was a smell of wine in the distance.

I raised my head and looked at the high pavilion in the rain, and for some reason I had the illusion that it was the last pure land in this world, and the surroundings had been submerged.

I lifted the splattered hem of my skirt and walked up slowly.

A familiar figure comes into view.

Emaciated, quiet, without a little life like a statue, even if the cold rain was blown by the wind across his cheeks, it was impossible to tell whether the rain was colder or he was colder.

I just felt my heart skip a beat—because in that moment, I saw those amorous eyes again.

Huang Tianba was sitting behind a stone table, looking at me calmly.

He was very thin, and his cheeks were slightly sunken, which made his originally handsome facial features more profound, but no matter how thin and profound, it did not damage the perfection of those eyes at all, it was still a pair of amorous eyes, black and white, long eyelashes, rippling water in the eyes, brilliant and colorful, almost suffocating.

And I, too, really suffocated.

No matter what the world is, his gaze is still the same as in the past, resolute and fierce, as if he has passed through the past seven years, he has not experienced anything, he is still the uncrowned king of Jiangnan, and I am still full of hope for a qiē.

I walked in front of him step by step, only to feel that every step seemed to weigh a thousand pounds, so that I exhausted all the departure, and when I spoke again, even my voice was hoarse: "Huang Ye......"

"You're here."

He said in a low voice, with a thick nasal voice in his voice, and I just noticed that there was still an abnormal flush on his face, and although his eyes were resolute and fierce, they were also a little unfocused.

In my ears, the words that the two maids had told me along the way rang out—

"Master Huang, he has been sick all these years, and his body is sometimes good and sometimes bad, and he has no normality."

"This year, it's a little heavier than last year."

As if sensing the tears in my eyes, he smiled instead, stretched out his finger and pointed to the things on the table, "I guess you haven't eaten yet, so I asked someone to prepare some." You eat something first. ”

“……”

"I have a lot to say to you."

I also have a lot to say to you.

I looked at him and almost cried, but I could only grit my teeth and insist, and sat down lightly opposite him, only then did I see that there were some home-cooked wine and dishes on the table, daughter red, braised bamboo shoots in oil, braised fish, spicy chicken, stir-fried cabbage sum, and a bowl of steaming rice.

I really hadn't eaten, and I was really hungry before, but when I saw him, I didn't say that I hadn't eaten a meal, and even if I was about to starve to death, I didn't want to take the time to eat.

But, under his gentle gaze, I still picked up the bowl and ate it in small bites.

After taking two bites, I looked up at him again, and he just looked at me and took a sip of wine.

"Huang Ye, don't you eat?"

"I've eaten it."

……

In my mind, the words of the two maids sounded again-

"Master Huang, he usually has little appetite to eat, and sometimes, the prince must force him - as long as he does not eat, does not sleep well, and does not put on clothes when it is cold, the prince will punish those of us who serve. For our sake, he barely ate some ......."

I swallowed a mouthful of rice, took an empty bowl from the side, put some rice into it, and then held it in front of him: "Huang Ye will accompany me to eat a little." ”

He glanced at me, lowered his eyelids slightly, and after a long while, he put down his glass and picked up the dishes.

As soon as the chopsticks stretched out, they reached out to the plate of braised fish, as if they were going to catch the fish's eyes, but as soon as they reached over, the chopsticks stopped again.

I watched the ripples in those eyes, silent, as if they kept tapping on his heart.

After a moment of silence, he picked up the cabbage sum next to him.

I held the dishes and chopsticks, and the delicious dishes I ate in my mouth all turned sour.

At this time, Huang Tianba raised his head and glanced at me, facing the collapse of tears that would burst into tears at my almost slightest touch, he was very calm, as calm as stagnant water, but when he spoke, a little smile appeared on his face: "That little girl, is it your daughter?" ”

"Yes."

"The original one?"

"Hmm. Her name is Li'er. I said, "Later, let her come to you." ”

"In a blink of an eye, they've grown so big." He smiled and gestured with his hand: "I still remember holding her at that time, she was so big." ”

"After all, it's been seven years."

"yes."

“……”

"It's been seven years."

How are you doing in the past seven years?

This sentence has swirled countless times in my mind, and it has also circled the tip of my tongue countless times, but I can't ask him when I really see him.

Instead, he said, "In the past seven years, you seem to have experienced a lot of things. ”

“…… Well. I nodded.

"You and, that Pei Yuanxiu, what's going on?"

I put down the dishes and chopsticks tremblingly, was silent for a while, and said, "I'm married to him." ”

"You married him?" He frowned slightly and looked at me.

I once thought that one day, one day, I would sue someone for all the grievances, the pain, all the unwillingness and humiliation I experienced.

Whether it's venting or crying, this person, I can cry and scold in front of him without reservation, curse the people who have hurt me with the most vicious words, and describe my anger with the most cruel expression. Sometimes when I do this in a dream, I will wake up with my teeth gritted viciously, and when I open my eyes, my breathing and heartbeat are hideous.

However, what I really said now was with the calmest expression and the most insipid tone.

He sat across from me and listened to me calmly, and there didn't seem to be any fluctuation in his feelings, except that the hand holding the chopsticks had changed to a wine glass.

After saying the last sentence, I looked up at him, and the rain became heavier and heavier, and it seemed that all around me had become a vast ocean, and only me and him remained here. I watched his lips, which were getting paler from the cold temperature, and though they were moistened with wine, they couldn't hide the dryness.

I don't know how long I was silent, but I finally opened my mouth and asked the question.

"What about you?"

“……”

"How have you been doing in the past seven years?"

He looked up at me and suddenly smiled.

In his memory, his smile is the most heartwarming, as if a gust of March spring breeze suddenly blew in the harsh winter, which made people can't believe that there is such a beautiful thing in this world.

And I remembered what the two maids had just told me—

"Madame, have you ever seen a man who hasn't laughed for seven years?"

But now, when he talks about the past seven years, he laughs instead.

He took the flask again and poured it into the glass, and as he poured it, he said, "Do you know that in the past seven years, countless people have come to persuade me, do you know what they say? ”

……

"The prince has sent you the best and the best in the world, what else do you want?"

"As the iron halberd prince of Shengjing, all the concubines have been driven away, and there is not a single woman around, only you, do you know how difficult it is?"

"You're living the best life in the world, why aren't you touched at all?"

"Do you want to go back to those old days? Fighting, killing, and killing, in the shadow of swords and swords every day, or being calculated, is that good? ”

"Isn't your heart fleshy? The prince is so good to you, you don't feel it at all? ”

……

From the words that the two maids came to me all the way, and from Huang Tianba's sneering eyes, I could already know that Luo Shi's lobbyists were constantly persuading in his ears, bitter words, and even coercing and seducing.

But he only left a deep wrinkle that could barely be erased from the center of his eyebrows.

He said: "He was in Shengjing and built a garden for me. Mountains and rocks, springs, birds and beasts, all transported from the south of the Yangtze River, thousands of miles away, I don't know how much money was spent, I don't know how many horses died of exhaustion. When he came to Wuwei, in order to make my life more comfortable, he built this mansion and diverted the water of the Gu River. The people who serve me are all carefully selected by him, and even the chefs who cook for me are all chefs from Yangzhou. ”

“……”

"The grassland is much colder than Jiangnan, and my hands and feet are cold in winter. And he would come to me every night with medicinal wine to wipe my hands and feet, and he would not stop until I was warm. On the coldest days of winter, he would fall asleep with my feet in my arms. ”

“……”

"I had a serious illness the year before last, he found a lot of precious medicinal materials, in order to blindly make medicine for a leopard fetus, he killed a leopard with his bare hands, and a piece of meat was torn off his back, and the blood did not stop, so he came back with medicine and let people fry me."

“……”

He said a lot in one breath, and I suddenly remembered that the two maids had told me that he had seldom spoken in all these years, so in the end, his voice was almost hoarse, and he looked at me with a slight gasp: "What do you think," he asked, "am I doing well?" ”

Before, when I was talking about all these years, the tears that didn't come out of my eyes came out at this moment.

However, tears fell on the table, and the small sound was quickly drowned out by the heavy rain around it.

Huang Tianba laughed.

"Everyone thinks, even I know, that I have the best life in the world."

“……”

"But I want to die!"

My eyes widened all at once.

In the past, Huang Tianba would not have said so many words, more often than not, he just replaced the depression in his heart with silence, and covered up all his sadness with calm, but now, he said it - death!

At this moment, I really felt the torture of him in the past seven years.

Perhaps, as those lobbyists say, he lived the best life in the world, but this was not what he wanted, and it was not someone who provided him with such a life that could tie him up in a grand manner, bind his wings, and let him live in such humiliation.

I thought, no, I'm sure.

If he can't be a goshawk soaring in the nine heavens, he would rather be a self-supporting mouse in the ditch.

But—

"But I'm not going to die."

He suddenly said, "I can still do a lot while I live." ”

Tears raged on my face, leaving stains of tears, and I felt difficult to even move, but I still nodded and made a smile that even I found difficult: "Yes, Huang Ye." Just like just now, you saved Liu Qinghan. ”

He looked at me, and the look made me wonder slightly, and then I heard him say, "Do you think I saved him?" ”

“……”

I hesitated and didn't speak.

Back then, under the fireworks of the fire trees and silver flowers in Yangzhou City, he shot a golden dart and saved me from the assassin's knife, and the scene was almost exactly the same as what Liu Qinghan experienced just now.

But-

I still remember that when the golden dart was shot, it was a forced interruption of the steel knife that was slashing at me!

But just now, his golden dart shot, but it was just a crooked steel knife that slashed at Liu Qinghan.

His skills are already much worse than before!

I felt a slight chill.

In order to control him, Luo Shi should have given him some medicine, so that he had no way to perform martial arts, so he deliberately stimulated the evil Hou Qi to fight with him, and let Luo Shi give him half a pill to barely recover his body, and then he was able to take me out of Shengjing and go to Tianzi Peak.

If that's the case, then now he's-

Huang Tianba said lightly: "Now I am just like any ordinary person around. I can still throw my dart, but what I can do is not what it used to be. ”

My heart ached, and I was even breathless.

I was just thinking wrong.

Rosh did not tie his wings.

It was hard to break his wings!

Just when I was full of extreme resentment in my heart, as if I wanted to turn into a leopard and tear off a piece of meat from him, Huang Tianba said calmly: "If it weren't for Luo Shi to stop, the second knife wouldn't have been able to cut Liu Qinghan's body." ”

My heart moved, and I looked up at him.

In fact, just now, I could already feel that something was flying in the middle with a swish, the speed and strength were almost the same as his original golden dart, but because Rosh shouted to stop, it didn't cause any movement.

However, the samurai who slashed the knife still had a feeling, so afterwards, he kept looking around, but in the end, he didn't find any clues.

However, Huang Tianba and I both understand.

Someone is secretly protecting Liu Qinghan!

Huang Tian said domineeringly: "Along the way, you haven't found out?" ”

I shook my head: "It's been a safe journey, and there are no accidents, so it's—"

"Peaceful?"

He frowned slightly.

I hurriedly said, "What's wrong?" ”

"This way, you shouldn't be safe."

“……？”

"After the battle between Losh and the Eastern Chahe, although the troops were withdrawn, there were actually a lot of remnants left in this vicinity, if I guessed correctly, it was the nails left behind by the Eastern Chahe, those people were good at guerrillas, similar to horse thieves. The slightly smaller caravans did not dare to cross the river at all. ”

“……”

I didn't speak for a moment, and my mind was in a state of confusion.

Maybe because I thought too much along the way, I didn't notice that this area was originally the most unstable, not to mention the stragglers in the Eastern Chahe Division, just those fierce and ferocious horse thieves were already famous, so there were Anyang Eighteen Cavalry to escort us all the way.

However, along the way, the Anyang Eighteen Cavalry barely played any role, just serving us.

"It's not very likely that you've come all the way and haven't encountered any crisis at all. Unless—"