"Are you here for me?"

His eyes flickered, then he looked at me fixedly, and said, "If I say yes, do you believe it?" ”

“……”

I glanced around.

Ever since he reached out to hug me, the people around him have already retreated and avoided me, even Yao Lao and Butu looked to the side with a light cough, and those large guards were more like they had been ordered by someone, and they immediately disappeared.

Only the other side of the boat remained, and Han Zitong was still looking at us with red eyes.

I lowered my eyelids a little tiredly, and Pei Yuanxiu hurriedly said, "Qingying? ”

"I, I'm a little tired......"

I said, reaching out to his chest, pulling the distance between the two of them a bit, and then looking up into his eyes: "It's been a long time, I haven't eaten, and I haven't rested. ”

“……”

"I want to rest."

“……”

"I want to be quiet."

He looked at me in silence and tried to reach for my shoulder, but I stepped back without a trace, avoiding his hand. His hand just brushed my shoulder and fell.

For a while, neither of them moved again.

He looked at me for a while, and at last waved his hand gently, and several maids hurriedly stepped forward, and he gave a few orders, and the maids came and bowed to me, and said, "Madame, please come with us." ”

I turned and followed them.

When I got to the door of the cabin, I looked back, and he was still standing at the bow of the boat, looking at me with complicated eyes, the wind was cold, the water was turbulent, but he couldn't say a word, just looked at me.

I looked to the other side, the ship that was almost parallel to us.

The man, who had already been escorted by his eldest princess, had entered the cabin.

No matter how big the wind and waves outside, it won't affect him, the deck is empty, only Pei Yuanhao and Wen Fengxi's generals are left, standing still in the wind.

At this moment, the feeling of tiredness deepened, and I turned my head and walked in.

This ship is not too big, and the structure in the cabin is naturally not as large and complex as crossing the sea and flying clouds, and after a while, I walked to the door of a room, pushed open the door and walked in, smelling some incense inside, although the smell was a little strong, but I was tormented by the bad smell in the mountain road all night, and my nose, which had always been very uncomfortable, was finally a little more comfortable at this time.

I walked in and let out a long sigh of relief.

After sitting and resting for a while, the maid came to say that the hot water was ready.

I followed them to the bathroom, took off the bloodstained, muddy clothes, but saw that my body was also full of blood, mud, two palms, arms, knees and calves were also all kinds of scars, in the cold air, looking at myself like this, I was even a little in a trance, I didn't know what I had experienced along the way, and why I had come to this point, I couldn't help but tremble.

It wasn't until my hands and feet were cold that I stepped into the tub.

The warm water was pressed against the cold skin, and there was a suffocating illusion of heat for a moment, but immediately, the wounds all over the body began to ache.

I saw a hint of pink slowly floating in the milky white bath, and then a hint of ...... There seemed to be countless sharp needles pricking me in the water, but in fact, it didn't hurt too much, just dense, as if it was a long, endless torture.

I reached out and covered my face, slowly sinking my whole body into the water......

I waited so long in the bathroom that at last the maids called me at the door, and I got dressed and went out, and when they saw me, they all breathed a sigh of relief, and sent me back to my room, and dried my hair, and made my mattress, and there were warm porridge and small dishes on the table, and a few delicate pastries.

"Madame, is there anything else you would like to command?"

"No, go down."

I sat at the table, waited until they withdrew and closed the door, still sitting still, looking at the dishes on the table, looking at them for a while, and then taking a bite.

Although I wanted to eat something by myself, and I knew that I should eat something, I felt like my chest was blocked by a big rock, and it was difficult to swallow it. After swallowing it reluctantly, I felt that the feeling of suffocation was even heavier, and I almost vomited.

I frowned, took another bite, and finally put the bowl down.

Just as he was about to get up and walk to the bed, he heard a very soft knock at the door.

I thought about it and walked to the door.

"Who?"

"It's me."

"What's the matter?"

"I want to see you."

"I—"

"You're still wounded, aren't you? I've brought you medicine. ”

“……”

"Qingying, I want to see you."

His words, so gentle that they seemed to flow in through the door, filled the room, leaving me with nowhere to run, not even to breathe.

I reached out and touched the door, and stopped for a long time.

The room was very quiet, except for my breathing, I could almost hear his breathing outside a door, one by one, long and long, but not hurried, as if it could wait forever.

I, after all, opened the door.

Leaning against the head of the bed, the wet hair that had not yet dried was attached to the pillow behind him, a little cool and damp, and the smell of medicine filled the small room, which soon overshadowed the incense and the smell of the food on the table.

He held my hand in the palm of his hand and gently applied ointment to the scratches on the back of his hand.

The medicine, which should be prepared by Yao Lao, tastes different from the smell coming out of those bruising shops, it is not pungent, and it has a faint fragrance, when it is applied to the wound, there is no pain, but it is cold, and even the fine pain has become light.

When his fingertips gently touched my wounds, the little pain in my face was about to disappear.

I kept my head hanging and didn't look at him.

Although I could feel it, his eyes were always on me.

That kind of gaze is not hot or cold, but inexplicably, it just makes me feel suffocated.

I don't know how long it took, all those injuries were drugged by him, and in some places they were even finely wound with gauze, and when he had treated the last wound on my ankle, I finally let out a long breath and hurriedly retracted my calves and ankles back into my skirt.

But just as I was backing away, his hand suddenly reached out and grabbed my ankle again.

I was startled, and even my breathing was messed up.

"Young Baby ......"

His voice was a little hoarse in eagerness, and the hand holding my ankle was extremely hot, even with a slight force, and I struggled for a while, but naturally I didn't break away.

He shouted again: "Young baby! ”

The tense calm in this small room was finally completely punctured at this moment, his eager voice, eager gaze, and even eager breathing, were like a fine net, and as soon as it came out, it imprisoned me from head to toe, and I tried to retreat again, but I found that I had nowhere to retreat, my ankle was still in his hand, and the other hand had already touched my cheek.

It was the same scorching temperature that made me shiver.

By this time, he had leaned over and his hot breath was blowing on my face, and when I turned my head away from his gaze, the breath hit my neck and collarbone, as if he were also caressing.

"Young Baby......" He had already come up to me and said softly, "I-"

"I want to rest."

I gritted my teeth and interrupted him.

He was stunned for a moment, looked into my eyes, which were obviously avoiding his gaze, and was silent for a while, before he softly said "yes", and then put his very gentle hands on my shoulders and arms, and let me lie down, and then he sat on the edge of the bed and leaned down......

"I want to rest alone."

I turned my head, looked into his eyes, and said, "Yuan Xiu, during this time, the two of us still don't want to have sex together." ”

When I said this, he froze visibly: "What did you say?" ”

“……”

"You want to share a room with me?"

"Yes."

"Why?"

I took a deep breath: "Because, after thinking about it, I am still not ready to have another son." ”

His eyes suddenly sank.

And the atmosphere in this room seems to have slowly sunk down with his affection.

The air, which was already a little stuffy, seemed to freeze at this moment, and I even felt a stone pressed against my chest, and it became very difficult to breathe.

Listening to his heavy breathing in front of me made me more and more depressed.

After a long time, he finally let out a long breath, then reached out and held my cheek, and said, "Okay, we can have no children first, we __"

"Yuan Xiu," I interrupted him, looking at his eyes, which had become a little anxious, I took a deep breath and said, "Let's be separated for a while." ”

“……”

When he spoke again, his voice was completely hoarse: "Didn't you say that this time we went to sea, just let us separate and think about it?" ”

"Yes, that's what I intended."

"So that's what happens after you think about it?"

I nodded, "Yes." ”

His hand holding my cheek still didn't let go, but his fingertips trembled slightly, as if he was suppressing something: "Did you make this decision before you went to sea, or did you change your original intention and make it after you went to sea?" ”

“……”

For some reason, he asks such a question.

But at this moment, my mind was also at a loss for a moment.

Have I ever made such a decision?

No, I don't.

From the day I married him, I was already doomed to the fate of a woman, even if I saw that the day of our wedding was "taboo marriage"; Even on the seventh day of marriage, the child runs away from home; Even if he is not recognized by the Yan family in Xichuan; Even though...... At that time, he used to joke, and it was not an auspicious joke, that we would "leave...... Even with so much going on, it never occurred to me to actually part with him.

But now, in the face of such a gentle him, I really told him that I would be separated from him for a while.

I thought that the past qiē would come to an end the moment I leaned into his arms.

It turns out that there is not.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but smile faintly bitterly.

Pei Yuanxiu immediately said: "It's after going to sea, right?" ”

“……”

"After you went to sea, you had such an idea?"

I remembered that night, after Han Zitong said those words, I felt like a pinprick and didn't speak.

He nodded, "I see." ”