I was silent for a moment and said, "Is it Princess Lechang and Xu Deyan?" ”

When Li'er heard this, her eyes suddenly lit up: "Yes, yes, it's Princess Lechang," she looked up at me with a smile: "Mother, you are so amazing, have you heard this story too?" ”

I smiled faintly: "It's just a little story, it's just a little story." ”

"Really?"

"Yes."

Li'er looked at me for a moment, then nodded as if she didn't understand.

Then, she and I were silent for a while, and I was in no mood to speak for a while, just leaning quietly on the couch, feeling Li'er lying in my arms, and the feeling of even breathing could slightly calm down my breathing that had just been a little hesitant.

After a while, Li'er said again: "But, mother, that person is so wasteful." ”

"What?"

"He took so many people out with me, but when it was time to eat, it was just me and him who were sitting, and everyone else had to stand."

“……”

"I asked them to sit down and eat, but they wouldn't have any of them."

“……”

"Also, it's just the two of us eating, but that table, such a big table, is all full. The dishes on the store's water sign are all on it. ”

“……”

"However, he doesn't eat a lot of dishes, and some dishes only eat one bite."

I smiled faintly, and I didn't intend to explain anything, but smiled faintly: "Perhaps, those dishes are not to his liking." ”

"Then, why does he give me a bite of every thing I eat. It's weird. ”

“…… He's asking people to help you taste the saltiness. ”

Li'er pouted: "What's so troublesome, can't I taste it myself?" Moreover, when I wanted to drink soup, he still held the bowl by himself, and when it was cold, he gave it to me to drink, and he had to feed me to drink. ”

“…… So, did you drink it? ”

"Nope." Li'er shook her head and said seriously: "Mother, you have already taught me that you have to do your own things." I'm nine years old, and I can eat on my own without being fed. ”

"Did he say anything?"

Li'er shook his head again and said, "He didn't say anything, but—I don't know why, he didn't seem to be in a good mood, and he didn't speak again when it was time to eat." ”

“……”

I looked at Li'er's shining eyes, and I didn't know what to say for a while.

At this moment, the sourness in my heart came up, and I thought, maybe his sourness at that time was the same as mine.

We have all missed too many moments in our child's life, her babbling, her toddler, her first smile of happiness, her first crying grievances, every one of her memories, in our lives, but they are all blank, an irreparable regret.

And he misses out on a lot more than I miss.

Thinking of this, I lowered my head and looked at Li'er's round black and white eyes, as well as the long, fluttering eyelashes like butterfly wings, and then gently branded a kiss on her smooth forehead.

At this time, Li'er raised her head to look at me, her big round eyes blinked, reflecting the flickering candles in the room, which became more and more clear and bright, and she said seriously: "Mother, I really listened to you, I didn't ask him for those things, I didn't ask him for anything." After we had eaten, we went shopping, and he started to buy things for me, and I clearly said no, but he still asked people to buy them, and some things, I just looked at them curiously, and he asked them to buy them. ”

“……”

"I didn't really ask him for those things."

I don't know if it was looking at Li'er's eager, but clean and dusty eyes, or because I realized that at that moment, as a father's low and eager mood, I couldn't help but have red eyes.

I can still understand him.

The kind of person who wants to make up, wants to make up for all the debts over the years, all the missing love and doting, wants to make up for the absent father's love and mother's love over the years, and even wants to pay for her in that moment.

But how is that possible?

Until now, between Li'er, Han Ruoshi, and Han Zitong, there are still childhood memories that I don't know, which belong to herself and their two sisters, and he has even been absent longer than me, which may be the reason why he can't recognize her calmly after seeing Li'er and getting together for a day, and tell her that he is her father, right?

I couldn't help but choke a little, and gradually, my eyes turned red.

Li'er lay in my arms, quiet, as if listening to my heartbeat, but after a long silence, she gently raised her head, looked at me for a while, and said, "Mother, what's wrong with you?" ”

“…… Well? ”

"Isn't my mother sad?"

“……”

"Isn't my mother happy?"

“……”

I didn't adjust my mood for a while, and I didn't know how to calm myself down to answer her question, in this moment, Li'er seemed to have thought a lot, and said: "Mother, will you and Daddy agree that I will go to Yangzhou tomorrow?" ”

“……”

I slowly stood up, looked down at my daughter in my arms, and her clear eyes, and asked, "Do you want to go?" ”

“……”

"Would you like to see him again?"

“……”

This time, it was Li'er who was quiet.

Her demeanor also seemed to have become a little dignified, and there seemed to be a lot of tangled feelings in her black and white eyes.

I watched her quietly.

The two of them were silent like this for a long time, and Li'er raised her eyes to look at me, and nodded gently, but solemnly.

"I think."

"Why?"

“……”

Li'er blinked, but this time, she didn't answer me, but after a long silence, she gently lowered her head and lay down in my arms, her round little arms around my waist, hugging me tightly, as if she wanted to draw a trace of silence from me, a trace of clarity that could solve her confusion.

She and I embraced each other so much that I could scarcely forget the time, and by the time the maid knocked softly on the door, waking me up from my half-asleep chaos, it was already completely dark.

When I looked down, Li'er fell asleep in my arms.

The weather is actually a little hot, even if it is slightly cool in the evening, but two people hugging each other like this, ironing each other's body temperature, is enough to make people sweat. Li'er's little face was slightly red, and there were fine beads of sweat on her forehead and nose, but this did not affect her peace of mind in her mother's arms.

I stroked her forehead, kissed her gently, and then slowly picked her up, and the maids hurriedly stepped forward to take her carefully and carried her to the bed.

Li'er smashed his mouth, turned over, and fell into a deep sleep again.

I sat on the edge of the bed and looked at her contented sleeping face, smiled slightly, and then turned back to a maid and said, "You keep watch well, don't wake her up." ”

"Madame, don't worry."

I nodded, and when I walked to the door, I looked back again, and saw that Li'er was still sleeping soundly, so I closed the door and walked out.

An attendant picked me up at the door with a lantern, and I followed him through the almost empty garden.

Speaking of these days, I don't have such a mood to visit the garden at night, at the moment it is all dark all around, only the faint red light emitted by the lantern in front illuminates the road of a small bluestone slab, and the road has become a little strange. I could only follow closely behind the attendant, and when he stopped and saw the faint candlelight from the window in front of me, I realized that he had taken me to the room before Pei Yuanxiu.

The attendant stopped at the door, turned back to me and said respectfully, "Madam, Childe is inside." ”

I nodded, walked over and knocked lightly on the door.

As soon as I finished knocking, the door opened.

Pei Yuanxiu stood at the door, looking at me calmly and gently.

"You're here."

"Hmm."

"Come, come in."

"Okay."

He stepped aside, and I stepped inside.

This room, it's not that I haven't seen it, I just arrived in Jinling for a period of time, recuperation, healing, are all here, at that time, of course, I won't notice who this room is, and now I have to react, when I was carried back to this mansion by him from the riverside, I lived directly in his room.

When I think about it, it's been years.

And this place is almost exactly the same as the first time I opened my eyes, and nothing has changed, not even the people I met here.

Probably, what has changed is only the mood.

But it can also be seen that Han Zitong has spent a lot of effort here, otherwise, after so many years, how can a forgotten room still be exactly the same as it was at the beginning.

I walked to the table, and when I turned back, he had already closed the door, and the candle flame was about to be extinguished by a little night breeze that had just blown in, and he walked to the candlestick, one hand protected the candle, and the other hand gently picked the candle center, and the flame fluttered and slowly burned.

Then he turned around and smiled at me.

He had also bathed, changed into a snow-white casual coat, and his long hair was hanging down at the back of his head, in addition to the handsomeness, he showed a different kind of leisure and comfort, and the orange candlelight shone on his body, revealing a warm atmosphere.

I smiled slightly.

He walked over and sat down, reached out and took the cup on the table and poured the tea, and said, "Li'er is asleep?" ”

"Hmm."

"Tired of playing, aren't you?"

"Looks like so."

"She, are you having fun?"

“……”

I hesitated for a moment, but after hesitating, I said, "It's okay." She has never been to Yangzhou, and it is all new to her. ”

He poured a cup of tea and gently put it in front of me, poured another cup for himself, and then looked up at me: "She, she doesn't know yet, that's her biological father, right?" ”

I nodded: "She doesn't know yet." ”

Pei Yuanxiu's eyes flickered, and he said: "I thought that when he saw Li'er this time, he would definitely recognize her and disclose her identity as a princess, but I didn't expect that he didn't have it at all." ”

I couldn't help but frown.