Don't you want me to come?

When he heard me say this, Han Zitong's whole body stiffened.

The flickering candle flame shone on her pale face, and also shone on those eyes with complicated expressions, as if there were countless emotions flashing at this moment.

Panic, fear, dazedness, helplessness

I could even feel her breathing and heartbeat getting heavy.

"Don't you want me to come?"

I repeat it again.

I don't know if it was because my fist was clenched too tightly, squeezing the bubble that had just swelled, and the stinging pain in my palm came from a burst, but I squeezed my fist tighter, and the stinging pain also made me more awake.

No matter how sad and sad others are, no matter what has happened and what will happen this night, I must recognize the road in front of me, and I must also be firm in my next road and go on well

It seemed to be struck by the almost sharp sober gaze in my eyes, and Han Zitong's eyes also recovered a little clearly.

She said, "You, you know I want to let you go."

I smiled faintly: "This position, sooner or later, I will have to give it up." ”

“”

"Instead of making everyone tear their faces in the future, no one's face is good-looking, and it will make him in a dilemma, why don't I be a favor and give you this position to your sister and take the initiative to give it up."

“”

"Perhaps, this is a great merit."

Han Zitong looked at me under the light of the candlelight, his expression was a little uncertain, and he seemed to have something to say, but he wanted to speak a few times, as if he didn't know how to ask, and at this time, the noisy sound outside was getting louder and louder, I have no doubt that after the ceremony, after the bride and groom got together with the guests, Pei Yuanxiu would immediately return to the inner courtyard, because he said that he would go to the inner courtyard to accompany me tonight, if he arrived in the inner courtyard, what would be the mood in the face of the empty room

If he catches him here, will I still have a chance to leave?

I don't dare to think about it, and I don't want to think about it.

So, I took a deep breath and said, "I've come here, and I've made a decision. ”

“”

"I'm leaving"

“”

Han Zitong bit her lower lip and stood at the door, she seemed to be a little hesitant, but after hesitating again and again, she looked at my eyes without hesitation, and finally made up her mind, and said, "Okay." ”

“”

"I'm ready, you come with me."

Hearing her say this, I was also relieved.

In fact, since she went to the inner courtyard that day, after I told her those words, I could almost predict today, and I also knew that in order to let her sister sit in the position of Pei Yuan's wife, she would definitely try her best to let me give up this position and send me away, which is indeed the easiest and most direct way.

I watched her come and walk past me, all the way to the other end of the room, and knocked lightly on a closed window on the other side, and in a few moments there were three very soft knocks on the edge of the window.

It was she who prepared the answer

I was overjoyed and hurried over.

But just as I turned around and was about to walk over, a low, somewhat strange voice came from behind me

"Madame"

I paused, stopped, and turned back.

Cai Wei was still standing at the door with the flickering glass lamp, looking at me with a complicated expression.

I looked at her too.

"Madame, do you still want to go?"

"Yes."

"Madame didn't say that people are all seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages, isn't Madame afraid of being caught by the son again?"

As soon as she heard this, Han Zitong already felt that something was wrong, she frowned and was about to come over, but I had already said calmly: "Of course I'm afraid." ”

"That"

"But even if you're afraid, there are some things you can't help but do." Although I said this, I didn't immediately walk to Han Zitong's side, but slowly turned around and turned to face her.

The lantern in her hand shook more violently than when it was blown by the wind just now, because her hands were shaking all the time.

Of course, I know what this moment means to her, after all, she was beaten so badly in the inner courtyard at the beginning, and it was a point that Pei Yuanxiu wanted her to remember deeply, so that she would never dare to let me go again, and let her no longer dare to think about the "getting ahead" that she shouldn't think about.

People are all seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages.

"Madame said at that time that if the slave and maid would also be afraid of pain and give up the idea of coming out, then maybe Madame would also give up the idea of leaving."

I narrowed my eyes slightly: "Did you give up?"

“”

Han Zitong, who had been standing by the window, showed a look of astonishment on her face, although the conversation between me and Cai Wei was a little endless, but when it came to this time, she had obviously understood, and her face suddenly sank, watching Cai Wei retreat little by little, the expression on her face became more and more afraid, as if she had returned to that day, when she was tortured outside the door, that painful and miserable moment.

When she spoke again, her voice was already fragmented and trembling and changed her tone: "Madame, I'm sorry. ”

“”

"I, I really didn't mean to, and I didn't want to give up."

“”

"But I'm afraid"

“”

"I can't stand it a second time, Childe said, if I help you escape again, I don't want to live."

“”

"Madame, I'm sorry, me"

Seeing that she was trembling more and more, and slowly retreating back, Han Zitong suddenly became anxious and hurriedly walked over: "You"

Before she could say anything, the fear in Caiwei's eyes had overwhelmed her, and she turned around sharply and was about to shout outside.

At the gate of this courtyard, there were the guards who had sent us over, and if she shouted, they would immediately rush in, and when the time came, it would be the same as before.

Falling short

But just as she opened her mouth wide and was about to speak, there was only a dry cry in her throat, hissing like the sound of grit grinding.

At this time, she was stunned, and suddenly reached out to cover her throat, and shouted hard, coughing, but no matter how much she tossed, she could not utter anything except dry calls.

I looked at her anxious and frightened appearance coldly, this scene was so familiar.

And how heartbreaking

I said slowly, "Don't try, it's dumb." ”

“”

Her eyes widened in horror and turned her head to look at me, not only her, but even Han Zitong next to her was stunned, looking at me with an indifferent face in disbelief, as if looking at a demon. Cai Wei's eyes flickered twice, and she was about to turn around to open the door, but just as she walked over and her hand touched the door, I immediately said, "If you don't want to be dumb for the rest of your life, it's best not to go out and call someone." ”

“”

Her hand froze there again.

The whole person seemed to be nailed to the door, a puppeteer's body that had lost its traction, and even her eyes were cold for a moment, and she looked back at me tremblingly, her eyes full of horror and fear, as if she couldn't believe what was happening in front of her.

"You're still young, and you're so smart," I walked over slowly, walked in front of her, reached out and took the glass lamp in her trembling hand, which was shaking so much that it would fall to the ground at any time, and snapped the lid shut, "Wouldn't it be a pity if you were really dumb for a lifetime?"

The candle flame inside the glass lamp struggled a few times before finally going out.

And Cai Wei was like the extinguished candle flame, and suddenly fell to her knees limply.

Han Zitong walked a few steps to my side, looked at her, looked at me again, and asked after a while, "What's the matter, how could she be?"

I said lightly, "I just used a little medicine." ”

"What medicine"

"Some spices, which can make people lose their strength, and scopoles, belladonna, plus musk, when lit, will make people's throats hoarse."

That is, the drugs I used to deal with Liu Ningyan in the palace back then.

Han Zitong also trembled, her eyes fell on the glass lamp that had been extinguished in my hand, Cai Wei was still holding her throat with one hand, and she also looked at the glass lamp, and her face suddenly turned pale.

Han Zitong's cold sweat broke out, and he looked at me in disbelief: "You, you have long suspected that she would betray you, so you got those things in this"

“”

This time, I didn't speak, just looked at Cai Wei, who was trembling, and her eyes trembled slightly.

After a while, I said, "I just don't want anyone to betray me." ”

“”

When she heard my words, her face turned red, as if she had been slapped in the face.

Seeing her trembling like a small beast that had fallen into a trap for a beast, frightened and helpless, and there seemed to be some indescribable feelings surging in my eyes, I was silent for a long time, and then continued: "Actually, I was jealous of you first, I have no pity for you, and you don't have to blame yourself too much." ”

“”

"If you don't want to betray me today, then I'm the one to blame."

“”

"I'm just taking precautions."

“”

"Now, Miss Zitong and I will leave, and when I leave here, I will ask her to bring back the antidote. At that time, if you want to leave, you have to stay" I glanced back at Han Zitong and said softly: "I hope you can make it convenient." ”

Han Zitong was obviously stunned by what happened in front of him, and when he heard me say this, he subconsciously nodded.

I hooked the corners of my lips, and then said to Cai Wei: "If you want to go to the ventilator, just try it, you won't be able to get the medicine." The feeling of being dumb for a lifetime, you can take advantage of the present and imagine it first. ”

“”

"If you're willing to be dumb for the rest of your life, you can go out and call someone now."

“”

Her face was pale and she looked at me in horror, her eyes full of tears.

I stood up and was about to leave with Han Zitong, but as soon as I took a step, I stopped again, looked back at her helplessly, and said softly: "Actually, you are a good girl, and there is nothing wrong with having such thoughts, but you should have greater courage and stronger perseverance to support your ideas." ”

“”

"In this world, it's too difficult for a woman to get ahead."

“”

She looked up at me, her eyes puzzled, her lips trembling, as if asking me why

Why

Because

"Because, all the rules that restrict women in this world are made by men, and they have made such rules to restrict women, but this is not the most difficult reason, the most difficult is because there are more women who help men use these rules to restrict women who want to get ahead"

“”

"If you really want to get ahead, you have a lot of enemies."

Hearing my last words, a light flashed in her eyes.

And after I said this, I didn't stop any longer, turned around and walked to the window, Han Zitong pushed open the window, and saw several figures flickering in the dark night outside, as if they had been waiting there.

I could feel Cai Wei behind me watching me, but I didn't look back, stepped on a stool, and quickly flipped out.

There are many people in this world, they have different lives, and they will take different paths, everyone's road is full of hostility, and there are many gentle and kind concerns, and under the pressure there will be two possibilities, one is stronger, the other is weaker, how this little woman will go in the future, is she to choose.

After leaving this room, I saw a few people standing in front of me, and said cautiously, "Miss." ”

Han Zitong asked in a low voice, "Are you all ready?"

"There's already someone waiting at the back door. Just wait for the young lady and the lady to come over. ”

"Okay, let's go."

Without further ado, I followed them.

I have never had an in-depth understanding of the residence of the Han sisters, and I don't know that there is a back door here, but the road is very hidden, perhaps because there is no one walking at all, and the bamboo and grass growing on both sides are very lush and lush, almost covering this inaccessible road.

We walked all the way through, and we relied on the people in front of us to keep pushing the branches and leaves on both sides to barely move forward.

I couldn't help but ask, "What is this?"

"This is a small road in the former Jiangxia Palace," Han Zitong said in a low voice: "After the merger of the two sides, this place will be deserted." ”

"Oh"

I nodded and walked on.

Although I didn't speak, Han Zitong next to me seemed to have something to say, she looked at me several times, and stopped talking several times, and finally seemed to be unable to hold back, and said in a low voice: "That girl is dumb by you, do you really have an antidote?"

I didn't look back: "No." ”

"What"

"No antidote."

"What do you mean without an antidote, didn't you just say"

"I just want to restrain her, after all, no one wants to live a silent life for a young girl," I said calmly as I stretched out my hand to remove a branch that had fallen next to me, "I was already very light on those medicines, and I only received a little medicine when she lit the lantern, and it was only temporarily smoked and dumb, and it will recover after a few days of rest." ”

“”

"If the medicinal properties were really heavy, we would have been standing by her side, and something would have happened a long time ago."

“”

This time I attacked Cai Wei, which is different from drugging Liu Ningyan, and I don't really want to hurt this girl.

I just wanted to leave.

Han Zitong turned her head to look at me, and the almost frightened look in her eyes was clear, as if she was looking at some kind of monster, and I could feel her breathing becoming rapid.

After being silent for a while, seeing that the front was about to come to an end, she suddenly said, "Those musks, where did you come from?"

“”

My steps faltered.

She continued, "Musk. ”

“”

"Yuan Xiu has always paid attention to this, he has always hoped that you can give birth to a son for him, and the previous agreement between him and his sister is that you will not marry until you give birth to his first child, and I heard that this kind of thing will make women infertile. In the past half a year, the government will not use this kind of thing lightly, where did you get it?"

“”

"You say"

Her question wasn't aggressive, and it wasn't the time for her to be aggressive, but for some reason, it sounded like someone was really asking me.

For a moment, my steps became heavy.

I could already hear the sound of the person leading the way in front of me coming to the end, and under the cover of the leaves, I could also see the towering wall in front of me and a small black door, and it was time to leave.

I was silent for a moment and said, "Removed from my pillow and quilt." ”

"What"

Han Zitong was shocked and looked at me in disbelief.

"From pillows, and quilts"

I looked at her, didn't say anything more, and kept walking.

Han Zitong seemed to be a little dazed, walked over a few steps, grabbed my wrist and pulled me to her, his eyes were a little red: "You sewed musk in your pillow and quilt"

I looked at her lightly: "Yes." ”

"Since when"

"When you come back from the sea."

"Come back from the sea," she looked at me with wide eyes, choking her breath, and after a while, as if she understood something, she said, "Because I told you on that island that he had made an agreement with his sister that he would marry my sister when you gave birth to his son, so when you came back, you sewed musk in the pillow and quilt."

“”

"You don't want to give him a son"

“”

"You don't want my sister to marry him"

Listening to her voice getting louder and louder, more and more uncontrollable, even the attendants who escorted us around were frightened, standing around and not daring to move, I lowered my eyelashes and was silent for a while, and then slowly raised my head to look at her, and said, "It turns out that I just did a useless job. ”

“”

"Today, I didn't give birth to his son, but it's still their big day."

“”

"They're already married, is there any point in pursuing this now?"

Han Zitong looked at me, his eyes flickering again.

Even she knows that at this time, it is meaningless to ask whether I can give birth to his child or not, and some things have come to this point, so how it came to be, no one will care anymore.

She bit her lower lip, slowly turned around, and continued walking.

This time, after only a few steps, we finally reached the end of the path, where the squires lifted the leaves that were tangled in the overheads, and a small dark door came close in front of us.

Out of this door, I can leave Jinling Mansion

Thinking of this, my breathing became rapid, and I subconsciously stepped forward and reached out to push the door.

Han Zitong stood behind me, motionless with a complicated expression.

Just as my hand reached the door, Han Zitong behind me suddenly said, "Then have you ever loved him?"

The bubbles in the palm of the palm were pierced by the rough wooden thorns on the door panel, and there was a sudden pain that pierced the heart.

My hands trembled.

But, I didn't look back, I just felt her standing behind me, looking at me heavily: "Have you ever loved him?"

Have I ever loved him?

This question

Why did people still ask me at this time?

was already leaving, and when he was leaving, he still came to ask me if he had ever loved him

This question that I have asked myself thousands of times, this question that I can't even think of an answer to in my head, why at this time, there are still people to ask

My hands trembled slightly, and with a subconscious effort, the wooden thorns on the door suddenly pierced into my palms.

The pain went from the palm of my hand to my arm and into my heart.

I lowered my head and said in a dumb voice, "Does it make sense to ask this question until now?"

Han Zitong took a step forward and walked behind me: "I just want to know." ”

“”

"Have you ever loved him?"

“”

My fingers slowly closed on the door, the rough wooden thorns scraped over my palms, fingertips, scratching my skin one after another, and finally, my hand clenched into a fist and clenched hard.

"You want to know if I ever loved him"

"Hmm."

I turned around and smiled faintly at her: "But even I don't know. ”

She was stunned and looked at me with wide eyes.

"I don't even know about it."

“”

After saying this, I turned my head again, and without hesitation, I reached out and pushed open the door in front of me.

I only heard a long, hoarse "squeak", and the small door, which had not been opened for almost unknown years, was finally pushed open, and suddenly, a cold wind poured in from the outside, blowing through my face and drying out the hot current that suddenly surged in my eyes.

However, it was the gust of wind that blurred my eyes.

In the midst of the confusion, I saw a dozen tall and burly guards standing outside the gate, their swords unsheathed, shining with a blinding cold light in the night.

I froze there all at once.

A voice said coldly: "Madam, the night is heavy, please go back." ”

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