"Miss, where are you going?" Xiao Yusheng looked at me, his gaze deep and heavy.

My heart stopped beating because of this question.

Where will it go?

This question, isn't it that I have asked myself thousands of times, I thought that I could stay safely by Pei Yuanxiu's side in Jinling, but I didn't expect that I would have to leave after all, but after I left that man's side, where can I go, where can I go, where is my place?

Looking at my somewhat tangled eyes, Xiao Yusheng also seemed to feel the contradiction in my heart, he was silent for a while, and said softly: "Miss, will you go back to Xichuan?" ”

I glanced at him.

His expression was plain and gentle, and he said: "No matter what the situation in Xichuan is, no matter what the Yan family is, as long as Xishan Academy is still there, it will definitely be a place for the eldest lady." ”

“……”

"Moreover, if the eldest lady returns to the academy, I think senior brother will be happy too."

“……”

I was silent for a moment.

I don't know if the happy senior brother he said was Senior Brother Nan Zhenyinan, who presided over the overall situation in Xishan Academy, or Senior Brother Liu, who was only a stone's throw away from us, but I didn't ask, I only showed a grateful smile and said, "Thank you, this, I will consider it." ”

Xiao Yusheng also smiled.

In his smile, he seemed to understand something somewhat, and when he turned his head to look again, the sky around him had completely darkened, so he leaned over to me and said, "Miss, rest first, we can discuss these things later." ”

"Well, you get some rest early, too."

"Also," he said, glancing around again, and said softly, "the eldest lady must not be able to hide it for long after leaving Jinling, and soon, everyone will find out." Please don't go out for the time being during this time when the eldest lady is here, so as not to be known, I am afraid it will cause unnecessary trouble. ”

"Okay, I got it."

He turned around and left, and when he left, I was still standing in the corridor on the second floor, looking at the scenery for a while, watching the lights of this small fishing village flickering around, listening to the river surging in the distance, and the familiar smell of fish in the wind, all as if it had been dusted many years ago.

It's like yesterday.

And the quiet room, and the faint, orange-red light coming out of the window.

As if to feel my gaze, the candlelight flickered a few times, then went out in a flash, and then melted into the dark sky around it.

I took one last look and turned back to my room.

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Early the next morning, Rue came again.

Xiao Yusheng didn't have any maids around them, so I didn't have someone to take care of my diet and daily life, and Rue Xiang had to worry a lot. She brought me breakfast, combed my hair again, looked at my face in the mirror, and sighed softly, "You have lost a lot of weight." ”

"Really?"

"I have the impression that except for you who are pregnant and have gained a little weight during your confinement, you are so thin and thin at other times."

As he spoke, he squeezed my wrist: "Look, it's the same as a firewood stick." ”

I smiled: "You seem to be very fat, look at yourself," I said, and pinched her wrist, of course she was rounder than me, but she was also thinner, but I clearly remember that she followed me to run an embroidery workshop, busy every day, with a silver bracelet on her wrist, and only a handkerchief was stuffed inside.

She smiled: "I worry about so many things every day, and being thin is what I should be." However, it was also much better than the previous year. ”

I said: "I heard Boss Wang say that your Qingyun Embroidery Workshop is now very famous, and many big silk and satin villages in Yangzhou City want to do business with you." ”

"What's my Qingyun Embroidery Workshop? It's both of us! She corrected emphatically.

I laughed.

"I'm not kidding," Rue Xiang said, her face became more and more stern, and she said, "Although I know that you will not be short of money over the years, I have saved all the shares that should be given to you, and I have also brought the Zhuang ticket in Dafeng Qianzhuang." You can carry it with you, and you can cash it out elsewhere. ”

As she spoke, she took out a stack of banker tickets from her bosom and put them on the table.

"You-"

"It's not just money," she continued, "you set up this embroidery workshop, I'm just in charge of it for you, if you don't come back for a day, I'll take care of it for a day, and if you don't come back for a year, I'll take care of it for a year." But if you come back, this embroidery workshop is yours. ”

“……”

When I looked up at her, I saw that Ruxiang's eyes were also slightly red, and said: "I know, you are only here to settle down temporarily, you and the third brother, you will not stay in this small village for a long time, and this is not a place where you can show it." ”

“……”

"But I still hope that one day, you will come back, really come back."

“……”

I held her slender but extraordinarily powerful wrist, looked into her sincere eyes, and did not speak, only smiled softly.

……

After Rue Xiang and I had a long talk, and almost half of the morning had passed, she had to go home to take care of the embroidery workshop, so she left first. I sat in the room for a while, looking at the thick, tempting stack of tickets on the table, and I was not polite, but I picked them up and folded them carefully, and then put them in the purse that I had always tied around my waist and kept close to my body.

Now, the purse is bulging, almost bursting open.

With a hint of indescribable satisfaction, I gently patted the bulging purse, then got up and walked out.

Finally walked out of this small building, and when he went downstairs, he specially asked the attendant who was waiting at the staircase, only to know that Xiao Yusheng had gone out. I don't think they will stay here for long, they must be ready to leave Yangzhou at any time, and of course they need some care.

Then I walked straight to the door.

It was so quiet that there was no noise, and if it weren't for the attendant saying that he had barely been out for the past few days, I would have mistaken it for no one in there.

Walking to the door, I knocked on the door cautiously twice.

Soon, the familiar, somewhat muffled voice came from inside: "Come in." ”

I pushed the door open and walked in.

It was a cold, snow-cave room.

I heard Xiao Yusheng say, Rue Xiang also mentioned it, he came to this courtyard, and he kept his door closed, no matter how strict he was with typhoid fever, he refused to eat meaty things, so the condition was slightly delayed, and it was not until three days later that he finally resumed his usual diet, but his feelings were always very low.

Xiao Yusheng and Rue Xiang didn't quite understand, they just felt that he was too depressed to suppress himself, but I did the math and understood.

That was Pei Yuanzhen's first seven.

However, even if he passes Pei Yuanzhen's first seven years, he can't be the same person as he used to be.

At this moment, I saw the familiar, but somewhat unfamiliar back, who was sitting at the table, as if looking at himself in the mirror, and I saw at a glance that his silver mask, which almost never left his body, had been removed and placed on the table by his hand.

Then, as soon as he raised his eyes, he saw me reflected in the mirror.

I also saw him in the mirror, the eyes that seemed extraordinarily desolate, although they were so far away, they could be seen clearly at a glance, blank and empty, there was a kind of vastness that people could see through at a glance, thousands of miles of boundlessness.

Like this snowy cave-like house, it's cold, it's cold.

At this time, both of them fell silent.

I don't know how long it took, but he made a move first, but he picked up the mask in his hand and quickly put it back on his face, and immediately, the pale face in the mirror seemed to be immediately covered with a layer of ice, and it seemed cold like every time in the past, even if he didn't face each other, he could feel the coldness in the pupils of those eyes.

Then he turned to look at me and greeted me calmly: "Madame, don't come unharmed. ”

I also opened my lips that were a little dry: "Lord Liu......"

As soon as the words came out, I regretted it.

Because, seeing that his pupils flickered slightly, as if they were about to be broken, he lowered his eyelashes and said, "Madam, I am already a criminal in the imperial court, the murderer of the eldest princess, and Madame doesn't have to call me 'adult' anymore." ”

I thought about it, and then said slowly: "Light Han Boy." ”

He bowed his head slightly.

I continued, "But Childe doesn't have to call me Madame anymore. After all, my husband has already married someone else, and I have escaped from Jinling, so I can't afford the title of 'lady'. ”

He didn't look at me, his lowered eyelashes were like a haze, thick and shrouded in his eyes, so that I couldn't see his feelings clearly at this moment.

After a long time, he said softly, "Miss Light." ”

I nodded.

Then, the two of them fell silent again.

Actually, I have a lot to say to him, and he must have a lot to say to me, but now it seems that something invisible is choked in his throat, and when he faces each other, he can't say a word.

A gust of wind poured into the room from behind me, adding to the chill in the room, which had been like a snow cave.

He was thinly dressed, but he didn't seem to feel it, maybe because somewhere on his body was a little colder than the cool breeze and the cold air now, but when he saw my somewhat pale face, he thought for a moment and said, "Madam, let's go out for a walk." ”

I nodded, "Okay." ”

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Outside, where there is sunshine, it seems to be a little warmer.

None of us spoke, but we all didn't leave the house, just wandered around the little courtyard. The sun shone down through the patio, adding a touch of warmth to the cool bluestone pavement under our feet.

It's as if even the path under your feet is illuminated.

Although the two of them walked together, they did not walk side by side, he walked in front and I walked behind him.

No one spoke, as if they were thinking, brewing, and I gradually found that walking one after the other, every step, every stop, unconsciously fell into an inexplicable rhythm.

When he took a step forward, I stepped right in the invisible footprint he left behind.

One more step, also stepping in his footprints.

I looked up and looked at his broad shoulders and back, which had always been as tall as a mountain, but at this moment, I don't know if it was because he was seriously ill and had just recovered, or for some other reason, he looked a little rickety, as if there was an invisible mountain pressed on his back.

"Light ......"

"Light ......"

The two men spoke almost at the same time, and his footsteps faltered, and finally stopped.

I also stopped only one step away from him, just stepping on the footprint he had just left, watching him look back, under the sun, there was a large shadow on his face, so that I couldn't see what kind of expression he was, only to hear his voice slightly hoarse and say, "You speak first." ”

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