Waiting for Cai Wei to breathe a sigh of relief, we quickly left the teahouse, I also listened to Liu Qinghan's words, and went to the previous tooth shop to change the time, although this made the boss a little embarrassed, I gave him a little more silver, so that they would wait for me at the entrance of Jixiang Village at the latest in Youshi, the boss took the silver, and immediately went to dispatch with a smile.

Then, Liu Qinghan and I took Cai Wei and soon returned to Jixiang Village.

As soon as I entered the door, I saw Xiao Yusheng sitting at the stone table in the corner of the courtyard drinking tea, still quiet and handsome as always, but when he looked at this "uncompetitive" Senior Brother Liu, he felt a little angry.

But he immediately came over and saluted me and him.

Then, when I saw Cai Wei who was following behind us, she was timid, and immediately frowned: "Who is she?"

Liu Qinghan said: "I'll tell you about this later, now let's clean it up first." ”

"Hmm"

"Come on."

He patted Xiao Yusheng's shoulder with one hand, then turned around and ordered a guard on the other side to go to the east of the village to find Mrs. Ruxiang, who often came here, to come and help.

I nodded to him, and then the two of them went their separate ways, I took Cai Wei upstairs and entered my room, she was still a little restless, after all, her body was covered with mud, and it was not easy to stain my mattress, but luckily Rue came in a hurry after a while. As soon as she went upstairs, she seemed to feel that the atmosphere of these people was not quite right, and she was about to ask me, but I had already pulled her to help, got some hot water for Cai Wei, and also brought two sets of change of clothes, and when Cai Wei stayed in the room alone to wash, the two of us stood in the corridor, and Rue Xiang frowned and asked me: "What's the matter, why do you look like?"

I didn't hide it from her: "We're leaving soon." ”

"What"

Her eyes widened, and she grabbed my arm: "So fast"

"Originally, they were scheduled for tonight, and I planned to stay one last night and leave tomorrow, but now it seems that it may not work."

"Why"

I told her Cai Wei's identity, her current situation, and Liu Qinghan's worries, and Rue Xiang heard that cold sweat flowed out when she heard it, and said: "That is, maybe, that man, he will come to arrest you back."

"I'm afraid so."

I smiled faintly as I said this.

This man and Pei Yuanhao are so different, but, perhaps, they really spent the same years together in that cold, high-walled imperial city, although they are hostile to each other, they also have too much in common. Pei Yuanhao once told me clearly, I can't leave him, even if I die, even the body belongs to him; And Pei Yuanxiu, he has been countless times, when I was the most vulnerable, the most confused, and the most helpless, he clearly asked me to call his name and imprinted it in my heart, and he also told me countless times that I belonged to him and he was alone.

I don't want to bet on his generosity, his kindness.

Rue Xiang looked at me with a complicated expression and said, "Then, you really have to hurry up."

"Hmm."

"Then, are you going to go with the third brother?"

I glanced at her, was silent for a moment, and shook my head.

Rue Xiang didn't seem too surprised, but the clearly injured look in her eyes was clear, and she looked at me with a bit of sadness: "You two, you should also be separated."

“”

"Why?"

“”

"Obviously now that you have left that man, he, he" seemed to realize that there were some things that could not be said, and it was disrespectful to the deceased to say them, she swallowed hard, but still said with regret: "Why, can't you be together?"

Looking at her regretful expression, it seems that she is the only one who will really feel sorry for me and Liu Qinghan, because she watched this relationship grow, including our encounter, getting along, getting married, and even later I returned to Jixiang Village, relying on the memories of the past during the time, she also accompanied me, maybe she may not understand our feelings too much, but she knows how many difficulties and difficulties there are.

However, no matter how difficult it is, no matter how difficult it is, you can't help but let go.

After all, there are too many people and things between me and him, and I know very well that he has just experienced the pain of losing his wife, and it is impossible for him to accept me without any guilt, just like today in the market in Qishan Village, although he has been accompanying me, helping me choose clothes and things, but he has not touched me at all, and even when he is a little closer to me, he will leave to distance us.

At least in the short term, he can't let go of Pei Yuanzhen.

And I've come to this point, and I've taken a lot of light on some things.

I have no regrets about having a pleasant experience with him today, but if I want to fall in love again, or even marry again, I don't think I still have that ability.

My heart is not dead, but it is withered.

My two husbands, Pei Yuanhao and Pei Yuanxiu, are not so easy to let go of me, their shadows have always been in my heart, like a nightmare, even if I escape to the ends of the earth, I can't get rid of it.

I understand that this is not even the time for us to talk about the relationship between children and daughters.

He must go to Xichuan to take over Yan Qinghan's family business, and form his own between Xichuan and the imperial court, Xichuan and Jiangnan, which is enough to balance the forces of all parties.

As for me, my daughter is still with the emperor and so on.

Thinking of this, I smiled faintly and said, "Do you know, it is a great blessing to be able to love someone without worry. ”

“”

"But not everyone has this blessing."

“”

"To this day, the responsibilities that I and he have borne are greater than blessings."

Hearing me say this, Rue Xiang's eyes were originally just a little red, but at this moment tears immediately poured out, and even a little caught off guard, she bit her lower lip tightly, but she couldn't control her voice and choked: "Why, why did you come to this point?"

“”

"Before, when you and he were in the village, how nice it was"

Hearing her words, my already calm heart lake was like someone throwing a stone, and immediately rippled.

And at this time, in the small courtyard downstairs, the man seemed to have explained something to Xiao Yusheng, and at this moment Xiao Yusheng had immediately gone down and told the people below to prepare, and when he walked into the courtyard and was about to go back to his room, he suddenly seemed to feel something, and raised his head to look at us.

Under the sun, the face, which was half covered by the cold mask, seemed to have another layer of frost.

I smiled faintly.

"yes, at that time, how nice it was"

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