This morning, early in the morning, I saw the maids of the Yang Mansion running out in a hurry, Cai Wei was already familiar with the way, and walked in with a basin of hot water to serve me to wash, while looking out, and said, "I don't know what was sent today." ”

These days, the emperor gives food here every day, and even she is used to it.

I didn't say anything, after washing, I sat down at the dresser and asked her to comb my hair, but today seems to be a little different, usually at this time, things have been sent in, but now, my hair is combed, but there is no movement.

Cai Wei put a loose bun on the back of my head, and just inserted the bead hairpin, I heard a very noisy footsteps outside, it seemed that there were more people than usual, I don't know why, I felt a sense of unease, and I heard a tuk tuk knock at the door.

Cai Wei smiled and said in a low voice, "I'm sending something again." ”

I was noncommittal, she had put down her comb and ran over to open the door.

As soon as the door opened, she froze in the doorway, silent.

I turned my head to take a look, only to see her looking at the people outside the door with a stunned face, and her voice was a little lower: "You, who are you?" ”

Yang Jinqiao's voice came from outside the door: "Cai Wei, get out of the way and let Niangniang in!" ”

Cai Wei was startled, and immediately took a few steps back, sideways to the side, my heart sank, reached out and held the edge of the dresser and slowly stood up, and saw a person walking in outside the door.

The man was dressed in a splendid but heavy robe, which hung on the ground and dragged long, as if all embroidered with gold and silver thread, reflecting the sunlight outside the door and reflecting the multicolored light; In that light, the thin man turned slowly, and on his pale and emaciated face, there were cold, almost warm eyes, and they were pitch black, like a bottomless, waveless deep pool.

As soon as I met her eyes, I only felt my whole body tremble, and subconsciously, I walked over slowly.

There were still many people standing outside the door, the guards, the palace maids, and Yang Jinqiao, all holding their breath, and they didn't even dare to take a breath at the moment, until they saw me walk in front of that person, the two of them looked at each other silently, but they couldn't say a word, Yang Jinqiao finally called softly: "Cai Wei come out!" ”

"Oh, oh!"

This time Cai Wei was very well-behaved, probably she also felt the extraordinary identity of the comer, even Yang Jinqiao, as the eldest lady of this family, did not dare to speak lightly, she did not dare to delay, and hurriedly walked out, Yang Jinqiao said cautiously: "Niangniang, I'll wait outside." ”

With that, she reached out and closed the door.

There was the sound of sparse footsteps outside, and the men seemed to retreat.

In the room, there were only two of us left.

The sunlight was cut off on the other side of the door, and the room suddenly became dark, and only a faint ray of sunlight could be seen through the gap in the window behind her, and a lot of dust flew in it.

Then I looked her in the eye again.

At this moment, ripples finally appeared in the bottomless, waveless, deep pool-like eyes.

Looking at her like this, I finally couldn't say anything more, but slowly knelt down: "Queen! ”

Standing in front of me is Chang Qing, the woman who has the top status in the Celestial Empire, but when I look at her at this moment, I feel that her eyes are extremely haggard, and the whole person seems to have been sucked away by time, and many things are empty.

She looked at me quietly, and there was a flash of light in her eyes, and at this time, her red lips finally opened lightly, and she slowly said a word-

"Even if I don't come, Zining won't make a sound?"

As soon as I heard her words, I felt like someone had punched me hard in the chest, and a dull pain made it difficult for me to continue breathing, I only felt tears in my eyes, almost crying, but I couldn't say anything, only said softly: "Queen......"

Her gorgeous skirt with the curve of the waves and tumbling, slowly appeared in front of my eyes, at this time, a pair of cold white hands reached over, holding my arm and slowly helped me up, I stood up, looked at her weeping eyes, as if I finally couldn't support it, she sighed, and said softly: "Knowing that you are okay, I am relieved." ”

"Queen!"

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I didn't expect to see Chang Qing so soon and in such a situation.

She is more gentle but tranquil than I imagined, always with a little rejection of a cold woman, now she seems to be the same as back then, only more cold, as if her whole person has become an ice cave, the years have not taken away her appearance, but also her feelings and tenderness, have frozen.

When she took my hand to the table and sat down slowly, my eyes were still a little red, although she was also a little embarrassed, at this time she kept forcing herself to calm down, but the hand holding me never let go, and when the cold fingertips crossed the back of my hand, the shallow red marks were left.

"Mother's ......"

Afraid that she would see it, I reached over and covered the back of her hand.

After a long time, she finally said softly: "When did you arrive in the capital?" ”

"It's been a few days."

"Have you ever seen the emperor?"

"That day, during the birthday banquet of Lord Yang, I was next to me and took a look."

She glanced at me: "The emperor knows that you are here." ”

I nodded silently.

After a moment of silence, I asked again, "How did Niangniang know that I was in the Yang family?" ”

"These days, the imperial dining room sends things outside the palace every day, and I heard that they are sent to Yang's mansion. Although I heard that the eldest girl of the Yang family had appeared a while ago, and there were rumors inside and out, Yun Concubine told me that the meals sent by the imperial dining room were all spicy tastes, and the emperor personally explained that Father-in-law Yu would go to ask every day. ”

As she spoke, she seemed to sigh lightly: "There is no one else who can make the emperor so attentive over the years." ”

“……”

I was silent and didn't speak.

"However, even so, I don't dare to fully believe it, after all, you escaped in the first place and paid such a big price." Speaking of this, I couldn't help but feel a little gloomy, she seemed to be able to feel my mood too, the hand holding my hand used a little force, and I raised my head to look at her: "How can the queen be sure that I am here?" ”

"That day, Yang Jinyao entered the palace."

“……”

When I mentioned this, my heart couldn't help but move.

Chang Qing continued: "Although I don't have the heart to talk to her, Yun Concubine has always been with her, but when I heard her talk, she mentioned one of her 'sisters', who was very gentle and understanding, if it wasn't for that 'sister', she said that she couldn't figure out many things." ”

“……”

"I think that staying in the Yang Mansion and letting the emperor bother all the time, and being so gentle and considerate, is probably the only one who is you."

I bowed my head slightly.

I didn't expect that Yang Jinyao would rely on me like this and like me, but her unintentional words also made Chang Qing aware of my existence.

"It's just that I didn't expect that you would return to the capital, but you wouldn't give me a word."

When I heard her say this, my heart was full of shame. In fact, if I plan in the past, even the people of the Yang family don't want to be alarmed, but the things along the way are not under my control, and today, Pei Yuanhao's big stroke, my return to Beijing is almost in the capital, and no one in the officialdom knows about it.

I didn't expect that this would hurt Chang Qing.

Maybe for me, she is a dependent, a friend in times of trouble, but I don't know what I mean to her, in that harem where everyone is intrigued and there is no warmth at all, maybe my feelings are more important to her than many things.

Thinking of this, I lowered my head and said with guilt, "I'm sorry." ”

She still looked at me: "You should at least give me peace." ”

“…… I don't dare. ”

"Why?"

"Because, I'm ashamed of my mother."

As soon as I said this, I felt a spasm in her fingertips, and when I looked up, I saw that her face turned pale for a moment, and even for a moment, her expression was almost lost.

But this is the pain that both she and I have to face.

I said softly, "I did pay a lot of money when I escaped, but the last price I want to pay is-"

With that, I looked at her lower abdomen.

There, it had been flattened, and no one could have imagined that she had a pot-bellied appearance at the beginning, and she had been so hopeful to welcome her own child, but my escape, the fire, burned all her hopes.

Her face grew more and more ugly.

After being silent for a while, she said with some difficulty: "Don't mention that matter again." ”

"Mother's ......"

"I said it, don't mention it again!"

She let go of my hand, stood up, and walked to the window.

I also hurriedly stood up and walked slowly behind her, just looking at her thin and thin shoulders constantly trembling, as if she had been suppressing something, and I could almost feel that some of her tears could not be seen at all, only flowing in my heart.

At this moment, I didn't dare to say anything, so I stood behind her and waited quietly.

I don't know how long it took for her to finally speak, her voice carrying indescribable fatigue and exhaustion, and said slowly: "I have also thought countless times about who is to blame for that incident. ”

“……”

"Are you to blame? Blame Liu Qinghan? ”

“……”

"I also thought about hating you and hating him, but for some reason, I wanted to hate, but I couldn't hold on."

“……”

"Then I thought that I couldn't hate you because I knew that I shouldn't blame you for this."

“……”

She let out a long sigh, turned her head to look at me, with a faint, almost ethereal smile on her face, and said: "Perhaps, this child did not belong to me from the beginning, maybe I am right, I am destined to have no children, this child, should not appear in my life, he will eventually return to where he should go." ”

Hearing her open-mindedness, my heart hurt more and more, and tears came out of my eyes: "Niangniang......"

She smiled faintly again, looked at me, and said seriously: "No matter what, now I see you and see that you are okay, I am satisfied." ”

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