I. Summary of Volume II

The second volume is a clear phase of growth and accumulation.

It's actually hard to go into detail about this volume, because it seems to me that the focus is on all kinds of foreshadowing and foreshadowing.

The seemingly strange and unreasonable things in this volume will be revealed one by one in the future.

At that time, when I was preparing the second volume, it was very simple, I felt that since I had written about ancient Greece, Sparta and sports competitions, I had to write about it, and of course, marathons were not easy to avoid.

It's just that because there is a world of magic and divine power, many old things fail, so the war process is biased towards individual heroism.

This is the inevitability of the war of high-end forces.

At the end of this volume, Su Ye officially embarked on the road of legend.

Just like his choice at the end of the second volume.

He decided to develop papermaking and movable type printing, not to show off, not to make money, not to show the superiority of the traverser, not to be limited to literacy, not to popularize culture, not to be limited to the kind of low-level interpretation of the four great inventions.

It's about pushing humanity as a whole to progress, but to demand that you do things as a legend, and the "why" is important.

Just like everyone else, we eat, breathe and live, so it's more important to understand what you're living for.

Su Ye figured out why, so he didn't even care that papermaking and movable type printing would strengthen the gods and temples, because the progress of the times would not leave anyone behind.

Unless you cling to the old ways.

Once the times begin to accelerate, then anyone who stands in the way of the tide of the times will be swallowed up.

Even the gods.

Even, when Su Ye decided to unite with the temple to accelerate the popularization of papermaking movable type printing, he was ready to progress with all those who were willing to progress.

No matter what the identity.

In the first volume, Su Ye was still obsessed with the dispute between the commoners and the aristocracy, but in the second volume, he had already recognized something deeper.

The dispute between the nobles and the commoners is only the level of the problem, and only by penetrating this level can the level of solving the problem be discovered.

With rich experience and learning to think about the wisdom and knowledge of the sages and great men, Su Ye has gradually changed.

It is not a change in strength, but a metamorphosis in spirit and thinking.

As I seem to have said at the end of the first volume, there is indeed a lot of preaching in the text, and as for why, I will elaborate on it at the end of the third volume.

The third volume is the turning point of the entire book in the outline.

Yesterday when I was thinking about the third volume, I deleted some of the original content and was going to write only the main one.

The progress should pick up slightly, and from Volume IV onwards, the process will pick up even more.

Ahem, I'll take a vaccination, and on about two or three key issues, the third volume will still spend a few chapters to focus on.

However, after the third volume, Su Ye's spirit and thinking have completed the transformation, and there will no longer be too much preaching before, but will write the story well, or that sentence, the reason will be summarized and explained after the end of the third volume.

What I can say now is that I'm not really trying to preach, I'm just writing about different people or things in a different way, or in other words, I'm writing about a lot of "worlds that the eyes can't see but the mind can touch" that I didn't cover in previous books.

That's it for the content of the text, let's talk about something else.

Second, small talk

Why can't I watch 3 shifts, 4 shifts and 5 shifts every day?

This question should be addressed from both internal and external perspectives.

Let's start with the external environment, which I think has a 1% impact, yes, even if I talk about the external influence, I think the environmental factors are actually very, very small.

For example, in the summer, the weather is too hot, I have trouble sleeping, for example, the industry is turbulent, and my mind is uncertain. For example, the impact of the epidemic and tangled subscriptions, etc., etc......

Even though I found a lot of factors that slow me down, I still think it's only 1%.

I have never denied the influence of the external environment, but I firmly believe that as people get older, the negative impact of the external environment will become smaller and smaller, and the influence of oneself on oneself will become greater and greater.

Internally, what is influencing me?

I analyze it from two aspects, but the analysis process is very complex, and I try to keep it as simple as possible.

I now study Su Ye in the book every day, or those big guys, and try to find a large and complete time of half an hour to an hour every day, focusing on thinking about a problem or a point.

If you can think about one question thoroughly every day, you can think about 365 questions in a year, and 3650 questions in ten years. Right.

1. I lack focus.

People who can write for long periods of time need to have a particularly strong sense of concentration.

I am actually a person who has lacked concentration since I was a child, and even now, despite the self-management I have been learning for several years, my concentration has not improved qualitatively.

Of course, I'm not in a hurry, take my time, I give myself ten years.

As I said before, when people are older, they should understand that they are the force that has the greatest influence on themselves, and when they are young, they are still the most influenced by the outside world, especially in childhood.

So, when I was thinking, I traced why my thinking was so divergent and unable to concentrate, and I traced my childhood.

When I was a child, I was fostered by my parents at a relative's house, and my grandparents, aunts, uncles, and aunts were all of this.

Even if I was young, I realized that I was not their real family, they were more pitiful to me, and it was difficult to treat me as a real family, such as the bullying of my brothers, the coldness of other relatives, and all kinds of things would have a huge impact on my thinking.

Now that I think about it, I was quite tragic when I was a child, and I only knew that I had a father when my relatives scared me with a father who was distant and I had no impression of at all, so that led to the terrible image of my father in my mind at that time.

I still don't communicate with my father. (Manually cover your face with a small expression)

My first impression of my mother was when I was in the first grade of elementary school, she took me home.

My relatives at the time were ordinary people, they were already tired of surviving, and they all had their own children, so it was impossible to pay too much attention to me.

As a result, my perception of the environment at the time was that it was not safe enough because there was no parental protection and no warmth of home.

Should my mind be focused or divergent in surviving in a dangerous environment?

Obviously, I have to be out of my mind all the time, and I have to look for all kinds of red flags, and if I focus too much, I may not be able to spot the danger.

This kind of influence from the environment since I was a child has formed a deep-rooted divergent and even a little suspicious thinking.

So, growing up, I was particularly attracted to external changes.

Even my studies, as long as I study hard, my grades will skyrocket, but I can't focus on studying for a long time, so what awaits me is ups and downs.

Being too divergent to stay focused is one of the main reasons why I can't keep writing many chapters a day.

But if you have to look at the problem in two ways, and if divergent thinking prevents me from focusing, will that be beneficial?

Of course.

Divergent thinking has allowed me to "conceive" before writing, and with my rich ability to "imagine, fantasize and delusion", I have been able to make some small achievements in writing.

However, the inability to focus also limited my further growth.

The fundamental reason why I am able to speak openly about this now is that I have stopped interpreting the world as a "dangerous environment" and have stopped being overly guarded, as I used to be.

From the perspective of the present, the fundamental problem of my childhood was not the environment, but "my interpretation of the environment".

If I had explained it this way: it was because my parents loved me that they knew they couldn't protect me well outside, so they sent me to my hometown. Although my relatives are not good at expressing themselves, they also love me in their hearts. Although my brother will bully me, it is because they want to show themselves, or maybe they think that I have taken away the love that belongs to their family, and they don't really want to bully me......

If I were to explain it this way, I would be completely different now.

Of course, I'm actually glad that I didn't encounter extreme situations back then, such as being chained and seriously hurt by my family and relatives, it didn't happen to me. If something too serious happens, you should find a way to fight and fight for your own living space.

Well...... What the hell am I trying to say?

This divergent mind......

To sum up, although I used to look at my childhood and those past with a confrontational mentality, I am now slowly reconciling with everything in the past.

Although the past has had a very big impact on me, causing me to think too differently and not be able to stay focused, and it is difficult to write for long periods of time, I no longer blame the past for my problems, and I am now trying to improve my concentration skills.

2. Self-identity.

Whether it is divergence or concentration, whether it is writing or updating, it is just a "appearance", and we humans have an innate ability to abstract.

In the process of thinking, I abstracted a little. The whole process is actually very complicated, and it will take a long time to write, so I'll talk about it briefly.

What is long time writing? It's an action.

So what's the precursor to action? It's judgment.

So what drives judgment? Be aware, be aware of change or change, and then judge.

So, what is before awareness?

At this point, I thought about it for a long time, and finally decided that the precondition for awareness is "self-identification".

This logical line is quite complicated because it involves my interpretation of various knowledge and experience, and I don't want to say much, but in short, correct awareness requires correct self-understanding, and correct self-understanding must first have self-identity.

Because if we can't identify with ourselves, we will have a bias in our perception of the world that is not beneficial to us, just like I did in my childhood.

And I continue to ask what is the premise of self-identity?

I thought for a long time that it should be "survival" or "existence".

There is no need to ask questions before you live, because that is purely physiological and genetic.

Because we need to survive, we want to live, so we have to "self-identity", if we don't identify with ourselves, we have no need to survive, we will fall into self-destruction, then everything about us will be meaningless.

Because I've heard of people with major depressive disorder, their brain structure changes differently, and they go into a state of "nothingness", which in simple terms, doesn't care about life or death.

They have lost their need to survive, so their thinking is actually inferior to that of plants, they will not care about eating and drinking, and even the so-called zisha is just a normal behavior in their opinion, not really wanting to die, this topic cannot be said much.

On the basis of this incident, I determined that if I want to survive, I must identify with myself, with my own meaning, with my own value, with the world, with everything.

Well......

Well......

Well......

Convergence and divergence.

The purpose of this is that I'm not lazy, I'm not not unrenewing, I'm cultivating my own identity, cultivating my own awareness, cultivating my own judgment, and only then can I write better and more, and then update faster and more.

Now you understand.

I now have to reconcile with my past self and everything in the past, and I also want to identify with my current me, so it's hard to update more at the same time.

However, I believe that I will definitely improve more and more as time goes on.

3. Self-feeding.

It's a word I see and fascinated by when I'm looking for self-identity.

This is a word that I have been chewing on for a long time.

And, there was a preliminary idea.

In the past, if, if, I mean if,

My parents' family, in terms of knowledge, thought, and love, did not feed me well.

My relatives didn't feed me well either.

My school, my teachers, and my classmates didn't feed me well.

The environment, society, acquaintances and friends in which I live have not fed me well.

Even, I have done many, many wrong things, and I can't regret it when I think about it, and I haven't fed myself well in terms of knowledge, thoughts, and love.

So, from now on, I'm going to feed myself well.

I want to feed myself love, I want to feed my health, I want to be positive, I want to be good, I want to be great, I want to be knowledge, I want to be rich, I love, I dream, I want ......

The full text is summarized in one sentence, it's not that I haven't added more, but I've been preparing for the update! Hahaha......

Finally, I hope that everyone can reconcile with the past and find their own system, and from now on, feed themselves well, and let yourself become the self you love.

That's what today's update is about, although not the text.

Tomorrow we will continue to update the text.