'Smack'.

Li Wan turned on all the lights on the operating table.

Jiang Jiu was stimulated by the strong light, and suddenly broke free from his fantasy.

Looking at the incandescent light above her head, she felt a blackness in front of her, and her whole person began to sway.

A huge sense of weightlessness and powerlessness enveloped her, constantly eating away at her reason.

She hurriedly stretched out her hand to hold the edge of the operating table, pursed her pale lips and shook her head, "Wanwan, no, I really can't overcome the psychological barrier, as long as I get on this operating table, my mind is full of the scene of the child's blood collapse before he died, I, I can't defeat my own demons, let's go out, let's go out." ”

After saying that, she forced herself and prepared to turn away.

Li Wan hurriedly reached out and grabbed her.

Today, Jiujiu can muster up the courage to come to this laboratory, which proves that she has taken the first step.

If she is allowed to retreat at this time, it will be difficult for her to take this step in the future.

Whether it can be done or not will have to wait until she picks up the scalpel.

Now that she is on this operating table, she will never allow her to give up like this.

"Jiujiu, listen to me, the reason why you can't overcome the psychological barrier is because you don't hold the scalpel, I promise you, as long as you pick up the knife and find the feeling you once had, all the demons will disappear, you believe me!"

Her gaze was very firm, faintly encouraging, and slightly calmed Jiang Jiu's impatient mood.

"......"

Li Wan didn't give her a chance to speak, clasped her shoulders with both hands, and forced her to turn around again.

Then he took out a rabbit from the cage with one free hand, and said in a gentle tone: "I have just given this rabbit numbing and shaved the hair on the top of its head, wine, let's try to take the scalpel, and then make a five-centimeter opening on the top of its head." ”

With that, she put the rabbit in her hand under the light of the operating table, and then scooped up the tray on the side and handed it to her.

There are all kinds of utensils on the plate, and the sharp blades reflect a little cold light under the illumination of the light.

Jiang Jiu shook his head desperately, broke free from Li Wan's clamps, held his head with both hands, and roared in pain: "Take it, take all these things, take it away." ”

Li Wan pursed her lips, her heart was crossed, and she said sharply: "Jiang Jiu, since you are willing to take this step and come to my laboratory, it proves that you want to save Old Man Qin, we have no way out, if you don't save him, he can only die of illness in bed." ”

Jiang Jiu trembled all over.

Yes, she came here to overcome her demons, pick up the scalpel again, save Old Man Qin's life, and repay him for saving his grandmother and mother back then.

She hasn't even tried yet, how can she back down??

Holding her head and calming down for a moment, she slowly relaxed her tense nerves.

"Okay, I'll try."

With that, she took out the scalpel from the tray with trembling hands.

The moment she held the hilt of the knife, a look of collapse in her eyes was rising and spreading, and her vision was even shrouded in a blood mist, and she could even smell a strong smell of blood.

So familiar!!

It almost penetrated her flesh and soul.

It was the blood that had been sprayed from Xiao Youyou's skull, warm and sticky, like a poison that could burn people's flesh and skin.

Heavy wheezing echoes spread through the silent room, making them distinctly clear.

Jiang Jiu held his beating heart with one hand and approached the rabbit's head with a scalpel.

Her hands were shaking violently, and the sharp tip of the knife couldn't lock on to a single point.

Seeing this, Li Wan couldn't help but sigh in his heart.

What if she was forced to pick up a scalpel?

How can you do such a high-risk and sophisticated intracranial surgery with such a trembling hand?

"Okay, Jiujiu, let's not force ourselves."

As the words fell, she reached out and grabbed her wrist, trying to get her to withdraw the scalpel.

"Nope." Jiang Jiu shoved her away, took a deep breath, and plunged the sharp tip of the knife into the rabbit's flesh.

Suddenly, a stream of bright red blood bubbled up along the wound.

With every inch she slid down, her face turned pale, and by the end, her entire face was almost transparent.

Pools of blood poured out of her skull, and she couldn't hold it anymore, so she suddenly let go of the knife in her hand.

'Bang bang'

As the scalpel landed, her legs went limp, and she sat down on the cold floor.

No, it still doesn't work.

She couldn't forget the bloody and tragic scene of that year.

As long as she sees blood, she can't help but think of the scene of the child's blood collapse.

That bloody and tearful past has completely ruined her medical career.

She really shouldn't be delusional about fighting with fate.

"I'm sorry, Youyou, Mommy is sorry for you, I couldn't save your young life, let you suffer so much, and let your mother experience the pain of losing a child, I'm really sorry for you."

Jiang Jiu buried himself in his knees, trembling all over, and muttering "Youyou, I'm sorry" in his mouth.

After Li Wan stopped the bleeding for the rabbit on the operating table, she leaned over and prepared to support her, and was surprised to find that her whole body was terrifyingly cold, and her whole body was wrapped in layers of cold sweat, without any trace of temperature.

She was a little anxious, afraid that she would drive herself crazy in a world of pain, self-blame and guilt.

Holding her cold and trembling body, Li Wan choked up and said: "Good, let's not think about it, don't think about it, okay, you have done your best, no one is qualified to blame you and accuse you, we should have done nothing, didn't the Lu family invite Bai Zhuo to operate on the old man, then let him toss, we don't want these bad things." ”

As soon as she finished speaking, the door of the operating room was kicked open, and a slender figure rushed in from the outside.

Li Wan subconsciously raised her eyes, and after seeing who it was, a flash of surprise flashed in her eyes.

"Lu, Mr. Lu, you, why are you here?"

Lu Yebai rushed over, glanced at the operating table, and then leaned over and snatched Jiang Jiu from Li Wan's arms, shackling her cold body in the crook of her arm.

"What the hell is going on? Isn't she nameless? Why is the operating table so repulsed? As soon as she gets the scalpel, she will collapse, what did she go through three years ago? ”

Li Wan looked at him with a shocked face and blurted out, "How do you know that she is nameless?" ”

After saying that, she realized that she had been fooled.

This man is clearly tricking her words.

And she stupidly fell into his trap.

Damn, her admission is hard to argue.

is a good Lu Yebai, what an out-and-out old fox, full of twists and turns, and the bad is outrageous.

Lu Yebai snorted coldly, he really hadn't confirmed whether Jiang Jiu was an anonymous person, and what he said just now was also a lie to Li Wan, but he didn't expect to pry her mouth open.