The sky is blue, like a blue satin, and the occasional white clouds drifting by, like an embellishment in this pure color, set off the blue sky is even bluer. It's like you've been washed in water.

It's a sky that is rarely seen in modern times.

I can't believe it, inexplicably, I actually experienced the feeling of the ancients?

Because I feel that my outfit is too embarrassing, Da Niu prepared a set of clothes for me, which is the simplest coarse linen clothes, and even has two patches, I gladly accept it, I understand the principle of following the local customs, wearing this clothes, others look at me a lot more pleasing to the eye, but the hair is still too short, when can I grow long hair, probably suitable for the aesthetics of these people.

"You're a father, you're too mean to your children, and you don't understand anything. It's really a sin for the child, and if the child wants to feed in the future, he will send it to my house, and you actually want him to drink cold water just now. I don't know what your heart is......" Da Niu's wife Lan'er chattered and reprimanded me for more than half an hour.

"Sister-in-law Lan, please, I know it's wrong......" I smiled bitterly, this little kid has a lot of problems, and always likes to go against me. I cried endlessly, and I just thought about pouring a little water on him, but I didn't want to be seen by Sister-in-law Lan, and the big horse golden knife came in, this woman who lost her child. It seems that all the maternal love is dedicated to this little child.

"The child is still young, and it is not easy to know that you are a big man to be a father, but you have to be careful." Sister-in-law Lan finally has the meaning of ending. with low indulgence.

"Why don't you bring this child to Sister-in-law Lan in the future?" I looked at the little guy lying in Sister-in-law Lan's arms, grinning at me, as if he was gloating, and couldn't help grinding his teeth.

"How can this work, the child has no mother, you are his only relative, how can you rest assured that you are placed in someone else's place?" Sister-in-law Lan was taken aback, in his eyes, my proposal was simply deviant.

"Okay, then I'll ask Sister-in-law Lan to mention it more." I sighed.

Raising a child, I'm not interested, it's good for him. It seems to me, a rough man, more like he is ready to eat and sleep, as it should be.

I don't need to worry about food, as for sleeping, he will naturally sleep when he is sleepy, so I don't seem to have anything to do, so I left him on the bed and began to meditate and heal myself.

However, with this little ghost, I didn't have much opportunity to practice, whenever I wanted to calm down, he would howl and cry, and the noise made me irritable, and I wanted to strangle to death several times, but thinking about the purpose of my trip, I endured it again, I closed the door and walked out.

I found the bull and told me what I was here for.

"What? You're going to give the baby away!? The big bull's eyes really turned into bull's eyes.

"Brother Niu, you also know, I am a big man, how troublesome it is to bring children, the key is that my livelihood is difficult, now it is good to have your family to help, but what should I do when the child grows up in the future? It costs money to raise a son, no matter how hard you can't be a child, no matter how poor you can't be poor in education, I'm poor alone, how will I send him to study in the future? Replenish the body? "I have good reason.

"Alas, you can think about it again......" Although Da Niu was a little dizzy by my many words, he probably understood what I meant, and sighed.

"No need, you can help." I patted him on the shoulder.

When I got back, I looked at the more resentful baby with an even more resentful look and a smug smile.

I can't raise a child, I'm fed up with this little guy, resolve grievances, if it's good for him, then there's no need for me to come in person? Others can also do it, I believe that as long as you find a good person, you will be able to take care of him more thoughtfully, so maybe you can still resolve your grievances for him, even if you fail, when the time comes, I will repair and recover, and it will be easy to get the child back and raise it myself.

My wishful thinking clanged.

As if he knew what I was thinking, the boy made even more trouble today, crying and laughing, and from time to time he had to gnaw on the stakes that supported the beams, and he had no teeth, and his mouth was full of blood, and he stared at me hideously.

"What the hell do you want to do!?" I didn't know why he had gotten worse, but it only annoyed me even more, so I grabbed him and slapped him twice in the ass.

He didn't cry, he just glared at me, and the resentment in his eyes almost condensed into substance.

This gaze makes me chill all over, such a ghost fetus, if you grow up, you can pay it back?

Even I have the mind to cut the grass and eradicate the roots in advance at this moment.

"Ye Mengyao, Ye Mengyao, you really threw all the problems to me...... "sighed lightly, I looked at this little guy complicatedly, there were too many reasons, so I had to purify his grievances, so I definitely couldn't watch him make trouble like this: "Little ancestor, go to sleep." ”

I pleaded.

Naturally, there was no response.

I searched for ways to take care of the child in my head, gritted my teeth, and stumbled to sing.

"Sleep, sleep......"

Lullabies, I heard them when I was a child, and I forgot the lyrics, but they were simple, I added a little bit casually, and I sang them recalling the melody.

In good conscience, my singing voice is not good, and the strange thing is that when I started singing, this little broken child really quieted down, and I was refreshed and continued to sing.

Half an hour later, he fell asleep.

After waking up, I continued to make noise, this time I was singing, it was useless, I lifted the baggage, only to see that it was, endured nausea, changed his diaper, I can't describe my mood, in short, it was terrible.

For three days, three whole days, I was tortured by him to the point of madness.

Although I was small, I could always come up with many tricks, which made me miserable, I sang, made faces, looked for toys, tried my best, and every day I was as tired as a dog, and its physical and mental exhaustion was not inferior to the battle of life and death.

Finally, the savior came.

"Widow Chen from Chenjia Village next door is old and wants to raise a child for the elderly, so she asked me to ask you when you can take the child over...... Da Niu said.

"Now, right now!" My eyes lit up.

"Brother Xu, do you want to think about it again?" Da Niu still thinks it's inappropriate.

"No!" I said categorically, and gave the child to the big cow.

At the time of parting, the child kept looking at me, his eyes were still resentful and mocking, as if to say that he knew all this, and he was watching.

This look, which used to make me feel irritated and hateful, but now, it made me feel guilty, as if I didn't have the face to meet his eyes, I avoided my gaze and went back to my room.

Sit down cross-legged.

I can finally cultivate quietly.

However, I couldn't settle down anyway, and I lost my mind when I looked at the empty room.

That look has always been in my mind.

I looked at the pillars, there were many small tooth marks on them, this child is really different, only a few days, actually began to have teeth, stroking the tooth marks, suddenly there is a joy, like something that I have worked hard to cultivate, finally has grown...... This joy came for no reason.

"No......" I frowned, could I be reluctant?

"Though he is dirty, he hates, he is disgusting, he is filthy, he is cruel, he is not even human...... But he, after all, is my child...... The thing I regret the most is not that I went to Daliang Mountain in the first place, nor was it that I was insulted by Erlong because of my stupidity...... Rather, when the master said that he wanted to refine this ghost fetus, I didn't choose to raise him as a normal child and give him happiness and joy...... You are the only one who can save him, so I am willing to exchange my death for his life...... At the very least, give him a stable and happy life...... I'm sorry. ”

I suddenly remembered the last passage that Ye Mengyao left for me, and clenched my fists.

I thought about how tired I looked like a dog, and I thought that I felt ashamed at the beginning, and finally began to sing catchy lullabies...... Those helplessness have become memories at this moment, and I can't let go.

Am I doing the right thing?

I began to question myself.

Walking out of the door, I saw the sister-in-law Lan next door, who was drinking a bowl of medicinal juice with a bitter face, which was a home remedy found by the village chief, saying that it could make a woman have a better chance of getting pregnant.

This scene is very ordinary, but it hit my eyeballs.

Gritting my teeth, I rushed out.

Little bastard, I really owe you!