Chapter 118

Originally, Yuan Changqing planned to take Shanniang around the city after sending Hou Rui and them away, but because he was delayed on the boat for a while, there was not enough time.

On the way back, he saw Shanniang looking at the street scene through the car window, so he said, "On Chinese New Year's Eve, I will take you to Tianning Temple to listen to the prayer bell." ”

Shanniang immediately looked back, "Is it okay?" After a pause, he said, "Is it just us?" As far as she knows, the Yuan family doesn't seem to have this habit of spending Chinese New Year's Eve.

"Hmm." Yuan Changqing smiled and nodded.

Shanniang tilted her head. The old lady is so particular about a "family carnival", probably she won't agree to let them go out alone. "The old lady probably won't agree, will she?" She said.

Yuan Changqing glanced at her and said, "Since I proposed it, I naturally have a way to do it." ”

He was silent for a moment, then suddenly stretched out his arm, pulled out her hand that was shrunk under the blanket, took her hand and said, "You have to learn to trust me." I know you don't think I'm talking, you don't tell you what I think, but I'm changing. But you, since we got engaged, haven't seen you tell me what you think. You even made me feel as if you were ready to turn around and walk away. I don't like that, I want us to be open and honest with each other and say whatever we think. ”

Shanniang was shocked. It wasn't until he said this that she realized that she had been uneasy in the depths of her heart, and had been subconsciously waiting for him to reveal the kind of indifference she hated again......

"Why do I feel like you're afraid of me?" Yuan Changqing's hand held her face, leaned slightly towards her, stared at her eyes and said, "What are you afraid of?" Are you afraid I'm going to hurt you? ”

His eyes as he stared at her were dark and deep. Winter nights always come early, and the flickering lights in the shop outside the window cast a jumping light in his eyes, and then disappeared.

Looking at the beating light in his eyes, Shanniang actually had a feeling of sinking, so that at that moment, even her mind was gradually lost, so she murmured, "I...... I don't know, I'm just afraid, I'm afraid that you will be good to me now, and when you find out that I am not as good as you think, you will not want to be good to me again. ”

"I won't." Yuan Changqing said.

"Yes." Shanniang said stubbornly. She stared into his eyes and slowly spoke out her deepest fears. "I know you better than you think. You're actually a heartless person. When you are affectionate, you will be affectionate, but when you are ruthless, you are also the most ruthless. What you like, you will hold in the palm of your hand; If you don't like it, you can put it aside in the blink of an eye. You ask me what I'm afraid of, I'm afraid that one day you won't look down on me, and you won't even give me a single eye. I'm afraid I'll fall into your trap, and you're out, but I'm stuck in it and can't move......"

Suddenly, Yuan Changqing reached out and hooked her neck, grabbed her head into his arms, and said with a little panic: "You, don't cry, I promise you that you won't be like that, you have to believe me!" Don't cry......"

It was only then that Shan Niang felt that her nose was blocked, and her eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of mist. As soon as she blinked, the tears rolled down from her eyes and fell on Yuan Changqing's clothes.

And after the first tear was shed, the tears rushed out of her chest, which had been blocked since her previous life, as if they had broken through the floodgates. She tried to suppress it at first, but when she felt the arm of the man on her back clamping her tightly, and the lips of the man beside her temples kissing her comfortingly, the grievances of her previous life suddenly flooded, so she reached out and grabbed the hem of his clothes, buried her face in his arms and cried silently.

Yuan Changqing couldn't have imagined that Hou Shisan'er, who looked so neat and neat without a trace of mud and water, was like this in his heart...... Sentimental - he couldn't have known that she was nostalgic for her past life, but he couldn't help but feel helpless when she was unfounded. But apart from hugging her tightly and comforting her, and letting her vent the love that was blocked in his heart, he had no better idea for a while, so he could only keep whispering in her ear to comfort her and kiss her hairline.

"Thirteen, thirteen," he said, shaking her with emotion, "can't you even feel it?" If I could really be ruthless to you, how could you and I get to this point. From the very beginning, I knew that you didn't want to marry me, but I wanted you to think so badly, and even in places you didn't know, I did so many things just to be able to marry you as I wished. You even said I might regret it one day. Yes, I do have a cool side in my nature, but you are what I have been asking for, I have spent so much effort, do you think I will let go? He sighed heavily, put his lips to her forehead, and said helplessly, "What can I do to make you believe me?" Do you want me to dig out my heart and show you? ”

cried like this, and finally let Shanniang relieve the pain that had accumulated in her heart for two lifetimes. She sniffed, pushed him away, took out a handkerchief from her sleeve pocket and wiped her tears, and said, "What do I want to see your heart do?" In fact, I have long figured out that the reason why people are unhappy is because they ask too much. I don't ask for anything, anything you give will be a gift, but if one day you don't want to give it anymore, I won't feel hurt because of it. ”

It took her a lifetime to understand that there is no need to use all her strength to love someone. The more you love, the more you want. And if the other person's giving does not meet your expectations, you will feel lost, unwilling, and disappointed. Then you will keep demanding the other person and force him to respond to you more...... So, gradually, your love becomes a bondage. He wants to escape, you want to tie up. If he breaks free from your bondage, it is you who suffers; If he can't break free, he will die......

Instead of this, it is better to love less at the beginning, leave some space for each other, and also leave room for yourself......

Hugging Shanniang, Yuan Changqing was silent for a while. In fact, as far as his nature is concerned, he is also very afraid of being entangled, and Bian Shanniang let him go like this, not to pester him, but to make him full of physical and mental unhappiness. And the rational part made him agree with Shanniang's statement...... It's just that he is just a layman, and what he gives still wants to be reciprocated after all...... For a while, he only felt a dilemma, feeling that the person in his arms was the biggest problem in his life.

However, fortunately, the clam-like Thirteen finally agreed to speak to him.

Xu was because of her reservation, so he went crazy that night again. Shanniang didn't want to follow him, but that person had a variety of exquisite hearts, and he could stir her heartstrings every time. And every time she was forced to forget her feelings by him, she couldn't do anything except let him do whatever he wanted...... And only at this time can Yuan Changqing be sure that her position in her heart is not as "just a little" as she is willing to admit.

In order to prove that that feeling was not his own delusion, Yuan Changqing and Uncle Yuan worked tirelessly for most of the night, until the Western bell that Shanniang married outside rang three times in the morning, and he reluctantly let her fall into a dark and sweet dream.

She was so tired that she couldn't even wake up when he stroked her eyebrows because he couldn't sleep.

Uncle Yuan, who couldn't sleep, smiled while tracing her eyebrows and eyes - "no desire, no desire". If she really had no desire for him, I am afraid that she would not have scratched his back into a map......

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The end of overindulgence is that both of them get up late.

Xu is because she is full (cough, this time, what, is it really fed), in short, although Shanniang got up late, it was rare that she didn't get out of bed. When he went to the old lady's courtyard with Yuan Changqing to greet the old lady, the fourth lady, Yuan Yongmei, and Yuan Changxing had already been flattering and laughing at the old lady for a while.

Seeing the two of them coming in, the old lady immediately smiled and squinted, and beckoned to Shanniang: "Come here, come here!" Don't stand under the curtain, there's a wind over there, be careful not to freeze. ”

It is said that although Yuan Lao Taijun and Hou Lao Taijun are sisters of the same race, their styles are very different. Mrs. Hou treats people strongly, and when she should be ruthless, she is willing to let people see her ruthless side; Yuan Lao Taijun prefers to pretend to be a kind person and throw all the cruel things to others to say and do. Since the day Shanniang entered the door, she has never said a word of disobedience to Shanniang. Every time Shanniang came to say goodbye, she looked like a kind elder, holding Shanniang's hand for a while.

If it weren't for the experience of her previous life, Shanniang might have really been handled by the old lady's tenderness. However, the old lady likes to pretend to be a virtuous person, and she refuses to be the rude person, so she also mobilizes her drama cells, and performs a beautiful picture of a five-good family with the old lady.

Yuan Yongmei watched Shanniang and the old lady for a while, then got up and pulled her mother's sleeve, and pretended to complain: "Mother, you see, after the eldest sister-in-law got married, there will be no me and the second brother in my grandmother's eyes. ”

The old lady laughed for a while and said, "Your sister-in-law just came to the house, so I naturally want to favor her a little." ”

Compared with the old lady, Yuan Yongmei's methods and scheming are much more tender. The old lady never refused to show her fangs lightly, but Yuan Yongmei always wanted to stand up in front of Shanniang, so just like when Aunt Jiu came to see the furniture that day, she had dug a hole for Shanniang several times. Now Shanniang can be regarded as summing up a set of ways to deal with Yuan Yongmei - this girl has two faces in front of her and in the back, even so, revealing the face she refuses to show to others is.

As far as the current effect is concerned, Shanniang said that she is very satisfied, at least she has not suffered a loss at the hands of Yuan Yongmei, but Yuan Yongmei has suffered a few losses in her hands.

And Xu was because of the stuffy losses she had eaten before, and Yuan Yongmei wanted to ask Shanniang to suffer more and more, so she pretended to be innocent, looked at Shanniang and clapped her hands and said, "I know why my eldest brother and sister-in-law are getting up late today." I heard that my sister-in-law even cried and swollen her eyes when she came back yesterday, but it was too late because of this? ”

She hinted that everyone was paying attention to Shanniang's tardiness, but Shanniang was surprised that she would know that she had cried last night and her eyes were swollen - you know, when they came back last night, it was already dark. And she was caged in a cloak from head to toe, and she didn't save it until she entered the main house. In other words, unless it was someone they were waiting for, no one should have seen her red eyes from crying.

Obviously, in addition to the list of unreliable people that Yuan Changqing gave her, there are also unreliable people.

She glanced at Yuan Changqing, turned around and joked with Yuan Yongmei: "Fourth girl, don't be busy laughing at me first, don't cry when you get married and leave your mother's house tomorrow, then I will obey you." ”

She's married, and it's so easy to make fun of an unmarried person. No matter how thick the four girls are, they have to blush if they pretend to be innocent, so she stomped her feet and pulled the old lady for a while.

The old lady smiled tolerantly again, and said to Shanniang: "What is the name of the fourth girl, it is also unfamiliar, it should be called the fourth sister." And your fourth uncle and four aunts, you also follow Changqing to call the fourth uncle and four aunts, but you are so unfamiliar with it, what is the old lady. ”

Shanniang looked back and smiled: "The old lady doesn't know, this is the habit of my hometown. Even my father and mother, I used to call them old lady. Another example is my uncle, I am also used to being called the eldest master. If you want me to change my name to uncle, I'm not used to it. Actually, the main thing was that she was not happy. is willing to cooperate with them to perform a harmonious drama, and she is not happy to be so close! I didn't see Yuan Changqing, and he rarely took the initiative to call "four uncles and four aunts"!

As soon as her words fell, she heard Yuan Changxing laughing there: "No wonder! I thought it was strange when I was at your house that year, why did you all call your parents 'old lady'? It turns out that this is a folk custom. ”

As soon as Shanniang turned around, she collided with Yuan Changxing's sticky eyes. She felt sick.

Although Yuan Changqing never told her clearly, from his letter, she vaguely guessed that he originally planned to make Yuan Changxing's leg lame for the rest of his life, but he didn't follow people's wishes, and asked the Yuan family to find a good doctor to connect his leg, and in the end only left a scar on his face that didn't hurt or itch.

Shanniang has never been a tolerant temperament, at the beginning he calculated that her revenge had not been avenged, but now he dared to look at her with such unclean eyes, she was immediately angry, planning how to teach him a lesson, but her face pretended to be heartless, looked at him and smiled: "It turns out that you have also noticed." Strangers think our customs are strange. ”

- She was silently calculating Yuan Changxing here, but she forgot that she was no longer fighting alone. And her comrade-in-arms, Yuan Changqing, when she saw her smiling at Yuan Changxing, her heart had already knocked over the vinegar jar.

It is even more impossible for the old lady to know that these people who seem to be laughing and talking have their own plans in their hearts, so they only smiled and said: "Sure enough, it is ten miles of different sounds, and each township has its own customs." As he spoke, he turned his head and asked Yuan Changqing: "You originally said that you would help your teacher complete some books, so you put down your studies." Since you don't plan to go out now, and it happens that next year is the year of Dabi, shouldn't you give it a try? ”

Yuan Changqing formally studied under Lin Zhonghai at the age of ten, and at the age of thirteen, he was a talented man, and in the second year, he was admitted to the fame. The fourteen-year-old man was a sensation in Gyeonggi Naoli at that time, but his teacher Lin Zhonghai was unwilling to pull out the seedlings to help him, so he was always suppressed and not allowed to play. As for the Yuan family, they were not happy to ask him to read and write, where can they really look forward to him going to the imperial examination. The old lady asked this, just to test Yuan Changqing's next move.

Yuan Changqing lowered his hand and said, "I have already sent a letter to the teacher, see what the teacher's opinion is." If the teacher thinks I can give it a try, I want to give it a try. He added, "As for the teacher's book, what the teacher means is that someone should compile the information we have collected in the back, so that it will be difficult to find any mistakes in the end, and then it will be difficult to complete it." ”

Yuan Changqing had already explained to Shanniang about the book, but it was obviously the first time that the Yuan family had heard of it.

The Yuan family was afraid of Yuan Changqing, because they were afraid that his reputation would be too loud and would block Yuan Changxing's road to the throne. How could the Yuan family let him climb this east wind? That's why they left letter after letter urging him to come back quickly and complete the marriage. But none of them thought that this would fall into Yuan Changqing's hands. What they didn't expect was that they thought that after bringing Yuan Changqing back, the matter of writing the book should be done, and they didn't want Lin Zhonghai to take such a fancy to this disciple and hand over the most important compilation work to him......

When the Yuan family looked at each other silently, Shanniang was surprised that Yuan Changqing was going to end. She remembered very well that Yuan Changqing's fate was after the prince gained power, and it should be two or three years away from now. And if he plans to end up next year, but I don't know, will he still be the "Yuan Tanhua" of the year......

When she was thinking nonsense here, she suddenly heard the fourth lady say to Yuan Changqing: "Where are you busy alone, why don't you ask Brother Xing'er to help you too, anyway, he is idle and naughty." ”

Shanniang's eyes suddenly narrowed, and she sneered in her heart. These people can't see Yuan Changqing's goodness, and they want to pull him down. Now that he can't pull him down, he thinks about borrowing his momentum again.

Yuan Changqing hadn't answered yet, so he heard Shanniang smile and said, "I'm afraid that Brother Xing'er won't be able to endure that hardship." I also know that every word has to be checked for the source, and the person who checks it has to sign it below, and if there is a slight negligence, it will be a matter of ten thousand years. Not to mention that in order to find out the source, sometimes you have to turn over all the books in the library. In this way, you may not be able to find what you are looking for. ”

She was scaring Yuan Changxing here, but she couldn't imagine that her words had their own meanings in other people's ears.

Yuan Changqing suddenly straightened the vinegar jar, feeling that his daughter-in-law's heart was still towards him.

And Yuan Changxing felt that Shanniang was facing him - he had been paying attention to Yuan Changqing's movements before he broke his leg, and after breaking his leg, he also began to pay attention to Shanniang's movements. Therefore, he knows all the gossip surrounding Shanniang. And he also came to the conclusion that Shanniang is also a person with flowery intestines...... The best thing is that he found that Yuan Changqing seemed to really like this Hou Thirteen, but Thirteen Niang only looked at him so lightly...... Just now, he deliberately followed Shanniang's words and showed her goodwill. Not only did she answer him, but she smiled at him...... This made Yuan Changxing, who has always been narcissistic, couldn't help but feel: There is a door!

Not to mention what kind of dirty thoughts Yuan Changxing was turning around, just to say that Yuan Yongmei, seeing Yuan Changxing looking at Shanniang with hungry eyes, how could she not know that her second brother was guilty of amorous disease again. So she rolled her eyes, looked at Yuan Changxing and smiled: "It's still the eldest sister-in-law who knows how to feel sorry for people." ”

Shanniang glanced at her, and silently wrote down a note for the four girls in the little black book in her heart.

The younger generation here is in a hurry, and the fourth lady is discussing the New Year with the old lady. The old lady looked at Shanniang and said, "This big year, there are many things in the family, although you have just married, you can't be lazy, you have to help your fourth aunt." ”

Shanniang looked at the fourth lady. Although the fourth lady had a smile on her face, the smile was as stiff as a steamed bun that had been on the table for half a month.

So Shanniang smiled and said, "Where do I know this, I'm afraid I can't even help my wife." ”

This time, the smile on the face of the fourth lady suddenly became as soft as a steamed bun returning to the pot.

After chatting for a while, the old lady found an excuse to send Yuan Changqing's brothers and Yuan Yongmei out, and then took Shanniang's hand, asked her and Yuan Changqing in a low voice, and said, "How can I not know his temperament my grandson?" Since I was a child, I didn't know how to take care of people. You are a newlywed Yan'er, and he is fresh there, but you are still shy here, and you don't dare to say a 'no' to him. He got his wish, but he suffered you. If you get up late today, those who know that he is not, and those who don't know, I'm afraid they will laugh at you. Next time you can't go with him like that. ”

These words were said sincerely, that is, when she heard it for the second time in a lifetime, Shanniang still couldn't help but be moved-the old lady acted so well, that is, she knew the truth, and she almost felt that the old lady was really planning for her, but Yuan Changqing was not a thing, she only cared about her own happiness, and she didn't know how to sympathize with her, so tired that she was laughed at!