Extra-one: Past life

"Squeak......"

Next to the door, a figure stood by the door and hesitated for a long time, and just slowly raised one foot, when a slow footstep suddenly sounded behind him. The man was startled, retracted his feet, turned and ducked behind the pillars.

The figure had just dodged away when another figure appeared in the light in front of the door.

The new figure looked at the door that had opened a crack in confusion, tilted his head and said, "It's so old that I forgot to close the door." Then he lifted his hand and pushed open the other half of the door.

Suddenly, the light suddenly poured into the room, illuminating the randomly placed futon on the indoor floor, and also illuminating the corner of the Buddhist shrine behind the confession, as well as a beautifully carved tablet in front of the Buddhist altar.

The figure crossed the threshold with the hem of his skirt, walked to the offering table, took a stick of incense, respectfully saluted the Buddha shrine, and then raised his head, only to see that it was an old woman about fifty years old.

The woman held on to the incense, stared at the tablet for a while, sighed, inserted the incense in her hand into the incense burner, and whispered to herself: "Madam, I'm afraid that I am the only one in this world who remembers you." ”

She took a step back, looked at the tablet and was stunned for a while, then sighed, turned around and sat down on the futon, held her hands and said, "Look, the days go by so fast, I can't even remember how many years my wife has been dead." A few years ago, I still calculated that if my wife was reincarnated, I was afraid that I should be a mother at this time, but now I am too lazy to forget it, anyway, it won't be long before I go to you. I only wish you a good birth in the next life. In the next life, don't have this temperament, what's the point of twisting with others and yourself? One more thing to tell Mrs. Sù is that everyone has their own way of living, and it is not that Mrs. thinks it is good to be good. Look, after the lady is gone, the lord is doing well, the uncle is doing well, the eldest girl is also doing well, and everyone is doing well...... But Madame, I've never seen Madame happy in my life......"

At this, the woman was stunned and muttered, "I've never been happy either." She sighed again, looked at the tablet and said, "Madam, you are dead, I dare to say something to you that is heart-wrenching, your temper, not to mention the old man and the girl, no one can stand it." Take me as an example, I've been following you since I was a child, when did I dare to say a word to my wife? Sister Wufu and Sister San and Sister still dare to say that Mrs. is not a word behind their backs, I don't even dare to say it behind my back. It has always been that the lady pointed to the east and I didn't dare to go west, you pointed to the dog and I didn't dare to beat the chicken, you said that I would be a concubine for the master, I didn't want to, and I didn't dare to say half a 'no' to you.

"Madame is gone, the lord asked me if I want to go out, I have been serving Madame all my life, I can't do anything else, what can I do when I go out? So I told my lord that I would rather guard my wife. Others say I'm benevolent, hum, fart, I'm just afraid that I won't be able to support myself if I go out. Madam, look, even I don't mean anything to you, what has happened to you in your life?! However, I have to tell Madame, Madame, you deserve it! You've never known how to use us, you've never thought about us, and now that you're dead, why should we still remember you? Don't say that the old man and the big girl have never come to see you, but they are here, are you embarrassed to meet them? …… Ah, forget it, it's not Madame's fault alone. If I had the courage to say 'no', I wouldn't have been like this for the rest of my life. Don't mention it. How many years have passed...... Oh, by the way, tell Madame, the uncle has been promoted again. There is also the master, in fact, the master is not old, but he is going to die. The old man said that he wanted to take advantage of the fact that he could still walk, and he wanted to see the great rivers and mountains outside. But if you want me to say, the master should calculate this and that every day, and the calculation is annoying. Since the lady is gone, there are many people who want to stuff people around the master, the lord always shakes his head, others say that the lord is long-term, I'm afraid that only I know, the lord is not long-term love, the lady is dead, the lord is not sure how to breathe a sigh of relief in his heart. In fact, if you want me to tell me, the master is only suitable for staying alone for the rest of his life. I see that he is very comfortable alone, and even the uncle and the girl don't say hello and come back, the master is not very happy...... By the way, there are big girls. The eldest girl is also very good, and in a few years, she should be a grandmother, and Madame's heart for the eldest girl is ...... Alas, don't say it, none of your family has a good temper, and if you have a soft one, you won't be ......."

Lu'an was chattering with her late young lady when she suddenly heard a sobbing sound outside the window, which startled Lu'an. She hurriedly got up from the futon with her arms propped up, and when she went out to look, she saw the eldest girl who had just avoided behind the pillars because she was frightened.

Lu'an was stunned, looked at the eldest girl and said, "Why is the eldest girl here?" ”

The eldest girl turned her back to wipe the tears from her eyes, turned around and looked at Lu'an and said with a wry smile: "Aunt Lu'an, I haven't seen you for many years." ”

Lu'an looked at her red eyes and sighed, let go of the door, and said, "Since you're here, let's go in and see your mother." Whatever you say, she's your mother. ”

The eldest girl suddenly sobbed again, covered her face with a handkerchief and said: "At that time, I didn't know that she was really sick, I didn't mean to, I haven't come for so many years, it's not that I don't want to come, it's that I don't dare to come, I'm afraid that my mother will blame me......"

Lu'an sighed silently, walked over, patted the eldest girl's shoulder comfortingly, as she did when she was a child, and said, "Your mother's person has always been hard-faced and soft-hearted. We all really think how powerful she is, I have only gradually understood since she died, she is afraid that she has wrapped herself too tightly, so that people can't see the real her. "It's like a lord. She silently added.

Seeing that the eldest girl couldn't help herself for a while, Lu'an sighed again, pulled her to sit at the stone table in the middle of the courtyard, and said, "You can come, Mrs. Quanxia will be very happy." ”

"One of the things I regret the most," the eldest girl sobbed as she took off her veil, "is that I didn't have a good word to her." Every time I say something she thinks is wrong, I don't want to talk to her anymore. But now that I think about it, she is a mother, so what if I let her take a step? ......After a pause, she sighed and said, "Actually, don't talk about it then, even now, when I think about it, sometimes I am still indignant, why is my mother so stubborn?" I can't listen to a word ......"

"No, Madame's temper." Lu'an Road.

"My aunt still remembers that year, the little girls in Beijing loved to wear that kind of clothes with narrow sleeves, and I wanted to make one, but my father agreed, but my mother refused to do anything, and said so ugly, saying that it was only worn by girls who were not serious. You say, what mother would say that about her daughter? My mother still said that to me in front of you, and I was ...... angry."

"Oh, what about Madam, big girl, when your temper comes up, don't you just say anything ugly. You and Madame are so similar. Lu'an muttered.

The eldest girl couldn't help but be surprised. When she was young, Lu'an was like a timid mouse, she didn't dare to look at people, and she looked much bolder than when she was young.

"Aunt Lu'an," said the eldest girl, "this country is so cold, why don't you go back with me." ”

Lu'an shook his head, laughed at himself, and said, "It's good here, it's quiet, and no one is coming, so I just don't need to deal with those I don't want to deal with." Very good. In addition, if I talk to my wife about anything, my wife will not tell me to shut up, which is good, really good. ”

The eldest girl suddenly laughed and said, "Yes, there was a time when my mother's mantra was 'shut up'. Once he even told his father to shut up, so angry that his father refused to enter the second door for two months. As he spoke, he couldn't help but sigh and said, "I also heard what you said just now." Although the son does not speak of the father, the father is too cold to the mother, otherwise, maybe the mother would not be like that. ”

"Your father," Lu'an sneered, "to whom is that not so?" According to me, if the old lady hadn't forced him to marry our wife, he might have been a monk. I've heard that nowadays he often sits in meditation with some monks? ”

"Where, it's just an occasional tea with my uncle." The eldest girl said, "You also know my father's temperament, where there are not many people, it is more comfortable to be alone. In fact...... I'm here today to ask you if you'd like to go back to the city. Father's father, the family is always not good and no one is in charge, how to say...... "How to say, Lu'an is still Yuan Changqing's concubine in name." "Forget it," the eldest girl waved her hand and smiled, "just when I didn't say it." ”

Lu'an also smiled.

The two sat silently opposite each other for a while, and the eldest girl suddenly said, "The day before yesterday, my brother came to my house and suddenly told me about my mother. Think about how much we hated her and resented her when we were young, but now when we talk to my brother about our mother, all we can remember are some funny things, and even the things that make our mother angry are funny......"

It was precisely because of talking to her brother about her deceased mother that the two discovered that the knot left in their hearts was slowly untied at some point. All the resentment against my mother at the beginning has now faded. The rest is just an indescribable feeling, and I don't even know it...... Miss.

So, she finally mustered up the courage to come.

The eldest girl smiled, looked up and asked Lu'an: "Do you remember when I broke my mother's hairpin that year, and my mother was angry and locked me up for twenty days?" In fact, now that I think about it, it took those 20 days for me to know how to read the ledger. At that time, I followed my mother every day, and I realized that my mother knew so many things. ”

"No," Lu'an said with a smile, "When Madame was young, she was the female leader in the women's school for many years." So you made a mistake in your endorsement, and Madame heard it as soon as she heard it. ”

"Ah, speaking of which, do you remember when you were a child, when your brother memorized the wrong book, how your mother punished your brother? Yesterday, my brother smiled and said that my nephew couldn't memorize those words, and he was so angry that he almost learned from his mother......"

In the afternoon sun, an old woman and a middle-aged woman chattered in the courtyard about a woman who had been dead for almost twenty years.

In the dark room, the sunlight that came in through the doorway shone on the tablet. The gradually fading sunlight is like a person smiling on the tablet, and it is relieved for a long time.

It has been said that as long as a person is remembered, a person will never die. For children, no matter how much they complain about their mothers and how much they don't understand, their mothers are still mothers, a person who will always be remembered in their hearts.