Chapter 4 After all, it is impossible to make up your mind under the snow

(ps: Thank you for the trembling Sao Nian reward, I really don't need to reward the penguins, I just need to recommend the ticket~~)

It didn't take long to get from the institute to the agreed location.

After coming out of the Sobu Line, I drove the car to the bus roundabout and stopped, and Yuji and his party got off.

At this moment, a voice came from behind.

"Yuu, Yuji, and Mitsuki-chan, why did it ......?"

Looking back, it was a fairly familiar pink dango girl, with a sunhat with a short hem T-shirt and hot pants that wanted people to complain about "is there not enough fabric", holding a bulging convenience store bag in one hand, and covering her mouth with the other hand in surprise.

Surprise is also a matter of course.,Although the girl and Yuji are neighbors and childhood sweethearts.,Usually there is not a small contact.,But in school,,The two are not in the same class.,Usually can't meet.,And the only service department that once connected the two.,He hasn't been there for more than a month.,Now suddenly see Yuji appear here.,Yubihama is inevitably a little surprised.。

And behind her, there is Yukino under the snow, who seems to be hiding in a shadow, and she can't see her expression clearly.

"Hello, Sister Yui, Sister Yuki," Mitsuki greeted the two of them quite warmly, "It's great, to be able to participate in the dormitory with the two senior sisters, Mitsuki feels that the whole summer vacation will become very pleasant." ”

"Thank you, Mitsuki...... Also, "Good morning" was blushed a little by Mitsuki's blunt words, and after Yuki's polite response, he didn't say anything more, just looked at someone with a pinprick gaze.

"Ahh......h And Yuuji" Yubihama, who greeted him, looked a little absent-minded, and his worried eyes kept wandering between Yuji and the snow, for fear that the two of them would be as nervous as before again.

"Oh hayo, long time no see, Yui...... And Yukino too, long time no see!" After hesitating for a moment, Yuji finally called out the familiar name

Although he was once politely admonished by the girl, 'Please call me a classmate under the snow'......,And with this, the two of them drew a cordon and separated the distance.,But Yuji didn't want the relationship between the two to become so raw.,Even worse than ordinary strangers.。

The salutation returned to the familiar name, as if the strangeness had been diluted a little. Although Yuji also understands that this is just his one-sided fantasy, the truth is still cruel. At the end of the day, nothing can be changed without real effort.

Today's snow is very rare to wear long pants with a stand-up collar shirt, although the skin is very exposed, it is a summer outfit that will make people feel extraordinarily cool, but I don't know when, that plain and mild coolness, but now it is a stinging chill.

Ignoring the person who greeted him, he turned directly to the side without hesitation under the snow, and asked Shizuka Hiratsuka, who was leaning on the white body, with a cold expression

"Hiratsuka-sensei, you said this is a club activity of the Ministry of Service, right? Why...... That person is coming, too?"

Before that, Hiratsuka asked her to notify only four people, Yuhihama, Hikiya, Komachi, and Tozuka, and did not tell the information that 'that person' would also come.

"Xiao, Xiaoxue!" Hearing the extremely indifferent words under the snow, Yubihama couldn't help but be shocked for a while, and Mitsuki on the side couldn't help but sigh.

It seems that this time the disgust is really thorough...... Yuji pouted helplessly

I didn't have the luxury of asking the girl to forgive herself. However, what Yuji didn't expect was that after a month of not seeing him, the girl still didn't even want to mention her name, as always, she showed a strong refusal, and she didn't accept any apologies, which made him fall into self-loathing again.

"Can you please explain, teacher?" Facing Shizune Hiratsuka, who tried to bring the topic through with silence, the girl asked unabashedly again.

Cut, still can't you avoid it? Hiratsuka Jing had no choice but to stand up straight with the help of the body, straighten his expression and said: "There's nothing to explain, this guy was caught by me personally, since this co-accommodation is a club activity of the entire service department, then this guy, as a member of the club, must also participate." ”

All members of the club must participate, and as a member of the club, Yuji must also participate - it sounds like an impeccable reason, but it is not here that cares under the snow.

Forced to 'catch' it, not of its own volition...... Did the man choose to run away after all?

That's right, after all, it's a coward, a big liar......

Although she accurately guessed the boy's heart, Xue Xia was not happy that she had made an accurate judgment, but it was precisely because it was too much in line with the reality of the guess that she was annoyed!

"That's not the case," he said, shaking his head to deny Hiratsuka's statement, "Although it is mandatory for all members of the service department to participate, Itai-san has not been in the club for more than a month from June to July...... According to the school's regulations, members who do not show up for two weeks will be considered to have automatically quit the club, so ...... Itai-san, he's no longer a member of the group!" I'm no longer a member of the club, so there's no need to appear here at all!

The meaning of driving people in the words under the snow could not be more obvious, and even Yubihama, who was holding her arm, changed color.

Yubihama tried to think hard, trying to say something as usual to lighten the mood, but her mouth opened and closed, and she didn't make any sound after all. Because...... She had already realized the seriousness under the snow, the contradictions had been put on the table, and the tepid relief was no longer useful.

However, as if unaware of the contradictions in front of him, Hiratsuka's face was still calm

"It's okay, the teacher who acts as a consultant has the right to make his own judgment under special circumstances, although Itai has been a little sluggish this month, but he has already explained it to me in advance and has also obtained my consent, so it is considered a special personal leave, and it is not considered an automatic withdrawal before he submits a formal withdrawal application to me!"

"Leave?"

"Well, I've taken a leave of absence, Yukino, I don't plan to leave the Ministry of Serving, I'm just ...... temporarily."

"Why haven't I heard of this kind of thing?" Skipping Yuji's explanation, he still asked Hiratsuka under the snow.

"Didn't I say that I can decide on leave of absence, as an advisor teacher in the Ministry of Serving...... And you've never asked, have you?" "With the state you were in at the beginning, even if I told you, you wouldn't want to hear it, Hiratsuka couldn't help but slander in his heart

"Yes, yes...... But...... I really can't agree with it!!" Biting his lip unwillingly, he looked like a lost child under the snow, his hand tightly grasped his right arm, and expressed his resistance to the ground under his feet in a small voice.

......

"Cousin, I'd better go back first. ”

Even if you stay here, it will only cause trouble for the girl - after learning about this situation, Yuji naturally made a decision, "Although this time I did have some expectations, but if others were troubled because of me, it would be too much to lose, wouldn't it?" Because it's really your own fault, you can't blame others, Yuji smiled self-deprecatingly.

"yes, you're right."

Witnessing the girl's pitiful refusal posture, knowing that no matter how much she forced, it would only be in vain, so she sighed twice, and Hiratsuka Jing also nodded in agreement, "Then I'll drive you back first, anyway, the distance is not far, and it will be better than the guy from Qigu for a while." ”

"Don't bother you, I'd better take the tram back by myself. Not wanting to ruin the atmosphere of everyone's stay because of himself, Yuji rejected his cousin's proposal, and then left alone in the direction of the platform of the Sobu Line.

Looking at the figure of the young man walking away, like this...... Are you satisfied? Xue Xia couldn't help but ask himself.

No, it's not!

Although he refused to apologize to the teenager, ridiculed his mistakes, and was even unwilling to walk with him...... But the reason for all this behavior was very clear to Xuexia, and it wasn't because she really hated the man.

On the contrary, he patiently helps Yuhihama, who has a terrible culinary talent, to master the cooking skills, skillfully negotiates to resolve the family conflicts surrounding the Takaban family, cleverly restores the ministry on the verge of collapse, and does his best to fulfill his promise despite being surrounded by powerful enemies...... Such a teenager is not annoying.

Hiding under the mask called 'acting', although the 'truth' of that person is still vague, it is clear under the snow that the essence of the boy has never changed.

Gentleness and empathy—this is the essence of the boy, which unconsciously attracts many people, makes the former enemy take the initiative to repent, and at the same time arouses her own admiration......

However, such a young man, he-

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Why, when you have done nothing wrong, should you be treated like this?

Born in a large family, Xuexia Xueno, who has been gifted and intelligent since he was a child and has a beautiful appearance, seems to be born different.

's father is a county councilor and a big capitalist.,Mother is a famous family.,And he also has excellent qualities far beyond ordinary people.,No matter from the family.、Background、Appearance、Ability,Can't find anything to find fault with.,In a way,The word 'protagonist' probably exists for people like her.。

However, despite all the enviable advantages and conditions, Yukino himself is not as happy as he imagined, for the simple reason that he is arrogant, greedy, and jealous...... The ugly nature of human beings is not lacking anywhere, and it is human nature to be jealous of the excellent, and this phenomenon is even more common among students who are not mature in their worldview and values.

It can be said that it was the excellence of ordinary people under the snow that led to her difficult situation at school.

...... However, this does not make sense.

It's really incomprehensible that he has not committed any wrong, but he has to innocently suffer from the malice and exclusion of others;

Just because he can't look at people's faces and live a life of grievances, he is branded as arrogant and indifferent, and is isolated by everyone;

Even if you try, you can only get the result of betrayal......

I don't know when, the hurt little girl gradually got used to being alone, used to putting a barbed protective film on her coat to protect herself, and used to life without anyone to confide in her joys, sorrows, and sorrows.

There is no friendship to soothe the soul, so she seeks solace from books, and when she is harassed and ostracized, she is defeated head-on with great strength, and after more than ten years of training, the girl's strength is enough to overcome this loneliness.

However, this is not right!

Whether it's silent loneliness or strong enough to overcome loneliness, no one can really like to be alone as a social creature unless they make up for it (neta: make up for the soul, see EVA Orange Juice Project!).

I hate loneliness, which is not exempt even if it is a 'perfect' snow under the snow. However, even though the girl has a desire to be close to people, the thorny disguise that has been formed to protect her for a long time can never be taken off. The girl who was afraid of being hurt did not dare to show her kindness, and the others did not dare to approach for fear of the girl's 'fortified outfit', thus forming the wall of Jericho, separating the two sides...... (Note: The Wall of Jericho is an indestructible wall in biblical mythology.)

And then

The one who saved the snow from this infinite loop of 'Mobius Ring' was the boy who first came into contact with him, and he was also the first to accept all the girls.

We have witnessed the daily routine of the members of the community who continue to gather and solve the commissions together one after another...... In this way, the ministry has come to this day step by step.

......

For under the snow, the teenager is of course a special existence.

is not only the person who first understood and truly identified with her, but also the companion who helped her get out of the lonely 'abyss' and find and confirm the 'real thing' together, and after experiencing many events together, he became the existence that the girl trusted and longed for.

However, it is such a special existence for a young girl, but it has committed an unforgivable mistake.

Absolutely not lying - this is the girl's original vision, but also an opportunity for the two to get to know each other, if it weren't for the teenager who took the initiative to reach out his hands, accept and tolerate her beliefs, maybe she is still in a situation of 'unable to get the support and recognition of the people around her', only when she wraps herself tightly with a false protective cover, can she feel a little relieved...... However, in this way, you will never be able to truly accept others, and you will never be able to get out of the 'cage'!

So, it was that person who made her perceive the possibility of human relationships and made her believe in it. In a sense, it is not an exaggeration that the man is a beacon of her progress.

However, the man who taught these things under the snow showed by his actions that he himself had never really believed in these things, just like Jesus, the Son who saved the world and spread the faith, was one day revealed that he had never believed in God...... What could be more ironic than that?

The boy's behavior that day was undoubtedly a betrayal for Yukino, not only a violation of the original agreement of 'never lying', but also a betrayal of Yukino's vision and her hope.

The person who initially recognized her dream trampled it with her own hands, and the person who helped her confirm the 'real' existence told her with his actions that everything was just false......

Such a betrayal is unforgettable, unforgivable, and incomprehensible.

However......

Looking at the bleak back of the lonely young man walking towards the platform, looming in the crowd of people coming and going at the station, it must soon disappear, I don't know why, at this time, under the snow that was filled with anger in the chest, I felt a little stuffy, and then this heart plug turned into a tearing pain, painful!

Just let him go—is this really the right thing to do?At this moment, a strange thought rose in Xue Nai's heart.

The anger of being 'betrayed' and the desire to not want the other party to leave, just like this, under the snow Xue Nai's heart is at war.

Clenching her fists, she said—

"Wait, wait, wait......"

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