Chapter 44: After the War
Through the bottomless darkness, Yan Feng Qili regained consciousness.
The first thing I felt was a burst of heat, followed by the smell of human fat burning. When I opened my eyes, I saw a raging fire.
"Are you awake?" β
"Reilly...... Gilgamesh ...... What's going on?"
"You were shot in the heart by Kiritsugu Emiya, and later came back to life with the help of the Holy Grail. Reilly smiled, "Now, it's brought into the world what you crave." β
It was a hellish sight.
The flames seemed to scorch the sky, and the screams of humans fluttered in the wind. Yan Feng Qili stared at all this blankly.
"That's what it is...... My wish?"
If this thing that flows in the soul can be called "satisfaction......
"Shattered and sighing...... Can it make me happy?"
If this inner emotion could be called "joy......
Today, Yan Feng Qili finally understands the nature of his soul.
The sight of everything collapsing is so beautiful.
People who are in pain are so cute.
The screams that echoed in my ears were so pleasant.
β...... Ha ha. β
Qili laughed desperately.
How evil are you?
In the face of this god-spurned sight, it would be so joyful.
"What am I?hahaha, what am I!?"
Even the heart-wrenching sense of despair is so sweet, and Qili has never felt the joy of being alive so truly.
"Why is it so distorted? Why is it so filthy? Am I really the son of Yan Feng Lizheng? Hahaha, it's impossible! What is this?! That old priest who is strict with himself can actually give birth to a devil!?"
"Are you satisfied? Gilgamesh asked calmly.
"No, not enough. That's not enough. Qili wiped away the tears from the laughter, shook her head and said, "Although I got the answer, it doesn't solve anything. I just skipped the process of exploration and got straight to the answer. But what is the reason for all this?"
"Not bad. Reilly patted Qili on the shoulder and said, "You also have a bit of a scholarly spirit." β
"I have to find that reason, even if it's a lifetime, to understand it. β
The maniacal laughter faded from his face, replaced by a calm smile that could face everything calmly.
"It's good to be able to recognize yourself. Reilly nodded and said, "What do you think? β
Looking at Yan Fengqili, who was in a new spirit, Gilgamesh said, "This guy doesn't hate it...... Well, let me see how you live up to your beliefs. β
Qili looked around, savoring the scenery brought by the Holy Grail.
The black sludge that ignited the entire street should be only a small part of the Great Grail. What would happen if all the contents were released?
"All the evil ...... this world," Qili thought impatiently, spitting out the name.
(It must be found again, it must be witnessed with one's own eyes, and the value of its existence must be confirmed by oneself)
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After coming back to his senses, the boy realized that there was a scorched black scene in front of him.
The familiar town is reduced to ruins, and it looks like a battlefield in a movie.
At dawn, the fire was weakening.
The crazy red faded and the buildings basically collapsed.
It's incredible that I'm in the middle of it unscathed.
In the whole street, only one survives.
Whether it's luck or because your home is built in the right location.
Although I don't understand the reason, I am sure that only I survived.
(Since you survived, you have to continue to live)
The boy thought.
(It's too dangerous to stay here, so let's go)
Although he had a strong desire to live, he did not think that he could be saved.
How can a child escape from this red world?
The teenager couldn't imagine.
So he fell.
I don't know if it's because of a lack of oxygen, or if the organ that takes in oxygen is no longer working. Anyway, he fell, staring at the sky that was gradually becoming gloomy.
There were charred and blackened corpses all around.
There were dark clouds in the air, and he knew it was going to rain.
(Great, if it rains, the fire will be extinguished)
The boy exhaled deeply and looked at the dark clouds.
"I can't breathe, it's so uncomfortable. β
He spoke this honestly on behalf of those who could no longer speak.
Suffering, suffering, and suffering while alive, then it is easier to simply die.
In the haze, the boy stretched out his hand to the sky.
It's not that I want to ask for help.
He just thinks it's naΓ―ve.
The last thought that came to mind was this one.
Consciousness was about to disappear, and the raised arm snapped to the ground.
...... No.
It should have fallen to the ground.
But there was a big hand that held it.
The man's face made a very deep impression on the teenager.
The man with tears in his eyes, happy from the bottom of his heart that he had found the survivor.
- He looked so pleasant.
(As if it weren't me who was saved, but himself)
And then.
What moved the boy who almost died was that the man said to him as if he was grateful for something: "Thank you." β
"It's good to find you," he said. β
"Even if I can only save one person, I'm very happy," he said. Then, as if he was thanking someone, he smiled happily.
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Half a year later, Reilly attended Tosaka's funeral.
"Good work, Rin. He said to the girl in front of him: "Your performance is excellent, and I am sure that Mr. Shi Chen will be proud of it." β
Rin nodded silently. Her left wrist had been branded with the magic mark of the Tosaka family that had been passed down from generation to generation, and although the pain continued, the girl's face did not show a trace of weakness, and this willpower was very incommensurate with her age.
Tosaka Tokitomi arranged his future affairs perfectly, ensuring that all his inheritance could be handed over to Rin in the same amount. However, the resulting series of procedures also caused his body to return to his hometown after half a year.
"It's almost time for Mother to come out, right?"
"Ahh Reilly nodded and said, "Irrelevant people are gone, so let's do whatever you want now." β
Aoi Tosaka, the surviving person who was supposed to preside over the funeral, failed to appear in front of everyone because he was sick in bed. Although she is reluctant to let her have contact with outsiders, Rin still hopes that her mother will see her father one last time before she is buried.
The girl walked to the taxi parked at the back door, helped her mother into a wheelchair, and pushed her to Shichen's grave.
"Mom, let's say my last goodbye to my father. β
At Rin's urging, Aoi slowly scanned the tombstones around her as if she had woken up from a dream.
"Ah...... Who's funeral today?"
"Yes, my father died. β
"Oh, that's terrible! I need to hurry up and take out Shi Chen's mourning clothes...... Rin, you go and help Sakura change her clothes first. Yes...... What should I do? I didn't prepare anything......
Aoi, who was in a wheelchair, fell into a brief panic. After a moment, she suddenly bent down like a doll with a broken thread. And when she raised her head again, she stretched out her finger to the air in front of her, and a gentle smile appeared on her face.
"My dear, my tie is crooked again, and I still have thread on my shoulder. Hehe~~ Cheer up, you are the proud father of your daughters. β
Aoi talks to her husband, who only she can see, while Rin just silently guards her mother.
"Reilly-sensei, why did Aunt Tosaka become like this?" asked Sakura with a sad expression.
"Because the reality is so cruel. Reilly said lightly: "Her heart is still stuck in the time when Sakura didn't leave home and Mr. Shichen was alive. And for that wife, it might be happier. Just ......"
Only Rin was left in the cold reality. She takes care of her mother, who is immersed in her dreams, but she can't enter the happy picture. The girl hid her sorrow in her heart, took on the responsibilities of the patriarch with her immature body, and endured the pain caused by the magic mark. For a girl under the age of ten, this is too cruel.
And for Reilly, it was a great blessing to be the educator of this young girl.
Even with such a heavy fate, young Rin did not shed a single tear. Faced with her mother, who couldn't accept the reality, she endured the sourness in her heart and waited for her mother to calm down.
Rin Tosaka dares to face a heavy fate and is firmly moving forward on the path she has chosen. Seeing this sturdy girl grow up rapidly under her tutelage, Reilly felt like an artist carving this piece of jade named Rin.
In contrast, the other man who remained here was annoyed by the girl's performance.
Yan Feng Qili can only feel joy in the pain and sorrow of others, so he very much hopes that Rin will become a sentimental girl in the midst of suffering. It would be wonderful to be able to enjoy that kind of scene.
However, Rin Tosaka's performance did not meet Kiri's expectations at all, which annoyed him.
He originally thought that Aoi Tosaka's ugliness would leave an indelible psychological wound on the girl, but he didn't expect her to tolerate her mother's weakness.
If this development continues, Rin Tosaka is likely to form an upright and kind personality. For Qili, this is the most boring ending.
Hiding the secret of her heart, Qili put her hand on Rin's shoulder as if encouraging.
"I'll be staying in Japan for a while...... Do you have any worries about the future?"
β...... Nothing more. β
The girl didn't even look at Qili, and replied in a tough tone.
She obeyed her father's last words and did not raise any objections to Yan Fengqili becoming her guardian. Even so, the girl couldn't hide her dislike for him. As an assistant, he went to the same battlefield as Shi Chen, but in the end he failed to protect him. Rin was always full of anger and suspicion about such a gift.
Seeing the hatred in her eyes, Qili felt ridiculous. What kind of expression will this girl have when he learns the truth in the future?
"The next time we see each other is in half a year, when there will be a second engraving transplant. Please take care of yourself. β
β...... No, I'll ask Mr. Reilly for help. β
With that, the girl looked at Reilly with pleading eyes.
"Hehe, the headstrong Rin is also cute. β
Reilly touched the girl's head. Although Rin has always been strong, he can see the pain in the child's heart.
(Her tone was sharper than usual today.)
A slightly wicked thought suddenly flashed through Qili's mind.
"-Rin, from now on you will be the veritable patriarch of the Tosaka clan. To celebrate this special day today, I give you a gift. β
As she spoke, Qili pulled out a sheathed dagger from her bosom.
Seeing this scene, Reilly quietly gave him a thumbs up: You really can.
This sword was Tosaka Toshitomi's gift to his disciple at the last meeting: the sword of Azoth, which represents friendship. However, Yan Feng Qili used it to kill his own teacher.
In the Saber line of "Fate/staynight", this sword is given to Shirou Emiya by Rin Tosaka, who uses it to stab Kiri to death, which makes people have to lament the impermanence of fate.
"This is a gift I received from Mr. Shichen when I was successful in magic - I think it would be better for you to hold it in the future. β
Rin took the dagger and drew its sheath to examine it carefully. She caressed the leather of the hilt and the demonic pattern of the blade almost reverently, as if she could sense her father's body temperature.
β...... Father ......"
Suddenly there was a small ripple on the short sword in the girl's hand - and a tear suddenly fell on the flawless sword.
This is the first time Rin has shed tears in front of Kirei.
As if she had tasted the long-awaited nectar, Qili's heart shook with joy.
Rin didn't know that the short sword in her hand, which carried her tears, was once stained with blood that flowed from Shi Chen's heart. Perhaps she would keep it as a relic in memory of her father, if she didn't know that it was the murder weapon that killed him.
This extremely ironic scene and the pleasure of trampling on other people's hearts made Yan Fengqili supremely satisfied.
Rin, who was in tears with his head down, didn't notice the silent smile of the priest beside him, and just held the sword of destiny tightly in his hand.
On the other hand, Qili, who was looking at the girl, didn't see the playful smile on Reilly's face.