Chapter 34 isn't as good as you think

"Me and Hayama-kun...... It used to be the same elementary school. His father is the legal counsel of my company, and his mother is a doctor, so the relationship between the two parents is familiar. ”

There was a flat expression on his face under the snow that was slowly narrating, as if he was talking about something that had nothing to do with him. Yuuji, on the other hand, was a good listener, he didn't interject, just listened quietly

"When I was a child, I didn't have many playmates, and in addition to my sister, there was only one person of the same age in the family, so we were acquaintances. They were teased by their sisters together and participated in the game together...... These things are all there," he turned around with a sigh and looked at Yuji seriously under the snow and said, "However, that's all in the past." ”

Then she looked at the night sky again, as if she was looking for something real.

"The past...... Indeed, seeing the way you look now, I don't like to contact Hayama, and so is he, who once promised you something, but failed to do it?"

This is the reason for listening to Yukishita's refutation of Hayama - "You can't do it, wasn't it like this before?" - the reason for Hou Yuji's guess, somehow, reminded him of his current self.

Now, isn't he in the same position that Hayama used to be? Thinking of this, Yuji couldn't help but feel a little apprehensive in his heart. And under the snow frowned slightly.

"It's not polite to speculate about a lady's past, but ...... You're probably right."

"I'm sorry...... Probably!?Why do you seem to be talking about someone else's business......" Yuji reacted and complained

"I said that the external image is my sister's job. I'm only going to be sent when I'm a substitute. ”

The night wind rustled through the treetops. Because it was a silent night, the sound under the snow spread like droplets falling on the water.

Even if she said 'substitute' and 'substitute' so sadly, it seemed like her own superfluous words, and the girl's face still had a flat expression, making it difficult to see her thoughts.

"And the person who Hayama promised at the beginning was not me, but my sister. Snow continued

"Yono!" The unexpected person appeared, making Yuji can't help but scream.

Xue Nai hesitated, then nodded lightly

"Well, my sister brought it up, and Ye Shanjun really wanted to help me at the beginning, but then it made things worse, and I had to study abroad in the end......"

“...... No wonder you would say he's half-hearted."

This is indeed not without reason! Looking at the snow where he had been treated badly, but he still had a light wind and hidden his thoughts, Yuji couldn't help but shake his head with a wry smile.

"Well, if you don't have the ability to fulfill your promise, you have to promise this, just like someone."

“......”

"But you're not the same as him."

Just when Yuji was speechless, Xue Xia continued to speak.

Different? What is different?

Not understanding what she meant at all, Yuji continued to look under the snow and wait for an explanation. However, she just remained the same, looking up at the starry sky. It's like nothing was said just now.

Under the snow, which has not explained anything, and Yuuji, who has not asked anything, are far away in this silence.

It may be that it is cooler at night, and the night breeze blows with a bit of an autumn feeling.

The anxious insect slowly screamed.

As if to start with this, Yuji gritted his teeth and walked forward to speak.

Gormanasse (Note: I'm sorry)

Under the snow, he turned to this side in surprise.

"I want to apologize to you for what happened before, Yukino, although my words are a little pale, I still want to apologize to you, I hope you can forgive me. ”

Yuuji felt that now was the perfect opportunity to apologize, the girl was in a good mood, and it didn't seem to be obvious to reject him, and most importantly, he didn't want the two to be in such a stalemate anymore, so he chose to break the deadlock with a straight ball.

"Why do you want to apologize? You didn't do anything wrong, did you?" said Yuki.

I should be the only one who is wrong. Xue Xia said in the heart.

"No, it's not, there's nothing wrong with that, and I don't regret doing that. ”

"No...... Do you regret it?"

The snow gradually lowered his head, and Yuji continued unnoticed

"Well, probably, even if I did it again, I guess I would still do that......" After all, I know my own character.

However, he still couldn't notice anything unusual under the snow.

"You're the one who apologizes! You're the one who says it's not wrong! Are you teasing me?"

For some reason, the volume suddenly increased under the snow, and the pupils widened and glared at this side, like seeing a child whose parents released all their grievances and bitterness and cried loudly.

"No, no, Yukino, I didn't mean to tease you!" Yuji soothed the emotionally unstable Yukino in a gentle voice, and then went on to explain, "Do you remember the ideals you said when we first met, believe in justice, change the unfairness of the world, and never lie...... I have all your ideals in mind. To be honest, I was very envious at the beginning, I was very envious of being able to say my ideals calmly and handsomely, and implement them faithfully, I am really envious of you!"

The mood gradually stabilized, and the ends of his hair were gently lifted under the snow.

“...... Would someone like you envy me?"

I can't help but think back to the teenager who defeated her in the cooking competition, the teenager who defeated her first in her grade, and the teenager who turned the tide in the almost mortal situation...... Such an excellent person would actually say that he admired her? Unbelievable and chaotic emotions were intertwined, and he fell into a state of confusion for a while under the snow.

"Ah, I'm very envious," Yuji said with great certainty after reconfirming his mood. "I can't always firmly believe in the existence of justice, I can't do this, I can't always adhere to 'justice' and even change the world for it, I can't do this, and as for never lying or anything, it's a failure, so I'm very envious of you, Yukino!

......

There was silence all around, and the sound of the wind, human voices, and insect chirping seemed to have been silent for a while, and in this silence, only Yuji's untimid, unconcealed sincere gaze looked directly into the eyes under the snow.

"Heh~~"

It wasn't mocking, it was even a slightly bitter sigh.

"Then why do you apologize to me?"

Under the snow, he turned his face sideways and stroked the long hair of his sideburns, not daring to look at Yuuji's eyes. She was afraid that she would panic when she met that sincere gaze.

"That...... You see, because I'm not very envious, and I'm a fool who can't see myself clearly, and I didn't find out until someone pointed out recently. So, at the beginning, I didn't actually have any concept at all, I just felt very envious, very envious, so I really wanted to be like you. I promised you that thing on impulse, but I didn't have the ability to do it. ”

"Now I realize that it wasn't actually 'my' idea at the beginning, it was just a 'fake' borrowed from you, and I still promised you that I couldn't do it, which made you feel uncomfortable, I'm really sorry!"

"I'm such a terrible guy when I made an agreement with someone but didn't keep it...... However, even if it is like this, I hope you can forgive me!"

Every word seems to clumsily reveal the message of 'let's get along'. He's such a good guy, but his grammar has become so bad......

Stupid! What a stupid person! You don't need my forgiveness for this kind of thing. Xue Xia said in the heart.

In the case of ordinary people, from the standpoint of the original card game - the boy broke the agreement in order to save the people in the ministry department, and she lost her temper with him - I am afraid that most people will only think that she is too hypocritical, and will not think that the boy is at fault. But he came to apologize to himself......

Really, he's a fool like Mitsuki said!

"I'm sorry for you! I didn't intend to be angry with you!"

- Actually, I am the one who is the least qualified to say this!

And in a hurry to get an answer, Yuji actually held the little hand under the snow directly with both hands. Hold it tightly and don't let her escape.

"Really?"

"Ah~n, yes!"

Under the snow, who was suddenly grabbed by the little hand, his head nodded a little dizzily in response, only to feel a little hot on his face.

"Great!"

After receiving the confirmation, Yuji jumped up almost with cheer, and at the same time let go of his hand under the snow.

Looking at the innocent and joyful expression on the face of the boy opposite, like a child getting candy, he felt more and more guilty in his heart. With a bitter expression, she sighed softly

"I, in fact, am not as good as you think!"

“...... What?"

He shook his head, and although he smiled slightly under the snow, he didn't say anything.

And the silence that came from this was only for a moment.

Under the snow quickly stood up.

"Nothing, it's just almost time to go back. Go to bed early at night!"

“...... Yes, I'll see you later. ”

In a happy mood, Yuji didn't think much about it and waved goodbye.

"Well, good night. ”

In the end, what was revealed in the expression under the snow at that time, Yuji was not able to understand.