Have you ever felt that no one understands your situation, full of fragrant clothes and temples, and the lights are shining everywhere? Some people say that he loves you very much, and you occasionally have the illusion that it is, as if he loves you, and his love is even a little exaggerated, so that he listens to his words and says nothing else. Pen fun and pavilion www.biquge.info

But most of the time you find out that this person is actually unreliable, everything he says and does cannot be trusted. He often puts you in an embarrassing situation of dispensability, and he is definitely not a good match in your mind, no matter how many people love him.

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On that day, she made a bet with Concubine Li, and Sheng Jing was snowing heavily, seemingly endlessly, and the dripping blood sprinkled in the Zichen Palace, staining the eyes of the two men, forcing them to stop fighting and watch her death helplessly.

In the blood and faint crying, Situ Shan, who was lying in a pool of blood, saw a long time, so long that it was almost her life.

She was born in a family of ministers, pampered since childhood, has an indestructible family background, has a childhood sweetheart, and her sister is Baili Yue, the daughter of the emperor.

In the seventeenth year of Daxing Li, her father was the general of the expedition to the north and guarded the border all the year round, so she often went to the border with her eldest brother and second brother from the beginning.

Her love affair with Han Xing began that year.

Far away, the wind and sand are cold, but they can't resist the fiery heart of their lover. In the heart of the shy and timid girl, there are only her lovers and those poppies blooming all over the mountains.

The sixth prince Bai Li Yao was demoted to the North County Mansion by Emperor Tianyou because of his affair with Leki, she had already heard of his evil deeds, and she was quite disdainful in her heart, but although Bai Li Yao was a ruffian, she was a close friend with Han Xing, and she disdained it, and never interfered in the affairs between them.

The Han family is rigorous, and Han Xing is very hard working in the army, which also means to let him sharpen and sharpen. Every time I take the time to meet her, I always follow Bai Liyao next to her.

Bai Liyao followed as if she had no skin and no face, and she didn't ask others if it was inconvenient, and the nonsense words she said in her mouth, from dancing girls to flower wine, made her frown in three or two sentences.

Han Xing, the third son of the Han family, is known for his good temper, always holding her hand when she is impatient, she looks at his eyes, and then compromises, he is always so tolerant and gentle, fortunately, Han Xing is her lover.

In the nineteenth year of Tianyou, she returned to Shengjing in a hurry because her mother was seriously ill, the Turks were rampant, Han Xing went out with her father, and she had no time to take care of her, so Bailiyao actually took it upon himself to send her.

What color was the sky on the grassland that day, she had forgotten, if Han Xing was there, she would have thrown herself into his arms and cried bitterly, but in front of Bai Liyao, she had no mood, even if her eyes were red, she endured waiting for him to finish speaking.

Bai Liyao looked at her, stopped talking, and put away his cynical appearance, which was not much like him on weekdays. He seemed to sense her impatience, so he hurriedly untied the jade on his waist and handed it to her: "This is my jade pendant, and it will save a lot of time when you see it at the checkpoints along the way." ”

Even if Baili Yaogui is the prince, but he has a very bad reputation, and he still commits the crime of lewdness that makes women scoff, he was twenty years old, just past the age of the weak crown, but he heard that he has already read countless women, and even the musicians in the palace do not let go.

How could she ask for something that such a person had given her?

"Thank you to the six princes for their kindness. Leave. She thanked her, but she didn't answer, turned over on the horse, didn't look at Bai Liyao's expression, and took a selfie with Manan.

When her mother died of illness, she kept filial piety for her mother in Jiangnan for a whole year, during which Princess Yue often visited her. The girl's feelings are always poems, she misses her lover who is far away at the border, so she often tells Princess Yue about the interesting things between her and Han Xing, and talks about Han Xing's sentence "Shan'er, those flowers, the red one is you, the white one is me, you wait for me...... Marry you......"

Bai Liyue was a year older than her, and she was of marriageable age, she looked at her and said with a smile: "He is so good." ”

She thought, of course it's good, her lover, how can it be bad? No matter how many people praise Han Xing, she always has a kind of joy of honor.

After half a year, she returned to the northwest, and what came with her was a holy decree, and the holy decree couldn't help but say that Han Xing would marry Bai Liyue, and ordered Han Xing to return to the dynasty as the general of the Beijing camp, and she really understood the meaning of Bai Liyue's sentence "He is so good" at that time.

She didn't believe it, she went to Han Xing and asked him not to agree, she watched Han Xing's face fall into disgrace little by little, and understood that they were the end of the crossbow and could not resist this holy decree.

In the face of the holy decree, their private life can only be regarded as a reluctance, and her lover suddenly becomes someone else's, how can she accept it? She went to beg her father, to beg her eldest brother, everyone was silent, she even wanted to go back to Shengjing to beg Bailiyue, her good sister, relying on the identity of the imperial concubine, she could snatch her lover with a knife?

It was Bai Liyao who stopped her.

In the dark night, the cold wind gusted.

He grabbed her wrist and told her not to do anything stupid. How could she be controlled by him?

"I'll help you escape."

She was about to struggle, but she heard Bai Liyao suddenly speak.

"At midnight, horses and rations will be prepared outside the gate of the West City, you and Han Xing go west, there is the junction of Daxing and Xiqin, most of them are homeless, as long as you enter Mingshan, no one can find you." Bai Liyao's words clearly swept past her ears.

However, although he was born from Bai Liyue's half-mother, he was Bai Liyue's brother in the end, and she didn't dare to believe him.

Bai Liyao should have seen her concerns, and said with a wry smile: "Han Xing is my brother, I won't harm him, not to mention that you like him." ”

She didn't understand the connection between the sentences and the sentence, and listened to Bai Liyao say: "Remember, at midnight, the sound of crows is the sound." ”

She finally went with a hint of fantasy.

It was really cold outside the West City Gate that night, and she never saw Han Xing from the dark moon and high wind to the whitening of the east. He didn't come. He wouldn't take her away.

When she returned to the barracks, everyone was dumbfounded, no one would say a word to her, and her father and brother only looked at her with pity.

"Han Xing left for Shengjing early this morning." It was still Bai Liyao who came to inform her of the news.

Before she could accept this reality, Bai Liyao suddenly hugged her like crazy, his voice was very wrong, a little hoarse: "You also go back with me, he doesn't want you, let him be his concubine, can you be my princess?" I'll give you all ......."

Very unreasonable words, suddenly, defenseless, she froze in Bai Liyao's arms, she didn't even have the strength to push him away, and in front of her eyes were large expanses of blooming poppies, red and white......

"The red one is me, and the white one is you......" she read silently, suddenly felt disgusted, pushed Bai Liyao away, bowed down and vomited. She hadn't eaten, she couldn't vomit anything, just nausea.

"Shan...... Situ Shan ...... "Bai Liyao was behind her, and he called her by name, as if he was not used to it, so he called her by name and surname.

"Go away." She didn't look back, "Stay away from me." ”

Bai Liyao refused to leave, she sneered: "You brothers and sisters are used to winning people's love, don't pretend to be good people, even if my Si Tu Shan never marries, I will never commit to you!" Don't press me with the Divine Decree, for the day you seek it will be my death. ”

Then, there were long and boundless years, accompanied only by the wind and sand of the great northwest, and the outstanding military exploits that increased with the scars. Perhaps, there is also Bai Liyao, who has always been spurned by her.

In the twenty-third year of Tianyou, Bai Liyao was recalled to Beijing, and before leaving, he begged her to return with him, but he still said that he would let her be his princess.

After three years at the border, she has grown into an iron-clad female general, and no one in her soldiers dares to treat her as a woman, protecting her family and defending the country is her punishment for herself, but others are not allowed to beat her idea, especially Bai Liyao, who knows everything she sees and knows, even more not.

She stepped forward mercilessly, kicked Bai Liyao to the ground unexpectedly, and then kicked harder and harder, and finally Bai Liyao was rescued by his personal guards, reportedly broke a few bones, and lay in bed for months. Later, she vaguely remembered that she seemed to hear that day that Princess Yue was pregnant again, and God had calculated it for her, and it was a boy again.

In a flash, it was another four years, the Turkic disaster has been solved, the northwest wind and rain are smooth, and the poppies bloom every year. Every year, there are always people who persuade her to return to the court, but in vain, and gradually, no one persuades her anymore, and even Bai Liyao gradually cut off the news.

In the twenty-seventh year of Tianyou, the coup d'état in Shengjing, the first prince was deposed, the Han family was copied, and the Beijun government was degraded.

Bai Liyao attached a secret letter to her, and the secret letter read, "Seven years ago, you said that you refused to marry, let alone be controlled by the holy decree, this time I have not asked others, because I am already the lord of the world, I hope that Qing will return quickly, so as to ensure the prosperity of Situ's family." ”

She was ordered to return to Beijing without struggling, and she didn't know if it was for the Situ family or to see what happened to that person with her own eyes.

On that day, she sat on a horse and returned in military uniform, and Han Xing, his wife Bai Liyue and his two children set off for the northwest. There was no pause between them, she saw the hatred in Han Xing's eyes, and the dodge and pain in Bai Liyue's eyes.

She looked at them fearlessly, without sympathy, without a hint of pleasure, and seven years had passed, in which all her love had been exhausted, and she would never have been in self-imposed exile for seven years for a man.

In the next twenty years, she would always have the same dream over and over again, and there were countless pictures in the dream, but they were all fragments. Her whole life was in those fragments, brisk or difficult to pass by.

Love did not make her a better person, her heart was ruined, friendship did not give her loyalty, and took away her most beloved man. Family affection did not give her more support, it taught her to learn to give up on herself and fulfill many, many people.

There was a man who seemed to want to put her in place, and when she tried to believe it, he suddenly withdrew his arm and let her fall to the ground.

Perhaps, in Bai Liyao's life, he remembered that he only touched her once, and that slap made the corners of her lips bloody, he may regret it, maybe not, but only she knows how many times he slapped the invisible slap on her face, leaving no scar, which embarrassed her so much that she could only smile bitterly.

A slap without blood has no palm wind, but the power to hurt people is the heaviest.

Far away in the North County Mansion, she didn't know how that person and her former best sister loved each other, and she didn't know how many children were happy on their knees. But as the queen, she clearly knew how many women surrounded the man around her, and he slept beside different women every night, and good news came from the palace one after another......

Still smiling, he looked into her eyes and said things like he hoped that the queen would properly settle the harem heirs. He often used the strength of wine to say that he loved her, that he had given her all tenderness when he poured out his heart and lungs for her, but she was still so cold-blooded and ruthless.

People's hearts are flesh and blood, and when she still doesn't believe in love, lives carefully, and doesn't dare to hand herself over easily, what he does is not coax her to make her believe what she is afraid of.

There was a cliff in front of her, but he said that it was the gentle care he had given her, and that he had freed her from seven years of exile, and had given her a great and luxurious palace, for which she should be grateful.

She is the coldest statue in the palace, the most solid barrier of the Situ family, she is not her own. Her martial arts are superb, and she is sick, but her body is too good, and she doesn't even have a serious illness.

She often thought that if she had been as lucky as the women who had died young, and that she had died in front of him when she had not been loved, she would not have been so miserable.

Then, she watched her daughter, who had been raised by her own hands, repeat her mistakes, and saw her crying and begging for death, she was so distressed that she had never felt so sorry for anyone in the world. She depends on her, everything depends on her, marrying with her, she paves the way for her, wants to get her out of the quagmire, don't be obsessed with her, and in the end she will not die well.

But it seems that her daughter is more fortunate than her, and her husband is so clever that she often doubts his identity, and a frail and sickly mute can coax her daughter to accept her fate.

Thinking about it again, if a girl who has been injured is lucky enough to meet such a man who knows cold and hot, she must accept her fate. She doesn't think about her daughter's weakness, nor does she expect her to have a noble status, if she can stay with Mo Wen for the rest of her life, she is also happy as a mother.

She thought of her husband again, although Bai Liyao was the king of a country and loved by all the people, but he was a cowardly coward, and he talked more than he did. His former lover also cowered, leaving her alone in pain during the seven years of desolation.

In those seven years, the wind of Biansai blew across her cheeks, turning her from a seventeen-year-old weak girl to a twenty-four-year-old iron-blooded female general. Her most accustomed clothes were armor, her toughest weapon was a spear, her phoenix eyes were colder than a blade, and she had learned not to compromise any tenderness.

If there was ever love...... Tell her that she should believe the men's rhetoric, or should she believe what they do?

They say they love her in their words, but they love all women in their actions, and they still dislike her coldness every night. Who's wrong?

She has two unforgivable men in her life who ruined her life. But she also ruined the lives of her two children, the cause she planted has borne the evil consequences of today, she can't be a good wife, but she is not a good mother, what a failed life she is......

Just now, she rushed out and received two swords, the swords entered the heart and lungs, and the blood and air flowed, and she felt liberated. Bai Liyao and Han Xing have fought all their lives, they have been unwilling to each other for a lifetime, and they may not die well after her death, and they have nothing to do with her, she took revenge on them in an extremely cruel way.

"Shan'er......"

"Shan'er......"

Two completely different voices called in her ears, and two palms pressed against her body, and true qi was continuously injected into her body. But her heart has been broken, the blood has dried up, and she is destined to die.

When she opened her eyes, she saw tears in Bai Liyao's eyes, which should have been provoked by her words. Situ Shan said in her heart, this man is really pitiful, he is much more pitiful than her, those nights when he secretly came to see her in the middle of the night, and they were still in love with each other, if he could accompany her to argue and quarrel all the time, instead of brushing his sleeves and leaving, when she was tired, what could she bear with him?

He chose to leave with his sleeves up, he loved her, but he cared more about his face and refused to bow his head.

She couldn't move anymore, just coughed, coughing up more and more blood, and looked at Bai Liyao: "Even if I had expectations for you, twenty years of loneliness and loneliness are actually longer than those seven years." You want to save me from those seven years of quagmire, but you have trapped me in the lonelier twenty years, why didn't you save me in the first place? ”

"I was wrong, I was wrong, Shan'er, I was wrong......" Bai Liyao hugged her, both knees were already on the ground, and the Ninety-Five Venerable no longer had any face to say. He climbed to his current position, all for her, he didn't want to be Han Xing, but he did another Han Xing, and it was only at this moment that he repented.

"Give me a little more time, let me make amends, and I'll change my ......" his tears fell on her face.

Situ Shan shook his head: "You always think you are smart and let me go to Fahua Temple, just to test whether I and Han Xing still have a personal relationship, even if I am alive, I have never given birth to an heir for you, how can our mother and daughter gain a foothold in the palace?" ”

Bai Liyao woke up: "You did it on purpose?" Don't believe that I'm second, and temptation I'm first? Test me, what would happen if the Situ family didn't have a prince? Shan'er, my love for Jing'er has never been fake, even if, even if we don't have a son, why can't Jing'er inherit the throne? The whole world is mine, what if our daughter becomes the empress? ”

Situ Shanfeng's eyes shrank, but her fingers became more and more unable to grasp his sleeves, and she smiled lightly: "You say that you hate my children and hate me like you are in your blood, so can you love them and love me in your blood and bones?" ”

She still remembered what he had said, remembered the hurtful words he yelled when he was angry, but she was stimulated by these two love words, she knew, she knew, she finally knew that he loved her so much.

"My daughter is a good daughter, it's just that I'm not good. Find her and be good to her. My son didn't develop the style of the Situ family, but the fault is mine, you can pay it back for me. Situ Shan confessed her last wishes.

Bai Liyao couldn't say a word, there was chaos outside the palace, and Han Xing on the side was completely ignored as if he didn't exist, and he kept sending her internal force with one hand. Listening to the words between their husband and wife, his hatred has not disappeared, but he can't rise, if he and Bai Liyao take the opportunity to make a move at this moment, they can take each other's lives.

Suddenly, Han Xing's hand was grasped, a palm that he was no longer familiar with, a palm that he had not held in twenty-five years. When he raised his head, he saw Situ Shan's bloodless face, and his unsparked phoenix eyes gathered the last glimmer of light to look at him.

She opened her mouth, but her voice was weak, Han Xing vigorously pushed Bai Liyao on the side away, hugged her, but didn't dare to move too much, and listened carefully to her lips.

He heard her voice like a candle in the wind, and said intermittently: "For twenty-five years, I have often dreamed that you have said ...... Those flowers...... The red one is me, the white one is you, waiting for you to marry you...... Dreaming ...... I dreamed that night outside the West City Gate, you came, take me away...... But every time I wake up, I find that you have been ...... I haven't been able to ......."

Han Xing mourned, his hair was all white, when he fought with Bai Liyao just now, his meticulous bun was messy, his face was covered with tears, and he looked even older, he was so trembling that he couldn't even hug her: "I'm just unwilling, unwilling to be forced to be separated from the person I love the most, I want to come back in every possible way...... Want to come back and do your spring and summer, why...... Why do you let your eyes see your withering? ”

Situ Shan smiled with the last of his strength, and the gleam in his eyes had completely disappeared. She didn't look at anyone, or rather, no one could see it, her eyes were only her dreams, her lips moved, as if she was saying something, as silent as snowflakes outside the window: "You are...... My Rong, my Spring/Summer...... Detachment ...... Grass on the plains, one-year-old ...... A withered glory...... My loved one was lost in the Great Northwest twenty-five years ago...... You guys...... It's not him......"