Chapter 42: Lancelot's Atonement
It was a woman who was crying.
Her countenance grew haggard with sorrow, and her brow wrinkled with shame.
The ignorant people did not know the truth, but only blindly accused this unchaste princess.
If you want to save a war-torn country, you have to have an ideal king - and by the king's side, you have to have a virtuous queen, and this is the ideal form of rule.
Compared with the interests of the country, a girl's life is too small, and the masses will not care whether she is happy or not.
Even if the king is not a man, even if this marriage is a false phoenix that does not live up to the real name, but in order to maintain the national system, this sacrifice is necessary.
Even so, "he" wanted to save her.
When he saw this woman for the first time, "he" swore in his heart that he would die for her.
However, when she discovers that "his" heart is the source of her pain, it is too late.
She has fallen hopelessly in love with "him".
She had already given up her happiness as a woman and was determined to support the king as a "queen", so she fell into a taboo called "love".
Even if this feeling is not tolerated by the world, if you can make up your mind to bear your sins to the end......
Fighting the whole world for the sake of the woman you love is a man's romance.
But "he" can't do this, because "he" is the "Knight of the Lake" admired by thousands of people, and a hero blessed by the elves. This title is not only the greatest honor of "him", but also the shackles that bind "him".
The "Perfect Knight" who serves the "King of Perfection" - this man can only live the way one expects him to die.
"His" life does not belong to himself, but to "the broadest masses of the people."
For the "knight king" who saved the country from danger, "he" certainly did not have the idea of rebellion. However, behind this noble loyalty, there is a woman who has been devastated.
What should I do? Will I follow through with my loyalty, or will I do whatever it takes to protect her?
Before "he" could make a decision, things went to the worst.
The affair between the princess and the knight caused many people to be dissatisfied, and Gawain and Mordred, who were upset with King Arthur, sneaked into the palace with thirteen knights and arrested the two who were having a tryst.
Lancelot fought his way out of the siege, and Gnavier was brought before King Arthur. Although Artoria did not want to punish her, under the condemnation of the knights, in order to preserve the dignity of the country, she had no choice but to order Gnavelle to be burned at the stake (is this the origin of "burning heterosexuals"?).
In order to rescue Gnavel, Lancelot led an army to raid the execution ground and fled with her to France.
This incident became the fuse of the war.
"The Knight of Betrayal"
This stigma is deeply engraved in history and can never be washed away.
Gnavelle blamed herself for setting "The Perfect Knight" on the wrong path.
If he did something for the woman he loved - it was to make her live in pain for the rest of her life.
What made Lancelot most uncomfortable was that the king never blamed himself for the rest of his life. Even if he wants to fight with him who has lost his honor, it is only a helpless move to maintain the dignity of the country, and it is definitely not out of the king's original intention. To him, who had committed the great crime of rebellion, the king always treated him with noble friendship.
But to whom will his remorse and her tears be vented?
"Actually, I would prefer you to ask me for your own anger......" Lancelot said sadly, "if you can punish you...... If you ask me for compensation...... Then I will be able to believe in atonement and find a way to forgive myself. I guess that's the case with Gnevel......"
"No......" Saber whimpered, "It's not your fault......"
Artoria never saw Lancelot's romance with Gnavier as a betrayal, all because she concealed her gender.
Gnavier gave up the happiness of a woman in favor of the king's ideals. Artoria understood the weight of the sacrifice and thanked her in her heart.
"I can't make Gneve happy, that's something you can only do. I am sure that you will support me and take on the responsibility of defending the country with me, rather than letting it fall into crisis. ”
"But I did cause a war......
In order to preserve the king's dignity, Gawain exposed Lancelot and Gnavele's affair. Artoria could only execute her, and Lancelot could not sit idly by and watch the woman she loved be killed.
No one is wrong, everyone is defending the justice in their hearts, which eventually leads to tragedy.
"Lancelot, actually you ......"
(You're not a sinner)
What's the point of saying that?
Even if he forgave him, what could he do? It was none other than himself who was most obsessed with this sin.
Why didn't he perceive his thoughts in the first place, why didn't he save the knight's soul from his almost mad self-reproach?
"The king will not understand the feelings of others. ”
Who said that when you left the round table?
When looking for a way to save the country, how many people's thoughts and troubles did you ignore?
Saber's heart was like a knife, and he couldn't stop crying.
"Luckily, this time I finally got a chance to atone for my sins. Lancelot continued: "If I can claim the Holy Grail for you as a knight, perhaps I will be able to free myself from remorse. ”
"Holy Grail...... By the way, I still have the Holy Grail!"
As if a drowning man had grasped a life-saving straw, Saber's face rejuvenated.
It doesn't matter if you don't understand people's hearts, as long as you can win for the country and the people with your own hands. This is what she demands of herself, and it is her obligation as a "king".
With the miraculous power of the Holy Grail, all tragedies can be undone.
"By the way, how did you come to your senses?"
Saber suddenly remembered Lancelot's current identity: Berserker.
"That Mr. Reilly took control of my Master and made him use all the spells, freeing me from the madness of the spells and getting plenty of magic. ”
"That's ......"
Saber was glad that if Lancelot hadn't come to his senses, he would probably have lost by now.
"Let's go, Lancelot. Once again, let's fight together. ”
"Yes, my king. ”
With his most reliable partner, Saber took a step.