"When my mother died, I was still very young, and the impression left by my mother in my heart was only a warm embrace and an irreplaceable sense of security. Freya snuggled up to her mother's statue and whispered about the past:" Although I don't remember anything when I was in my mother's arms, but that sense of security has been engraved into the depths of my soul, so that I can never forget it for the rest of my life, since my mother left, I have never been able to sleep with peace of mind every night like then, every time I fall asleep, I will feel a burst of panic, ridiculous, even if I grow up and be sensible, even now, I have not been able to get rid of this trouble, and I still miss the sense of security that can never be obtained again. ”

"It's not ridiculous. Pannis clasped his hands on his chest, leaned on a rea pine next to the tomb, looked at Freya's confused gaze and said: "The influence of childhood is not so easy to get rid of, not to mention that you are not a child, but a baby, at that time what affects you is the instinct of life, and if you want to change the troubles caused by instinct, I am afraid that few people can do it." ”

"Maybe, heh, who knows. Freya shook her head abruptly, got up from the base of the sculpture, hugged the sculpture's thighs with both hands, and rubbed her face against the cold jade stone gently, like a child hugging her mother's thighs seeking warmth: "By the time I was about eight years old, I had already started to travel around the city on my own, and there should have been people secretly protecting me along the way, but I didn't know it at the time, I only thought of it later." Since then, I've been visiting my mom every few days, but every time I come I've kept it a secret from my dad and won't let him know I'm coming again. ”

"Why?" asked Pannis, puzzled, "doesn't he like you to come to see her?"

"No, you misunderstood, their relationship is very good, even now, my father still can't forget my mother, I want to come here, he won't stop it. Freya sighed and said, "But I know that he would be sad if he knew that I was always there for my mother." ”

"I really didn't expect Odin to be such a good father. Pannis raised his eyebrows and nodded thoughtfully: "I can't see that his mind is so delicate, but yes, as a ranger, if he wasn't careful enough, I'm afraid he would have changed from a hunter to a prey in the jungle a long time ago, and it would be impossible to achieve today." ”

"Looks like you've got it in mind. Freya smiled with satisfaction: "Indeed, he is a good father, a good father who loves me very, very much, he knows that I will be very sad to lose my mother, so he has been trying to take care of me, and has always hoped to give me my mother's love by him, so as long as he is free, he will definitely take care of me carefully from life to heart, and he doesn't want me to be wronged a little, and he doesn't want me to be lost because of my mother's departure." I can understand my father's mind, but in the hearts of children, the role of the mother is actually impossible to completely replace, no matter how hard the father tries, I will still miss my mother every day, but I was already very clear at that time, if I let my father know, he will fall into self-blame, thinking that it is his own fault, that he did not take care of me, did not make me feel enough love. I don't want him to blame himself, I don't want him to be sad, as a city lord and president, he has done well enough, so I hide it from him, don't let him know what I think in my heart, don't let him know that I will be here every few days. ”

"I have a question. The corners of Pannis's mouth twitched, and he asked seriously, "At that time, you probably ...... Less than eight years old?"

"Age is just a shadow that hides the eyes of mortals, and people who are obsessed with their age are always unable to accept reality. Freya raised her voice and chanted in a high-pitched voice, "Open your eyes and see, I stand in front of you, and although I have the appearance of a child, I have a more sound and mature soul than you. ”

"The death of the prodigy is such a depressing play, you can actually endure it until the third act, if it were me, I would have left the table as early as the first act. Pannis pouted, "And don't you think it's ominous to compare yourself with a seventeen-year-old man who died in a duel with someone else because of a meaningless dispute? ”

"Hehe, if you can say this, it means that you didn't leave the table in the first act, but watched the whole play. Freya enjoyed the strange conversation with Pannis, pursed her lips and smiled, "However, I was about eight years old at the time. ”

"At that age, I can think of these concerns, should I say that you are Freya?" Pannis sighed, "No wonder you have become such a character, you have thought so much since you were a child, and it is not strange that you will change when you grow up." ”

"But I still can't think enough, or not enough. Freya shook her head, "If I could have thought a little more comprehensively, I wouldn't have covered it up." I should have thought that my father couldn't be so confident that I was playing outside, there must be someone behind me to protect me, and those who protect me will definitely report my actions to my father, that is, every time I come to visit my mother, my father knows about it. ”

"I think so, otherwise he wouldn't be as competent as you say. Pannis said, "And what does he say about it?"

"The problem is that he didn't say anything, he didn't mention it once. Freya smiled like crying: "He didn't even show self-blame and sadness, the only change was that he cared more about me." ”

"You father and daughter are really ......" Pannis couldn't find the adjectives to express his thoughts, so he could only sigh and say, "It's really troublesome for two people who are so frank to come together." ”

"Well, I must have put a lot of pressure on him during that time. Freya smiled bitterly: "In order not to put pressure on me, in order not to make me stop coming here because I am afraid of his thoughts, he would rather keep his feelings in his heart and deliberately pretend that he doesn't know anything, and I, until I was twelve years old, did not react to all this, and did not know how much pressure I had caused my father." ”

"Well, I don't think you have to blame yourself for that, you can see through it at twelve, tsk. Pannis said in a deliberately brisk tone, "And I think I should be a little wary of Odin in the future, that fellow has a mind as weird as you." ”

"Hahahaha, you guy is so annoying. Freya was amused by Pannis's performance and scolded, "Don't say that about your father." ”

"Okay, okay. Pannis said wistfully, "What about you?

"How could it be. Freya rolled her eyes, "It's impossible to think about it." ”

(To be continued.) )