After returning from Maykel, the senior brother went into the room and began to communicate with the Internet on the phone, and Syracuse Day naturally became his deputy.

"What is my brother doing here?" I asked curiously, looking at the sheets and address books that were all over the bed.

Syracuse Day said in a low voice: "It seems that Master seems to be in a hurry to recover all the debts he put in the past, and some of them don't even want interest, Uncle Shi, what happened? Could it be that we are in financial trouble?"

I shook my head as if I was equally ignorant, and walked out of the room with a wry smile.

On the way back to the room, I happened to pass by the hotel's temporary kitchen for Luan Ruxiang, smelling the aroma coming from the door, I touched the empty belly, pushed the door in and asked, "Ah Xiang, is breakfast ready?"

Who knew that there was no trace of Luan Ruxiang in the kitchen, but he saw Xue Chengyue, who was wearing pajamas, standing in front of the stove in a daze, with a face full of hesitation, looking at the steamer that was still steaming in confusion.

"What's wrong?" I curiously leaned behind her, and immediately smelled a faint fragrance, and I couldn't help but feel so relieved that I almost forgot what I was here for.

She turned her head to look at me in a little surprise, then pouted with a very distressed "um", and pointed to the only small steamed dumplings and steamed dumplings left in the steamer with a very long and extremely long tail note.

"Oh, you're not hesitating which one to eat, are you?" I joked.

But she nodded at me quite seriously.

My mind was in a state of confusion for a moment, and I didn't know what to do, and oh my God, could anyone in the world really be bothered by this kind of problem?!

After a while, I proposed, rather incomprehensibly, "Uh, wouldn't it be nice to eat them all?"

Seeing her shake her head with an unusually painful expression, I suddenly realized and asked tentatively, "Are you losing weight?"

Her face flushed slightly in an instant, and then she pretended to have a disdainful expression of "it's not", and said "hum" and turned her head away.

Oh, I see! Syracuse Moon is facing the historic problem of how to have both fish and bear's paws. Between the delicious steamed dumplings and the equally delicious xiaolongbao, she is bound to make an extremely painful and arduous choice under the premise that she must choose one of the two, otherwise she will face the danger of gaining weight

This kind of problem, I often encountered when I was a child, and the solution is actually very simple-

I reached out and grabbed the steamed dumplings and xiao long bao, and stuffed them all into my mouth in one go.

"Rather than having to make a choice, it is better not to have a choice at all", this is one of the life philosophies that Dumb taught me. Although the process of solving the problem is a little painful, to borrow Dumb's words, "I believe that with your extraordinary emotional intelligence and intelligence, you will definitely understand that I am doing this for your good".

Under the unbelievable gaze of Snow City Moon, after enduring the scorching heat that almost didn't burn my tongue, I finally swallowed all the source of her distress into my stomach, I looked at her with relief and said, "Now, you don't have to worry!"

She cried?!!

Hey, isn't this little thing going to make you cry out with gratitude?!Wait, wait, what's going on with this grief-stricken expression?!

Suddenly, Master's voice came from the far end of the corridor, "Moon girl, have you finished eating? Phyllis is waiting for us!

I looked in horror at Xue Chengyue who was staring at the steamer in distraction, and the wet tears on her face, and the little sobbing little nose that couldn't stop sobbing, and listening to Master's inquiry getting closer and closer to the kitchen, a picture of great horror instantly crossed my mind—Xue Chengyue who was pointing at me silently complaining with tears, Master who was roaring angrily at me, and a person who didn't know what would happen to me

At this moment, I suddenly remembered what Dumb had told me - "You don't stand under a dangerous wall", so I opened the window and jumped out without thinking

hurriedly fled back to the practice venue, but saw Luan Ruxiang sitting in the control room with a basket in his arms, with a lonely expression.

I walked up and reached out from her side to uncover the basket, but she screamed "ah" in fright, turned her head to see that it was me, and couldn't help but say, "Young master! I'm scared to death! Why don't you say hello!"

I touched the warm bag and asked curiously, "How long have you been waiting here?" 4th floor

"Hmm...... No, it didn't take long!"

I smiled and sat down next to her, and just wanted to reach out and pick up a bag, but she hurriedly blocked it and said, "There are chopsticks! Young master, you really don't pay attention to hygiene! Really, you have the same virtue as your senior brother, and when you see the bag, you will reach out and grab it."

I reluctantly took the chopsticks she handed over, picked up the bag and took a bite, and saw her tilting her head to the side and looking at me expectantly, which was quite similar to the look of 251 when she watched me eat on weekdays, and couldn't help laughing: "What, do you want me to feed you too?"

"Talent...... Not at all!" She glanced at me with a big sneer and said, "People are afraid that it won't suit your taste!"

Seeing that I was eating very well, she supported her hand again, tilted her head to look at me and said, "Young master, what do you want to eat at night?"

"Well, squid ink noodles, bacon and potato soup, tuna sushi, cucumber and cheese rolls, and tempura ......" I unceremoniously burst into a bunch of dishes that I had admired for a long time but really didn't have time to make them myself.

"Huh, huh?!!" she looked at me with a bewildered face, "I...... But I don't know either, young master!"

I looked at her and shook my head and said, "Ah Xiang, this is not good, when I get married in the future, these are the necessary delicacies for the housewife to welcome guests on weekdays! Hey, you are like this, how can I marry you off with peace of mind?"

"Hmph!" Luan Ruxiang pouted unconvinced: "Miss won't do this, don't you still marry the young master's father?! Besides, I'm going to really get married, young master, you will definitely be reluctant!" nodded vigorously as he spoke.

"Oh, why am I reluctant?" I asked, amusedly.

"Because because" Luan Ruxiang pouted, "because "for a long time, and because he didn't come out of nowhere, he couldn't help but look at me worriedly, and asked cautiously: "Young master, you don't really want to marry me, do you?"

I held back a smile and hurriedly comforted her: "How come, where am I willing to do it!"

After dinner, after Luan Ruxiang packed up the basket and left, I was ready to start training.

But once I settled down, I immediately remembered the scene of Syracuse Moon crying at the steamer just now, and for some reason this lingering image gnawed at my conscience like a maggot on the tarsal bones, and no matter how much I tried to concentrate on the mantra, it was useless

After being in a daze for a long time, I couldn't help but sigh, and suddenly heard a person behind me laugh and say, "What's the matter?

Looking back, it was Onga. I got up and said, "Huh, why are you here?"

"I just wanted to say goodbye to you before I left. : He smiled at me and said, "I was going to just come and see you and leave, but who knew that I couldn't help but stay for a few days, this is really a place to linger!"

This should be the first private conversation between me and this "dumb", especially his new appearance and identity are quite unfamiliar to me, so I was a little embarrassed and didn't know how to answer for a while, but he spoke first to break this embarrassing situation.

"I've heard about you from my senior sister, and I can't help but be a little worried. ”

"Well, are you talking about Shijian Island?"

"No, there is your master in that matter, what is there to worry about. What I'm worried about is your current state of mind. ”

"My state of mind?" I looked at him puzzled.

"Hmm. He nodded, looked around with his hands in his hands, and then looked at me again and said, "I've heard that you have been studying for more than ten days in a row, and I have heard that you have done quite well on Hearst exams. And for the sake of both academics and martial arts, you don't even have time to greet my senior sister?" I nodded puzzled.

"I've also heard that the friends you know well in He's are either famous or well-known, and even the classmate who is in the same dormitory as you is also a genius. ”

"Well, sort of!"

"Don't you feel awkward to be around so many wonderful people?" he gave me a meaningful look.

"Awkward?" I looked up in confusion and shook my head, "No, no." ”

"Really?" he smiled, but somehow, the melancholy in his eyes grew stronger.

"What the hell is going on?" I wondered.

"It's nothing, maybe I'm too careful. I'm just a little afraid you're trying to force yourself. ”

"Forcing myself?

"So that's what I'm most afraid of, because you don't even realize that you're forcing yourself to do something you shouldn't be doing. He finally showed a wry smile and shook his head at me, "Yu, tell me, what are you most afraid of now?"

I looked at him hesitantly, and then looked up at the distant dome above me, and countless things that might worry me flashed through my mind, and after thinking about it for a long time, I was quite undecided and said, "I should be afraid that I won't pass the exam!"

"Oh, you're not afraid of being hunted down, but you're afraid of failing the exam?" he quipped, looking at me, "Are you Hearst professors all devils?"

"It's not that I just feel like I can't explain to myself. ”

He laughed, shook his head and said, "Yu, in fact, what you are most afraid of is the loss of these friends now, right? You are afraid that you will not do well in the exam, but in fact, you are just afraid that they will look down on you, so you will study all night, except for classes and cultivation, there is almost no leisure time at all." You've been pushing yourself to do your best in front of others so you don't feel inferior in front of them, isn't it?"

I stared at him blankly, and just wanted to shake my head to deny it, but he raised his hand to stop him: "Don't be in a hurry to deny it first, I'm just guessing." Let me ask you one more question, have you ever wondered what kind of person you are in the eyes of your friends?"

I shook my head frankly.

"So, can you think about it now?"

I thought about it for a long time before scratching my head and saying, "This is probably an idiot who knows a little martial arts!"

"I see. He nodded knowingly, looked at me again, and said, "Do you want to know what other people think of you?"

Seeing that I hesitated and nodded, he said: "Maybe what I said is not entirely right, after all, this is just a summary based on my senior sister's opinion In the eyes of others, in fact, you are a rather unapproachable genius, a heavenly pride that is beyond the reach of mortal eyes, and treats things quite rigidly, most of the time very taciturn, making it difficult for people to guess what you are thinking." ”

Seeing my look of disbelief, he smiled: "Of course, in fact, people who know you know that you are not such a person, such as me and my senior sister, but this is indeed the feeling you give others." You never take the initiative to talk to strangers, and you rarely take the initiative to get close to your friends; when you encounter problems, you don't think about who to ask for help, but only think about solving them independently; you always try your best to help the people around you, but you don't want them to help you...... So in the eyes of others, you are like a person with autism, who has not opened up your heart at all. If you think about it, your so-called interpersonal circle is not the result of your own efforts at all, but just the imposition of fate on you. And is there even any one of them that you actively wanted to meet in the first place?"

Which one of these people did I want to get to know at first? I thought about it for a long time, but I didn't find anything...... Whether it's Ah Bing, Ah Yue, or the principal, Dark Moon Feng, Lao Xie...... Even the senior brother ......

“...... So in the eyes of others, you are indifferent to everything that is happening around you, and you will react passively and violently unless it involves you and people you know. Do you know which animal in nature is most like you? It is the mussel, the mussel with a huge pearl, which you wrap yourself and the people and things you cherish tightly in your shell, and when the wind and grass are blowing, you immediately close the two hard and heavy shells. ”

"Mussel ...... I am...... I couldn't deny all the arguments he mentioned, so I naturally accepted his conclusions. It's just that whether this conclusion is positive or derogatory, I really don't know.

After pondering for a long time, I couldn't help but ask, "What about ...... What's the downside to that?"

"Hmm...... It depends on what you think. Anga frowned, "To the others...... It doesn't hurt to be the ones who treat you as pearls, and even those who think of you as pearls will feel that you are reliable...... But for yourself, your eyes are only fixed on the small world you are in, and you feel great satisfaction, and at the same time you are extremely afraid of losing what you have now, but you don't know how to ask for it, or even don't want to ask for it. Yu, do you know what I'm most worried about? If one day, an irresistible force forcibly snatches the only pearl from your shell that you regard as life, I am afraid that you will die of grief and self-reproach in the protective shell you have constructed for yourself. ”

After a long while, seeing that I was silent, he slowly spoke again: "Maybe I'm just worrying about the sky...... But nothing will be set in stone, for example, I will ......" Speaking of this, he sighed softly, and suddenly pretended to smile lightly: "It may be a little too early to say this to you. After all, I'm half a stranger to you now!" I nodded, "Hmm...... The way you talk to the dumb you used to ...... It's really not like a ...... at all I really doubt now that the dumb I remember is just Reimer and not you. ”

He smiled bitterly: "That's me too, it's just a different me in different memory modes." Because from beginning to end, Dumb has only one personality. Generally speaking, different personalities have relatively independent memories, which leads to completely different thinking and acting patterns, but I have the broken memories of two people at the same time, and because of this, it is very confusing. So, from this point it turns out that the personality you see is actually me, and it's only because of the confusion of memory that it behaves quite abnormally. ”

When Anga said this, he couldn't help but smile a little awkwardly, and continued: "If there are two different personalities, then you will obviously feel that they are not the same person at all, but in fact, you don't seem to think of me as two people at that time, right?"

When I thought about it, I realized that it was exactly what he said.

In that era when the only reference object was the master, a "normal person", I couldn't tell what was normal and what was abnormal, and if it wasn't for the master who kept calling him "dumb" and "dumb", I am afraid that I would never have found out that he was an abnormal guy.

In fact, it wasn't until I came to Hearst that I gradually felt that the dumb memory seemed to be something incomprehensible.

"Looking back now, it's a little incredible that I was able to endure loneliness and stay in that deserted place with your master for so many years. So, this time, I asked my senior sister to bring that old guy, just because I was afraid that he would be too lonely alone. When you have time, you should always be with him. ”

I rolled my eyes and said, "Ha, now there is a young and beautiful girl who accompanies him all day long, he doesn't know how happy he is, where is the need for me to accompany him?"

He smiled and shook his head and said, "How can it be the same? The relationship between him and you and your senior brother, I think you should know best to know that he was wandering around for me all these years, living in no fixed place, and he is really far away. Before picking you up, he was planning to go to Shijian Island, but he was afraid that Shijian Island would be far away from people and would have nowhere to buy the nutrients you need, so he had to stay on Longya Mountain for more than ten years. ”

I remembered a question I had a long time ago, and I couldn't help asking, "By the way, I was very puzzled before, why did that old man have to go to Shijian Island if he was so dignified?"

He had to leave for the sake of the nuns. Anga looked at me amusedly and said, "Don't you think it's strange that the old man often runs in the middle of the night to peek at those nuns taking a bath?

"Huh?" I glared at him in confusion, "According to what you say, isn't that old cultivator peeping for the sake of peeping?"

"Of course not, he was afraid that my unbridled spiritual power would have a serious impact on those nuns. Even when my mental power is not exploding, it will cause people within a few miles around me to have strange hallucinations, just like taking drugs, I don't think about tea and food, the whole person is very sleepy, and I am dumbfounded all day long, and over time I will become extremely weak and even die. And the heavier the greed in the heart, the more easily influenced. Even if you are a monk, although you have mental resistance, if you are affected by my mental power for a long time, you will also have some serious mental diseases, the most intuitive manifestation is that there will be all kinds of strange purple-red lines like birthmarks on the back, which are toxins produced by mental depression and poor qi and blood. The reason why your master often peeks at them is because he is afraid that they have been affected. ”

"I see, I really misunderstood him. Only then did I understand the true meaning of Master's strange behavior back then, and I couldn't help but feel ashamed for misunderstanding him for so many years: "Huh? No, why should I be so sorry, it's clear that you slandered him, saying that he likes to peep!"

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