readx; It seems that even God can't stand my decadence these days, otherwise how can it rain for a few days and not let it clear

When I can't do what I can do, I will always find a reason to comfort myself, and then I will continue to belittle myself, then I will laugh at myself, why bother, I can always find all kinds of things to escape the responsibility I have to bear, just like I always talk about the graduate school entrance examination, but I am avoiding memorizing words and memorizing texts every day; when I open the advanced mathematics textbook and want to preview, I always unconsciously pick up the mobile phone and start swiping the screen, even if I don't know what to do with the phone, what is the point of swiping the screen, just purely to pass the time, until I find that I have not previewed, and the class begins to understand again, while yawning, while listening to the lecture in a trance, and then the class is over. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info. The vicious cycle continues. Sometimes I want to smash my phone, I think about it and give up, who is to blame for my poor self-control, I must change it next time, but I haven't changed it.

I know that in fact, my communication skills, expression skills, and work skills are not good at all, every time I speak, I don't have a point, I don't understand when I work in the student union, Huanjun said that the opportunity is to fight for myself, but I found that I don't know anything, how to fight, except for the occasional inexplicable complacency, I really don't see my advantages, in fact, sometimes I don't dare to call my family, because I think I don't do a good job, I will only waste their hard-earned money at school, but I don't bring them anything to be proud of their daughter, except to blame myself for nothing I can do。

Sometimes I do things in a trance, ignorant, even I don't know what to do, so I don't have a little brain, I never consider the cause and effect of doing things, I think of what to do, and I only know regret afterwards, is it useful?

The only thing I was lucky to meet in college was you, with you by my side, you were like my alarm clock to remind me that I didn't plan, so you took a picture of your daily planned tasks to me, and then suggested that I also plan to do the same every day, but I didn't insist; I can't understand my high math class, you will first preview by yourself and then accompany me to class, and help me grasp the key point in class with your own understanding and processing; I can't understand English class, so you bought a book for me and hope that I can memorize 20 words a day to improve my vocabulary, but I am lazy, you will spend an afternoon just to teach me to translate an English textOn the weekend I will sleep spinelessly until near noon, and when I see that it is pouring rain outside, I am too lazy to go down to breakfast, but I forget that you have not gone to breakfast in order to wait for me, when you hear that I don't want to get up, not only do you not complain about me, but brave the heavy rain to buy breakfast for me and send it downstairs, when I am late to the downstairs, your pants are half wet, your jacket is also, and your shoes are all wet, and you just smile and give me breakfast and leave, without the slightest dissatisfaction, the morning in November is already cold, not to mention the pouring rain, and I did not say anything at that time; you are afraid that I will sit on the stool for a long time and feel uncomfortable, so you helped me buy a cushionWhen it's cold, my hands are always cold, you will first rub your hands hard to make it hot quickly, but forget that your red hands that have been rubbed will also hurt, when my hands are hot and your hands are cold, you always don't let me touch them, because you are afraid that my hot hands will be cold by you, you are afraid that my hands are always cold when you are not there, so you helped me buy gloves, earmuffs, you always said to prepare for my winter, so I bought my winter cotton shoes, scarves, you said that it is cold, laundry and cold water hurt the body, so you helped me buy cotton waterproof gloves, you said that your hands will be hot when you wash clothes in this wayWhen I complained to you because I didn't complete the task by playing on my mobile phone, you didn't feel bored, but blamed yourself for not thinking about it enough, and then you comforted me and said, 'It's okay, as long as I work harder, anyway, I will raise you in the future, it's because I have too high requirements for you, and you are so stressed, and you are not happy, as long as you don't want to do it, I won't force it'... You're so good, I'm stupid to not believe you.

I'm not angry about what happened yesterday, I'm just a little emotionally lost, just leave me alone, just get some sleep.

Seeing the way you want to cry, I'm very distressed, and I don't know what I can do for you, even words of comfort, I can't say it, because I'm afraid that if I say something wrong, you will be even more sad, I know it's your past, I really don't care about what happened to you with her in the past, I'm sad that there is no me in your past, only the stupid and lonely you.

There is still a long time ahead, and I should not shirk my responsibilities, but should face it bravely and plan my life well, instead of wasting my years and regretting it when I am old. Come on, there is a problem between us, it's not terrible, it's terrible that you don't say it, I don't say it, just keep silent, I don't want even the most basic tacit understanding between us, Zai Zai said that he would let me play for a long, long time, until I couldn't play anymore, Zai said that he would keep bullying me, no matter when and where, Zai said that he could work harder, so that I could rest assured that he would raise me in the future, Zai said...

Boy, I believe in you, not just talking, I believe that our efforts will see results in the future, time will prove that we are right You always say that I have something unhappy must remember to tell you, don't hold it in your heart, but you forget that you yourself also have unhappy things, like today, if I didn't ask you, will you still hold back in your heart and not say it, everything is silently borne by yourself, big fool, you must remember that I am your trash can, no matter what you say, I will not feel bored, because that's what you said, I believe you, not just talk[，！]

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