This journal should take an hour to write, but that's okay, I just hope Higua doesn't feel bad.

I've read a sentence that speaks to my heart.

"We always leave the worst side and the worst temper to the people closest to us, and the best side to others"

When I first saw this sentence, I felt that my breath had stopped, and there was no other expression, just silence.

I am indeed like this, since I was a child until now, and I have always been like this.

Every time, it is only after that I reflect on myself, I feel guilty, and I think that I must not do this again next time.

But the trauma will not fade, it can only be slowly blurred with the traces of time.

From the moment I stepped into college, I was determined that I could be cruel to other people, I could be shameless, but I would smile when I was with my loved ones, no matter how they reacted to me.

And it is precisely because of this that I slowly learned to be calm, and the calmness here is to my loved ones.

I will act calmly with others, but I will not hesitate to give in to my relatives and friends.

If a friend touches a loved one, I will not hesitate to choose the friend, no matter who it is.

No matter what others say or point us at behind our backs, we get angry at most, and then we forget about it under its circumstances.

But a word from a loved one, sometimes, often brings not physical stimulation, but also soul, and is a language that attacks the soul.

Knowing this, ever since I wrote my novels, I have tried my best to control my own language, the language of my loved ones.

Even if it was the fault of my relatives and my relatives didn't understand, I began to learn to push on myself, my own discomfort, I know how to bear it.

But sometimes I don't know how to bear the discomfort of my loved ones.

Having said all this, it is nothing more than to want to say a word to many people.

"Sometimes, we have to let go of our pride, even if we are proud"

Xigua is not happy at night today, most of the reason is himself.

I don't take my work seriously, and I deal with work all day long.

Seeing that she was unhappy, she became unhappy, and she didn't know how to coax her, so she could only be silent in the office.

Every time I check the evening self-study, I come into the classroom with a smile.

"Sorry to disturb me, the school learning department checks the evening self-study"

The voice is relatively low, gentle, not at all like usual, heheda da talk non-stop.

The work is indeed work, and it shouldn't be sloppy, so I scanned the classroom, counted people, wrote boards, and whispered about the attendance of the class leader or the school committee.

Later, when I left, I whispered, "I'm sorry to disturb."

I talked and laughed with them while checking on them, and made friends with them, so I got a lot of smiles in return.

Like the Department of Mathematics, Economics and Management, the Department of Fine Arts, the Department of Education, etc., I am more familiar with the departments and departments, and I am also smiling when I am inspected.

However, when you meet each other with a smile, it is outside the classroom, and the moment you come to the classroom door, you will also understand in your heart that this is the time to work.

But......

I didn't understand the thoughts of Xigua's side, I should be serious, not so frivolous.

It's the attitude that matters.

I gradually understood that work is related to a person's image.

Responsibility is the most important criterion in the work.

In the department, you can make friends with your words, but in the work, it may not work.

Sometimes, I ask myself unconsciously: What if one day I become silent?

I do not know......

But one thing I know is that I can't be silent with my relatives, this is my vow Zheng Shaoqi made.

No matter what happens, even if I have nothing to say, even if I can't speak, I will make onomatopoeia to prove that I want to speak!!!!!

I'm not a good person, there's no doubt about it, and I can do something for my loved ones.

Ahem, that's a bit of an exaggeration.

Back to business.

After today's reflection, we must listen to Xigua's words in the future and be responsible for our work.

At the very least, I should have been unusually silent while I was checking.

The happiest thing for me is to want my loved ones to be happy.

When my relatives are happy, I am happy, I am happy when I look at it, I am happy for no reason, and I am the most real happy.

Xigua, smile more......