"I never knew what kind of power the light would bring me, but from that day on, my life was no longer inseparable from the light" - Du Xiaoyue

I was born in Huzhou, a bustling small city in the Qingshan Peak Region - Tayang City.

In terms of background, I was called "Miss" at that time, my maid had a very fine division of labor, drinking tea, wiping face, pinching waist, beating legs, no one would willingly serve others, especially a peer, or even a junior, however, they had to bow their heads, because, my father, is Du Sheng, the lord of Tayang City.

At that time, I didn't realize that people could grovel in order to live, and I would talk with my sons and ladies about the life and death of the ancients, what was heroic, what was Danxin, but at that time, outside the window, there was an eleven or twelve-year-old little girl who was shaking her legs and climbing a tree as high as the top of the building, just to get the paper kite hanging on it for me, I don't remember if the kite was retrieved, and I forgot whether the little girl fell and injured herself, because at that time, I didn't care, and I didn't think about it. The vigorous life and death that I was talking to people about were actually happening to me.

That maid didn't seem to be dead, and then I thought about it, if at that time, she fell seriously and died, maybe it would be a wake-up call for me, and it wouldn't make me so miserable and hopeless in the future, look, how selfish and shameless I am, everyone will raise their jaws of disdain for these thoughts of mine, they will point at my nose, call me cold-blooded, call me a bitch, these righteous people are as just and great as engraved on the board, most of them have not experienced real death.

Death? Alive? No one is born with what they mean, and I am naturally no exception, until that day....

That day, the sky was very clear, even if there was wind, it also blew my heart very happy, because it was my fifteenth birthday, every year, I was waiting for my father and mother's surprise, although in essence I lacked nothing, but always to look forward to what I did not get, that day, I got a "surprise" again, but the terrible "surprise", came suddenly, like a rain and thunder, split my life.

Will you accept it? When it's your birthday, someone.... No.... It was you who saw it with your own eyes, and a thought quickly appeared in your mind, "Dead, your father is dead, your mother is dead, all of them are dead, everyone you know is dead, your home, the city where you grew up, has become a sea of fire."

It was a purgatory-like experience, I was standing next to purgatory, and the first thing I did was not crying, not shouting, but in a daze, because there were many lives that were ending at my feet, and I didn't know how the maid who followed me ran away crying, and I didn't know how many people ran away from me when they were fleeing for their lives, and I couldn't shed a single tear, although I had repeated it a thousand times in my heart: "Nothing, nothing, everything!" ”

Some people say it's a natural disaster, but unfortunately, I don't believe in the existence of God, I used to read a lot of stories in the library at home, and there was one story that impressed me, it said that all the things we don't know will be regarded as gods and ghosts, but in fact, it's just a very ordinary and normal thing that another group of people are doing, I guess... No, I think it's a group of hateful creatures, standing in the sky that we can't even see, and sending an irreparable disaster to my homeland, a disaster that has orphaned me and killed countless people, but for that group of guys, it may seem like a routine, like I stepped on an ant, and its brothers and sisters will be miserable, they will collapse, but for me, I am just walking.

But what can I do if I know these things? I can't do anything....

On that day, the fire kept burning, I sat beside the sea of fire in a daze, watching the people who were about to burn rush out and fall, they died violently, the cry of pain was like the chirping of cicadas in midsummer, after getting used to it, even if I could hear it all the time, there would be no reaction in my head, what should I do? Where do I go? As a former "young lady", I can write poetry, calligraphy and painting, and I am also good at playing the piano and dancing, will it be useful?

I thought about a lot of ridiculous things, thinking that my face was ordinary, and I couldn't even compare to my maid, and other sons and daughters stuck to me for my father, but now my father is gone, my home is gone, and of course, my sons and brothers are also dead, at that time, I was sitting on the side of the road and saw a person.

It was a man, a teenager to be exact, I had never seen him, as far as I can remember, he should be the same age as me, he walked out of the fire step by step with his hair scattered, barefoot, and ragged clothes, and my almost stiff brain finally turned slightly, and he walked out like this? There were no sparks on his body, his skin was black, but it was just dust, he was like a soulless shell, his lips were open and closed with every step, muttering inaudible words, I thought, he must have gone crazy, but he was so lucky that he survived in that purgatory.

As he passed me, I inadvertently noticed that there was a glowing bead suspended in his loose hair, and I quickly searched everything in my mind, the pearl of the night? Jadeite? Silver?

At that moment, I realized that I had always been a mouse. I have never exalted cultivators, in my eyes they are all reckless people, pseudo-faced people who regard human life as a mustard, but we who seem to be glamorous and beautiful are the ones who live at the bottom of the world, and what we see and can't see is the purest thing on the surface of this world. Who sent a natural disaster to Tayang City, if I were still an ordinary person, then I would never know the answer.

Therefore, when I leave my hometown, I will not go to any sect in Huzhou, because those cultivators are not aware of the natural disasters in Tayang City at all, and even some ridiculous sects are still looking for the so-called treasures in the wreckage after purgatory.

I want to go out, to the wider world, to the world where I can explain this natural disaster and learn the art of cultivation, and I have made a vow that I must live and solve the mystery of the destruction of Tayang City.

I have seen the sea, but I can't imagine how vast the sea is, I am confident, only three days of food, four days of water, rowing a brand-new, "palm-slap-big" boat, from the east of Huzhou to the sea. On the first night, I encountered a huge wave, I sank into the sea more than ten feet deep, it was useless to struggle, I didn't even dare to close my eyes, at that moment I thought about what would happen after death, and I didn't remember my existence, if I was a prominent figure, then my death should be remembered and regretted by people for a few years, however, I don't want to be written into the book, let my death hang on the lips of others, I know how stupid I was in the past, how difficult it is to live, I am willing to give everything!

However, I didn't die, it was a miracle, the waves turned me up, and the boat, unscathed, carried me again, and I thought, this should be the lesson of life, it wants me to know that living is a luxury. There was no food, no water, so I cut my sleeves and fished for all the living seafood, whether it was eaten raw or swallowed alive, as long as it allowed me to live....

I had long forgotten the time, and that day, I saw land again.

If there is fate in this world, then I must have grasped a line in fate, and I have returned to my "hometown", this country, called "Tayang Country". You can't know how excited I was at that time, I think it was fate, this is an ironclad fact, reflecting my thoughts, all this can't be accidental, my hometown didn't suffer a disaster for no reason, it must be some kind of arrangement, man or heaven? Either way, I'm going to be stronger! If it is a man, I will surpass him and kill him, and if it is the sky, I will fly up to the sky and step on the top of the sky.

I have met a lot of friends, people here, very realistic, very mature, even if it is an eleven or twelve-year-old girl, I also understand what it is to live, because here, women, no freedom, no rights, we will be caught as slaves, serve men, do coolies, or go directly to death, I understand that the outside world is more cruel, which did not frighten me, but made me excited, because, the more different the world is from what I know, the closer I am to the truth of the world, and I will become stronger on the road in the future! Get stronger! Get stronger again!

However.....

When I was pushed with a group of people to the mouth of the mine, I almost despaired, my hope shining in the sky, but the way I was going was underground, in the darkness.

Without any preparation, when I came back to my senses, it was already in the dark, and I was scared because I could already smell the stench of the corpse. I collapsed, how the hell am I going to survive as a woman, a seventeen-year-old woman, I know what will happen to the slaves here, we will go crazy in the dark, we will lose our humanity for the grass in the veins, we will eat people, we will eat corpses, we will eat everything we can eat, as long as I want to survive, I will have to become a monster, become a beast, eat stinky meat, and even eat each other's arms, internal organs, and excrement, as rumored....

My faith was shattered in that moment, and I wanted to live!

Call....

A little fire bloomed in our midst, and we were stunned, and subconsciously pounced, and someone shouted, "Don't move!" Keep the fire, this is our hope to live! ”

Everyone was stunned, and we were careful to regard that little bit of fire as our most precious thing.

"Guys, I'm an inverted bucket, I know a little bit of underground, we all want to live, I have flint, but there is not much to burn, each of us makes up a little bit, and lights some fire every once in a while, everyone must not give up hope, remember what we want to do the most, there are many veins here, let's dig elsewhere."

The man's words kept ringing in my heart, and I remembered the reason why I went to sea again, and I remembered my hometown, Tayang City.

I don't know how long I've been underground, but my eyes are still bright, we eat grass, there is no fighting, although we are all going crazy with hunger, and when someone dies, we will move our tired hands and feet, and dig a pit, bury him, dig a hole in the ground, ridiculous, but helpless.

When we were on the verge of collapse, we tore a piece of cloth from our clothes, lit it with flint, sat quietly by it, stared until the fire went out, my hope became slimmer and fame, but it was still there, and I thought, if the fire never burns, I must go out too, definitely! Certain!

That.... The fire grew in size and became light.

I never knew what power the light would give me, but from that day on, I could never live without the light again.