Chapter 19: Vivien's Vulnerability

Vivien sat on the chair in a daze, and the magic thread used the test bench and equipment fixed to the ground to pull the chair, turning back and forth in the real room, as if a normal person was pacing back and forth. ⊥ the top novel, Pannis was not in a hurry, leaning against the door with his arms crossed, and it was interesting to observe Vivien, who was troubled by anxiety, panic, and regret. After turning around in place for a while, Vivien suddenly slid her chair and dragged herself in front of Pannis, and asked in a low voice, "Eldest sister, ...... Angry?"

"Do you think she's going to get angry so easily?" Pannis asked rhetorically, "She's more worried about you." ”

"That's good. Vivien began to spin around again, and said at a loss, "Actually, I'm just ...... today I'm scared, not just today, but recently, I didn't mean to hide it, but I've been very worried and scared, so I've been deceiving myself to escape reality, I don't dare to mention anything related to my own body, I don't even dare to think about it, as soon as someone mentions it or something reminds me, I will immediately run away so that I don't have to face reality. Today's incident, on the surface, I was dissatisfied because you were hiding it from me, but in fact, it was because you made it impossible for me to escape, so I went crazy. ”

"I understand, of course I understand. Pannis's smile was very reassuring: "Actually, everyone knows very well in their hearts, everyone knows that no one in this family will be more stressed than you, so you will seem normal to have an occasional outburst, this is like a living person, if you keep your sanity all the time, it is strange." ”

"So, aren't you angry?" Vivien looked expectantly into Pennis's eyes, "You didn't blame me for the unreasonable accusations I just made?"

"Huh. Pannis was amused by Vivien's rare childish reaction, and beckoned to her like a child, and Vivien obediently pulled her chair closer to Pannis. Pannis moved the chair so that her back to herself, and the ten fingers of her hands gently pressed on the top of her head, and the gentle energy drilled into Vivien's skull from between her fingers, and the cool energy slowly soothed her intense pain.

"It really hurts. Pannis bent over. He whispered in Vivian's ear and asked, "I feel it, your mental power is very strict now, so strict that I wonder why you can still stay awake now." ”

"Headaches can also be slowly adapted, and you get used to the pain, and you can't sleep if you don't feel pain. Vivien laughed at herself, as if she was boasting, but there was obvious grievance in her words: "I'm very powerful now, and I can already control the process normally while enduring headaches, maybe after a while, I can really get used to this painful feeling." ”

Pannis smiled wryly. Gently tapped Vivien's head: "Pain is a feeling that can never be diminished by habit, you should know it very well, right?" How are you feeling now? Are you feeling better?"

"Uncomfortable. Vivien said coquettishly: "If it doesn't hurt, I'm not used to it, so it's not comfortable at all." ”

"It seems to be better. Pannis rolled his eyes and said, "Why is it like this? You didn't have headaches so often before, is it because the symptoms are getting worse?"

Vivien's face was stunned, and she sighed and said, "Because there is really not much time left for me." You know what, I have one more body part that I need to control now, no, no, no, I don't have to control it all the time. But be ready to take over the control at any time. Haha, I can breathe on my own most of the time now, but occasionally I can't breathe, and then I need to pull my chest to help me breathe. Got it. It's hard for me to have any more time to rest now, and I'm almost ready to control my body at any time. ”

"What about sleeping?" Pannis's fingers that were massaging Vivian trembled slightly, and his face was ugly, "Can't you even sleep now?"

"You can still sleep, after all, you don't need me to use puppetry to assist you most of the time. You can still breathe on your own. Vivien said bitterly: "If it doesn't work, I'll wake up because I'm suffocated, and then I'll use the puppet manipulation technique right away." Well, maybe once or twice a night, but it's not much, and the rest of the time is enough for me to sleep. ”

Vivien said it lightly, but Pannis knew exactly what the problem was. Not only because of poor rest, but also because of headaches, the real problem is that if she has another magical disorder, but she happens to get sick, no one can help her, and can only watch her die of suffocation. Even if there is no magic disorder, if the attacks become more and more frequent, if you don't wake up at any of them, you will never see the sun the next day.

"I'm scared, Pannis. The massage lasted for a while, and Vivian suddenly seemed to let down her guard, and for the first time said in a helpless voice, with a crying voice: "I'm really scared." Every day when I wake up from a dream with suffocation, my teeth chatter with fear, once I thought I had seen it and accepted what fate had arranged for me, but I didn't know until death was approaching little by little, I wasn't prepared at all, I really didn't want to die, I didn't want to die at all. ”

"Yes, yes. Pannis stopped the massage, stroked the top of Vivien's head, and said softly, "I understand, we all understand, we will all stand behind you." Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, the current hardships and pains will pass one day, this is just the darkest time before dawn, as long as you survive this most terrible day, you will get better. ”

Vivian closed her eyes, gasped for a while, suddenly untied the belt fixed on her body and stood up, turned around and grabbed Pannis's clothes, and asked expectantly: "You are a demigod, all your things can be solved lightly, please tell me, there is really something I need, there must be a cure for my illness, and it will definitely pull me back from the brink of death." You're so powerful, and so many demigods have shown respect for you, you must be able to make such a guarantee. I beg you to tell me, as long as I go there, I will be healed. ”

Pannis didn't speak, just looked at Vivien, who was a little crazy, with calm eyes. Gazing at Pannis, Vivien's heart slowly regained its steadyness, and she let out a long sigh, collapsed in her chair like a loss of strength, and said abruptly, "I'm sorry, I lost my temper." Oh, it's ugly. I didn't expect me to have such a day, it's really ugly. I understand that you can't make such a guarantee, no one can guarantee it, you can only leave it to fate to arrange, and all you, or what we can do, is to do our best to strive for those slim possibilities. Don't look at me like that, don't worry, I've calmed down. It's okay. ”

"You're a strong enough girl, so I'm willing to talk to you about some things. Pannis thought for a moment and said in a deep voice, "At first, I thought that goblin technology might be able to heal you, but that was just a guess with no reason. Later, I talked to Christo, and he confirmed that there was indeed a very developed medical technology in the Goblin Age, and it is very likely that you can be cured. It was only after that exchange that I made up my mind to collect these accessories, but I didn't think of it at the time. You can collect them all so quickly. Even when we first came back from the deep sea, I didn't have much hope, because the possibility was so slim. But now, after the discussion with Christo just now. Although it can be confirmed that part of the research center has been destroyed, I think it is more likely. Still, as you think, I can't give you any guarantees. That kind of cheap guarantee is irresponsible, and I can only give you one promise, even if we don't find what we want this time. I will continue to work hard to find a way, even if there is only one in 10,000,000 hope, I will not give up, I will help you go down together, and I will never let go of your hand. I'm sure the three of them will make the same promise and never give up on you. ”

Vivien looked directly into Pannis's eyes, looked at it seriously for a long time, and the corners of her mouth suddenly curled, and a shallow smile bloomed. She stood up again, slowly walked in front of Pannis, buried her head in Pannis's upper abdomen, and a muffled voice sounded: "I believe in you, I believe in you, I am willing to entrust the hope of life to you, even if I still suffer setbacks this time, I will not be like this time recently, even if I will die, I firmly believe that you will find a way before I die, but I am unlucky not to persist until that day." Don't worry, I will work hard with the greatest hope, you will not give up on me, and I will not give up on myself. ”

Pannis's body stiffened, and the feeling of carrying all the hopes of others was not as good as many people imagined. But Pannis quickly adjusted his mentality, and wrapped his arms around Vivian, who showed vulnerability for a rare time: "Since you are calm and have figured it out, let's go up and don't let them worry too much." ”

"Well, go up, I want to apologize to my eldest sister. Vivian nodded, but said coquettishly: "I'm starting to have a headache again, I'm very tired, you can carry me up, don't carry it, ask the princess to hug it." ”

Pannis sighed helplessly, rolled his eyes, hugged Vivien in his arms, and left the closed room. As soon as I got out of the elevator, I found Catherine walking around the second floor of the basement with a worried face. Hearing the door of the elevator behind her, Catherine quickly turned her head and looked at Pannis and Vivian lying in his arms in confusion: "This is ......"

"Okay, it's okay. She...... Huh?" Pannis lowered his head and immediately smiled bitterly again: "I'm tired and asleep." But don't worry, she has already thought about it, and she just said that she wants to apologize to you. ”

"Whew, that's good. Catherine let out a sigh of relief, her body shaking and almost collapsing. After standing in place for a while, he regained his strength, turned his head and led the way in front: "Anyway, as long as she rekindles hope." It was as if she had given up all hope in the previous months, and it was frightening. ”

Just as Catherine turned her back, Vivien, who was in Pannis's arms, suddenly jumped up, put her hands and feet behind Catherine's back like an octopus, put her arms around her neck, and put her face on her face from behind, choked up and said, "Big sister, I'm sorry for worrying you." ”

Catherine was stunned, feeling the warm liquid flowing against her cheeks, the softest part of her heart was gently touched, she held up Vivian's thigh with her backhand, turned her head and bit Vivian's face lightly, and said with a loud laugh: "I accept your apology, go, let's prepare, and then set off towards hope." When I come back this time, I want to see a little fool who can run, jump, cry and laugh without magic. (To be continued......)

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