Chapter 16: Despair
Fan Lie and the four of them came to a street called "Vegetable Market" in the west of Tianmu City. This is the distribution place of vegetables and meat in Tianmu City, and most of the people who live on this street are vegetable vendors, butchers and other figures.
Looking at the dirty garbage on the street, Wude smiled at Lin Yuxue and said, "Young grandma, let's find a place to live here first, our identities ............"
Fan Lie nodded: "It's hard to see the people from the government and those big families here, so let's live here first." ”
Lin Yuxue nodded lightly.
Seeing that the young grandmother nodded, Wude breathed a sigh of relief in his heart. Since Lin Yuxue slapped Jiang Gui, her status in Wude's heart has been higher than that of Wude's father and son.
Worry-free grew up since childhood and without virtue, the name is master and servant, but the relationship is like a brother. Ning Lie's current true identity is not known to Wude, in the eyes of Wude, the young master has never been an unreasonable person. This young grandmother can't be provoked, her father dares to beat her, what else can't she do!
It was a virtuous idea to come to this vegetable market, and in his opinion, their Ning family suffered a great disaster this time, and the entire family was brought to the capital of Linzi by the royal family.
They also took a risk when they returned to Tianmu this time, and if someone who knew their identities reported to the government, they would most likely be escorted to the capital. Several people felt in their hearts that it was very likely to find out worry-free news in this Tianmu City, so it was worth taking some risks.
Fan Lie and the four of them rented a six-foot alley on Caishier Street, which was not far from Caishier Street, and the noisy sound on the street could be heard every day before dawn. Every day, the father and daughter of Wude would go to those places in the city where they could find out the news, and see if there was any worry-free news.
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Half a year has passed, and he has never returned, and there is no news about him. Fan Lie asked Wude to go back to the place where they had lived outside the city several times, and there was no trace of worry-free return.
Fan Lie was a little sad in his heart, worry-free was regarded by him as the father of this life, he had been gone for many days, I was afraid that something unexpected had happened.
Looking at his disabled leg, Fan Lie couldn't help but slap it a few times, he kept trying to practice the Jindan Sutra, but there was no movement at all.
He became a cripple and relied entirely on his wife to make wine for a living. As the days lengthened, Fan Lie's mood became more and more depressed. Lin Yuxue carefully brews her wine, which is the only way they can make money.
One night, Fan Lie broke out:
"A mortal who can't cultivate, a wasted person who can't take care of himself, a husband who can't exercise the power of a man, what's the point of my life!"
That night, Fan Lie was dishonest in bed again. He moved for a while, and then it was quiet, and it was still the same, he couldn't do anything, he couldn't do anything.
Lin Yuxue was a little tired, she smiled lightly and said to Fan Lie: "Qiao'er is next door, it's not good for her to hear it, let's rest." ”
"A mortal who can't practice, a wasted person who can't take care of himself, a husband who can't exercise the power of a man, what's the point of me living!" Fan Lie whispered these to his wife and covered his face with his hand.
Under Lin Yuxue's soft persuasion, it took a long time for him to pull his hand off his face. Lin Yuxue froze, and she saw Fan Lie's face full of tears.
"What's wrong............ , husband, don't scare me............"
Sobbing silently for a while, when Lin Yuxue didn't know what to do, Fan Lie spoke: "Xue'er, I feel like I'm really a waste, a complete waste, I will only affect you if I live." ”
Fan Lie's mood has never been so low, he is the prince of the Tianangfeng Kingdom, a cultivator who is higher than his peers, handsome, chatting chicly, and looking at him with envy wherever he goes.
followed the wrong madman master, and came to the earth inexplicably, when his cultivation and cognition were confused. But at that time, he still had the means to be superior to the earthlings, and there, he met Cher, which was the most exciting and comfortable thing for him.
In Fenglan, he understood the importance of Xue'er to him, he received some lessons that he had never received before, and he understood that his life was inseparable from Xue'er.
After the creation of the heavens, he and Xue'er's cultivation reached the top of the cultivation civilization in one step, he didn't say anything on the surface, but in his heart, he was very happy and proud that he could reach the realm of transforming gods.
He hadn't yet comprehended the realm of transformation of the gods reached by Heavenly Creation for a long time, and the black light emitted from the door under the Hengduan Peak of the Tianang Planet swept away nothing.
The body, the realm, some memories, were all swept away by the black light that shot out of the door.
He and Xue'er came to the planet Wulian, he became a crippled Ning Lie, Xue'er became Jiang Xue, and her peerless face became ordinary.
Fan Lie didn't feel anything about the change in his wife's appearance, he was glad that both of them were still alive.
But now, Fan Lie is completely desperate: he has become a waste, a complete waste! Fan Lie doesn't care about his current appearance, ugly is ugly, obscene is obscene, this is nothing. He can't cultivate the truth, an ugly and obscene mortal who can't cultivate the truth, and that's nothing, but he, an ugly and obscene mortal who can't cultivate the truth, is still a waste who can't do anything.
A man can be ugly, he can be lewd, he can be a mortal, or he can not have the instincts of a man. All of this added up to make Fan Lie, the former prince of the Tianang Planet Wind Kingdom, psychologically collapsed. Fan Lie loved his wife very much, but now this love could only sink him into deep despair.
What can he bring to his wife, he can't cultivate it, he will age very quickly, he can't make money, he needs his wife to support, he is a cripple, he wants his wife to be a widow.
The wife is an ordinary woman in this world, and he aggravates her misfortune in this world, he is only her nominal husband, and he is a waste. Fan Lie didn't want to live like this anymore, he had no goal, no goal.
Fan Lie thought of suicide.
Since Wude left without worry, he has made up his mind that he must take good care of the young master and young grandmother, and he must wait for the master to come back. Wude told her daughter what she thought, Qiao'er nodded again and again, she thought the same as her father.
Qiao'er has understood a fact these days, the young master has changed, but the changed young master has a lot less problems, and more temperament that surprises him.
He was very polite and polite to himself, and there were some things that the young master had never said before, such as the young master telling her that there was something to tell him, which made Qiao'er very moved.
The previous young master made people feel unspeakable in that aspect, he was too much, every day was full of tricks, which made people very annoying and had no way to refuse.
The current young master no longer has that kind of requirement, and he has been disappointed for this.
Thinking of this, Qiao'er secretly snorted to herself: What a!
Qiao'er thought of the young grandmother again, the young grandmother is very strange, she only has the young master in her eyes, she dares to slap her father, this is too ....... She is the young master's person, no matter where the young master and grandmother go, she will definitely follow them and serve them.
Wude went to the outside of Tianmu City to look for grapes that were no longer easy to see, Qiao'er took some change of clothes and washed them in the yard, she glanced at the room where Fan Lie lived from time to time, and she saw the young grandmother carrying wine into their room.
They rented a small courtyard in Six Feet Lane, with four houses and a small kitchen, Fan Lie and his wife lived in the easternmost one, next to Qiao'er's, the other in the middle was Lin Yuxue's room for making wine, and Wude lived in the westernmost house.
The place where they lived was dirty and messy, and there were rats and cockroaches, so Wude bought rat poison and cockroach medicine and put it in his room, and from time to time he put some medicine in several houses to get rid of rats and cockroaches.
In addition to inquiring about worry-free news these days, the father and daughter of Wude have to go to Tianmu City to look for grapes, and if they find grapes, they will bring them secretly. If people find out that they use purple plants to make wine, it will be terrible.
Fan Lie asked Lin Yuxue to bring wine, and he said he wanted to drink some. Lin Yuxue was very happy when she heard Fan Lie asking for wine, the way Fan Lie said yesterday frightened her. It's hard to be happy for him today.
In the room where the wine was stored, Lin Yuxue scooped up the wine from the large vat, poured it into a clay pot, which looked like six or seven catties, and took a clay bowl that could hold half a catty of wine and put it in the tray.
After bringing wine to Fan Lie, Lin Yuxue turned around and brought some food for Fan Lie to put away, she smiled and said to Fan Lie, "You drink first, I'll come later." ”
Fan Lie nodded, picked up the wine poured into the pottery bowl and took a sip slowly, he didn't dare to look at his wife. Fan Lie took advantage of the fact that there was no one at home, climbed into the immoral room and took a few packets of medicine from the medicine rats.
Looking at his wife who left, Fan Lie's heart became a ball............ , he can only drag her down, and when he is decided, he can't hesitate.
Fan Lie took out the packets of rat poison from under the table, untied them one by one, and poured them all into the clay bowl with wine.
His move was clearly seen by Lin Yuxue.
Lin Yuxue wanted to take a peek to see how her husband drank when she was away, but she didn't expect Fan Lie to commit suicide. Through the crack in the window, she saw Fan Lie pouring the medicine of the medicine rat into the wine, and her tears flowed down her eyes.
This damn guy, he actually wanted to leave her like this, he wanted to leave her alone in this world, this bastard! Lin Yuxue rushed in from outside the door, and Fan Lie was picking up a pottery bowl to drink the wine with rat poison.