Chapter Eighty-Four: The Past That Can't Be Passed Is Finally Over
Life is wonderful, I thought I couldn't get over it in my life, and I can finally go through it, and those who can't be forgiven can finally be forgiven. Those unbearable pasts are finally over, and I am grateful to everyone who has walked with me through these pasts.
Sometimes you can't get over it, but you can't accept the reality. Because the expectations were too high, if the results did not turn out as expected, the flood of disappointment would overwhelm me and destroy all my hopes for the future. If there is no hope in life, how can I have the motivation to cross the hurdle in front of me? So, I let myself indulge in the tide of disappointment, until I was about to suffocate, and I had the strength to struggle for survival, and I had to accept the reality. After accepting the unsatisfactory results, I realized that the previous disappointment was unnecessary. In fact, this result is not too bad, but I have been avoiding it, and I will make myself more and more unwilling to accept it. Accept it, and this hurdle will be over.
Sometimes you can't get over because you can't forgive. When I am hurt by others, my first reaction is to resent them, why they will take revenge, and how they can hurt me so much. I can't forgive people who hurt me, whether they meant it or not, and even if they have apologized to me, I can't be magnanimous. Because I hated it all the time, I restrained myself and couldn't let go of the pain of the past at all. When I realized that my hatred was only punishing myself and had no effect on the people I hated, I slowly forgave them. Forgiveness, not for the sake of others, but for the sake of making me live a better life and no longer live with hatred.
Sometimes if you can't get by, you're blaming yourself. If I make a mistake, I have to bear the consequences alone, and I can only blame myself. If you blame yourself too much, you will become blindly denying yourself, as if everything you do is wrong, and no matter how much you pay, it will be in vain, and you will gradually become timid, not daring to try anything, and telling yourself that you can't do it before you start doing it. However, when the people around me were encouraging me and using various methods to arouse my fighting spirit, I let go of my self-blame and bravely accepted the challenge. The mistakes of the past don't put any label on the future, and as long as I believe I can do it, there's no reason to back down.
In the past, some people have hurt me and taught me to forgive, and some people have encouraged me to be brave. It turns out that there are no hurdles that cannot be overcome, many hurdles are not obstacles made by others, but obstacles I set for myself, and whether I can pass the obstacles is also my own business, others can only watch from the side, or cheer me on, or sneer at me. What I want to do is not to be afraid of these hurdles and blame myself for not being able to overcome them, but to leave behind the baggage left by the past and take light steps to cross these hurdles.
Along the way, I encountered many hurdles, and each time I thought I would be stuck in front of one of them and unable to move on. But time has given me a lot of inspiration, let me see the faces of some people, let me gradually let go of many things in the past, understand that there are some things I don't have to care about, some things are good in the past, the important thing is not how bad the past was, but how to make the future wonderful. Many of the past that I can't get over have finally passed, and there will definitely be more hurdles on the road to the future, but I believe that I can go through them one by one, because I am no longer the same person I used to be.