Three Peaches Distant Memories of Neighboring Hearts III.

The moon stars are scarce, and the witch who has enjoyed dinner and rested in the big library looks at the young man who is rushing over, and can't help but ask suspiciously.

"What's wrong? Dai, so happy. 」

"Ah, Pa, ahem, Pachouli-sama...." seemed to see the little devil's gaze, and suddenly the thin-faced nerd changed his name.

"That's right, I've been thinking about how to make the youkai catch up with the civilization of the people of the present world at once, but in fact, Gensokyo's civilization is at least a hundred years behind the current world, but the mind is a thousand years behind. 」

"Well, what's going on here?"

Isn't it a terrible situation for Pache to wonder how nerds can get excited about this? There is no more headache for nerds who want to promote Gensokyo's own civilization than stubborn ideas and backward worldviews.

"The Great Tengu said that in order for Gensokyo to change according to my ideas, I must act with the idea of dominating Gensokyo, the Snow Maidens do not accept the culture of the present world, and they can't do it to learn from humans, and the inhabitants of the human world refuse to live with youkai because of their lack of communication. 」

"Oh?"

Pache suddenly showed a surprised gaze, and the monster and the human were afraid of each other.

It's not just humans who fear youkai, youkai are also afraid of humans.

"But, you know, communication between youkai and humans is difficult. Do you expect humans to talk to food?"

"Yes, because the position of the human in Gensokyo is equivalent to the bottom of the food chain, because Gensokyo's food supply is not enough to supply the entire Gensokyo, and it is not self-sufficient. 」

"Can't be self-sufficient?" Patchouli's eyes lit up as she read the nerd's words.

"The whole Gensokyo is like a prison, trapping humans and youkai inside, even though they are close but never communicate, not only because of the food chain, but also because they were forced to live in the first place to survive. 」

At the beginning of the establishment of Gensokyo, the yokai were expelled by humans, and the yokai lost their fear and disappeared from the era.

The living space of the yokai is constantly compressed, and the yokai who have lived in this world have learned to forbear, learn the way of human existence, and carefully hide themselves.

But the Gensokyo created by Yakumo Murasaki, and the confinement of some humans in Gensokyo, what was created was just the tacit understanding that was driven out before the yokai lost their fear and disappeared.

Youkai live on this faint fear.

This proves that youkai need humans, but humans don't need youkai, and it is this deformed relationship that leads to the massive expulsion of youkai by humans.

Because youkai are really useless to them.

But what if youkai have what they can do?

Or even exclude humans from their menus and understand the relationship between the two races through communication?

If you don't listen, you won't understand the voice of others, and if you don't listen, many unspeakable words will only be buried deep in your heart.

Is it hate, is it hate, is it liking, is it love?

If you don't say these things and don't listen to them, you won't let the other party understand them at all, and you won't understand them.

"So, Pache Lady, Gensokyo's youkai and humans need time, they need a lot of time to settle, and they need to communicate with each other through countless exchanges to understand their own thoughts. 」

Speaking of which, the nerd is very helpless.

What both sides lack is communication, but the difficulty is that neither side is good at communication.

"I suddenly felt depressed. 」

Nerds understand the status quo very well, even if they don't want to face it, even if they don't want to understand, they have to face it, and they have to understand.

He understood that this situation was like a plural knot of ropes wrapped together, and he didn't know where to solve it.

The confusion is in the dark.

"Substitution.... You really are. 」

Pache hugged him from behind.

"I'm so sorry that I can't help you at this time, and I make you so discouraged and frustrated. 」

But Patchouli understands how difficult the nerd's problems are.

Witches used to be in a very awkward position, and witch hunting that was prevalent in medieval Europe is familiar to even non-Europeans.

How to coexist peacefully between the persecuted and the persecuted.

Patchouli would have liked someone to give her an answer, but that was not possible.

Because even if the answer given by others, even if it is extremely correct, she may not be able to accept it herself.

Forgiveness or revenge.

A broad-hearted person chooses forgiveness, and a narrow-minded person chooses hatred.

In this way, she had asked herself, even if she was not a witch who was persecuted, but she could forgive the "humans" who persecuted her "compatriots"?

Can you move forward with 'them'?

I'm afraid it's going to be difficult.

As for humans and yokai, most of the yokai in Gensokyo are Japanese species, and a few are species that come across the sea.

Even Pache was helpless.

Even if the nerd gets the answer, he can't convince anyone else.

Therefore, in the face of failure, he felt discouraged, and the setbacks he encountered stopped.

As a result, the frustrated nerd fell into confusion, couldn't lift his energy, and couldn't find his way.

Pache wanted to help him convey his thoughts well, but even so, he didn't have a "correct understanding".

"Frustrated?"

For Patchouli's apology, the nerd couldn't accept it.

After all, in the current situation, it is he who can't do well.

"It's a bit frustrating, but it's probably the result of my reluctance, and I ended up in a labyrinth. 」

"Yes, if you don't prepare well, you can't rest well. 」

Pache gave him a suggestion like this, a very effective suggestion.

Let the nerd be moved for a while.

However, the problem has not been solved.

It's like the mutation that implicates Gensokyo discovered with the dream of Hakurei Sakura as an introduction.

Even if you know what the problem is, there is no answer.

No matter how much I want to get an answer, my mind is blank, and what comes out is never the answer, but the repeated rejection at a loss.

Is this the right decision? It will definitely fail.

Does this really make 'them' agree?

Can this really make everyone happy? I don't know.

The nerd's self-denial is uneasy.

There have been successive failures, countless miracles that have depended on it.

Is it really appropriate to entrust the happiness of Gensukyo, the lives of those friends who value it, and the existence of those who want to cherish their lives to miracles?

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But the answer has been there for a long time.

It is precisely because of this that he is full of anxiety, lest he be ruined by his mistakes, and he is carrying the weight of the entire Gensokyo, walking on a tightrope.

Like a traveler wandering in the fog, little by little.

It's the end of another day.

The vampire's red eyes concealed the original dark eyes.

But nerds are still nerds.

Distinguish yourself from the ambiguous and unclear feelings of youkai and humans.

In the form of a monster, he is like a maiden, bathing in the moonlight of the mourning crimson moon and walking above the darkness.

With the form of a human being, he is like a teenager, walking straight towards the dazzling sun wheel, walking under the light.

Nerds do think about monsters, and they have no intention of abandoning humans.

Jet-black hair scattered behind him, another day began, another day ended.

The weather is getting colder and frost is starting to appear.

It seems to be the end of autumn in Gensokyo, but for some reason, you can see the new day's sun wheel gradually rising from the right side from the bedroom window.

Located on the second floor of the north building, this is the bedroom of the nerd family, and the only advantage is that you can see the sunrise and sunset every day.

Well, it's a little uncomfortable for the vampire-transformed nerd.

Although the Scarlet Bloodline is highly resistant to the sun, they can even walk in the sun.

However, the uncomfortable feeling of disobedience hurts the spirit, even if it does not hurt the body.

Once again, I was busy with it, but I didn't know what I was doing.

No matter how you conceive it, no matter how you communicate, you even asked what the monsters think, and what humans think.

After all, the answer is that we can't live in harmony.

The pain of trying to be denied permeated his heart, gritting his teeth and continuing to persevere, and those who agreed with him were only a little bit.

Under the care of Pache and Mistya, today's work ended earlier than usual.

When I returned to the bedroom, I collapsed very tired for some reason.

Then, he appeared.

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It's not the great Yama who is far away, nor is it the onmyoji of the kind and gentle good brother.

Very short purple broken haired youth.

The well-fitting robe, indescribably weird, like a Taoist robe, he was dressed in darkness, looking at the nerd with a smile.

The world of dreams.

Under the swagger of the moon wheel, the calm and endless lake swayed on the boat.

They looked at each other.

"I didn't expect you to show up so soon, and I thought you were continuing to interpret the Great Enma chapter. 」

「......」

He didn't answer.

"I don't understand myself, I'm obviously trying, but it's like standing still, monsters and humans, can't they really live in harmony?"

「......」

He was a quiet listener, listening quietly to the nerd's unwillingness.

"I want everyone to be happy, to be safe, to stay away from strife, but I can't. 」

「......」

He was quiet and didn't comment.

"I thought a lot, but it was rated as naïve. 」

「......」

He quietly agreed with the assessment, thinking that nerds were naïve.

"I wanted everyone to be positive, but there was no response to my thoughts. 」

「......」

That was the result of course, and he seemed to have such a feeling on his expressionless face.

"In the end, I couldn't even accept my own ideas. 」

「......」

If you can't convince yourself, how can you convince others?

"Because it's naïve, because it's stupid. 」

「......」

He's still as quiet as that.

"I'm naïve and arrogant enough to think I can do well, but I don't have the wisdom I need to be a sage, or the knowledge I need to be a great magician. 」

「......」

He looked frustrated at the restless nerd who had a lot but had nothing.

"Master Yonglin said that I can do it at the same time, whether it's a youkai, a sage, a great magician, or even a doctor, but I can't feel it. 」

「......」

He watched the nerd's confidence dissipate.

"I'm so cowardly, I'm so..."

The "he" on the other side disappeared, and the stars filled the night sky with the moon ring in the center, and the nerd lay down in the bright night, above the boundless lake, among the countless swaying boats.

The object you want to talk about doesn't exist.

The solution to the problem does not come out because of the talking.

You can't solve such a problem by yourself.

The idea of wanting to rely on one's own strength and wanting to solve the problem by oneself is really because of anxiety?

I think it's a failure again and again, but I rely on luck to get a result that is not bad, which makes the nerd and makes him anxious and uneasy.

The collapse of confidence again and again made him deep in the fog, walking on a tightrope, and carrying Gensokyo/expectations.

"What the hell should I do?"

Youth/teenagers/teenage girls who are already 19 years old still don't know what to do.

Even if the goal has been set, there is no means to achieve it.

Nerds are like kindergarten children who vow to become president, but they don't know exactly how to become president, the knowledge they need to become president, and the skills they need to master.

The morning sun is still shining.

But even if it's hard work, keep a smile that doesn't wilt.

The nerd smiled and touched the lips of the two wives who were dependent on him.

After washing, with a sigh, I took out the "dress" from the wardrobe and dressed up helplessly.

In confusion, hesitation, falling and getting up, life itself is constantly repeating failures, repeating setbacks, repeating successes.

Chase after the longing back and step over the failure.

A happy future is not caused by chance.

Relying on learning, relying on imitation, falling again and again, and getting up again and again, it's as simple as that.

Even if you take a very small step forward, even if you fall hard and break your knee and find it difficult to get up, when you give up, it's all over.

As a sage candidate, he is completely immature, even blank, naïve thoughts, sweet and scary practices, but it doesn't matter, this is the direction that the nerd himself decides, even if it is difficult, even if it is a very small step every time he takes it.

Nor can we be anxious, nor can we be swayed by anxiety.

Walk on a tightrope.

As a magician, I am also immature, and I regard magic as a miracle almighty, no, magic is not a miracle, nor is it omnipotent, and it is the person who drives magic that can really make magic omnipotent and miraculous.

You can't be blind, you can't be arrogant, you can't be humble, you can't be humble, you can absorb little by little.

Slowly climb the Himalayas of knowledge.

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"Good morning, Patchouli-sama, Miski~, the little devil seems to be up. 」

As always, even if it is slow, it is still moving forward.

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