Chapter 202: Precursors of Depression

I nervously asked my mom, "Mom, ...... you You know it all? ”

My mother nodded and replied in a deep voice: "I know, Weiwei came back to pick me up so far this time, and my in-laws are so polite to me, I don't think it's easy...... After so many years, how can they be so kind to me, I can see this. ”

Hearing my mother say this, I was relieved, and I thought that her affair with Liang Jing had been discovered by her.

My mother was silent for a while, and then continued: "In the future, my mother will not be involved in these things of yours, Liang Jing is a good girl, you can live a good life with her." ”

I nodded heavily, and the corners of my eyes suddenly moistened.

I've always felt that my mom doesn't understand me, and I've always thought she's a good person, and I lost my temper with her about this today.

Now it seems that my mother actually knows everything in her heart, but she wants me to start a family so much, so she ignores some of my feelings.

That night, my mother held my hand and talked to me a lot, and she also said that I should not worry about the past, let me look forward, don't think about how much money I can make, just have enough.

Liang Jing had already cleaned up the room, but she didn't come out to disturb me and my mother.

It wasn't until we were almost finished chatting that Liang Jing came out and called my mom into the room she had just cleaned up.

After my mother fell asleep, Liang Jing came out, she stood opposite me, her hands in the pockets of her pajamas, looking at me with a smile.

I didn't dare to make eye contact with her, because I was destined to sleep in the same room with her that night.

Soon, Liang Jing walked over to me, sat down in front of me, and asked me, "How is it?" I'm okay acting, right? ”

I lit a cigarette and said as I smoked, "It's really good, thank you Liang Jing, you have helped me a lot." ”

"Little question, but how will you explain it to your mother in the future?"

"In the future, I'll talk about it later, she's just worried that I'll be too old to find a partner, so I'll just let her rest assured."

Liang Jing giggled and said, "You men should be easy to find when you're old, as long as you have money, we women can't!" ”

"Women can still be! As long as you have money, what little fresh meat can't be found? ”

As soon as I finished speaking, Liang Jing put her hand on my shoulder and said with a smile: "How about my sister take care of you?" ”

"you," I shook off her hand and gave her a blank look, "I'm not a little fresh meat, I'm an old bacon." ”

"Ouch! But I like bacon, how fragrant it is......" she said, and she leaned over to me again.

I instinctively moved to the side and said to her, "Be serious, don't make trouble!" ”

"Didn't you know I've always been like this?"

I took a hard puff on my cigarette and said solemnly, "Honestly, you really helped me a lot today, and you really made my mom very satisfied." ”

"That's a must, I can't find such a good daughter-in-law with a lantern."

"Don't put gold on your face, think about how we're going to sleep tonight, right?"

"How else can you sleep? Do you want to sleep in a separate room with me? As long as you're not afraid of being exposed, I don't care. ”

I thought about it for a while, and finally said, "Otherwise, I'll go to the hotel later, and I'll be back early in the morning." ”

"Chen Feng, are you there? Is sleeping in the same room with me so uncomfortable? I don't think there's anything for a girl.,Can you be a big man? ”

Also, it doesn't matter if she's a woman, what am I being reserved about as a man?

But I'm like this, I only have Anlan in my heart, even if she leaves me now, I still think about her.

So if I sleep with Liang Jing now, even if I don't do anything, it will still be tantamount to cheating mentally for me.

I didn't dwell on this matter, and insisted on saying, "That's it, you give me the key later, and I'll be back early tomorrow morning." ”

Liang Jing didn't continue to argue with me, she gave me a blank look, threw me the key to the house, and then went back to the bedroom.

I continued to sit in the living room for a while, and I didn't leave until my mom was completely asleep.

I found a random hotel near the community and slept in it......

This night, I dreamed of Anlan again.

In the days she has been away, I have always dreamed of her, sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse.

Whether it's good or bad, it's always me who misses her so much that I can dream of her every day.

I don't know if An Lan, who is far away overseas at the moment, also dreams of each other like me?

Will it be as uncomfortable as I am?

No, it won't, otherwise she wouldn't have made such a decisive decision.

I suddenly had a fear of women, they were so hard to understand.

And I'm not a man with particularly good conditions, so I always feel like I'm in a very passive position in the process of love.

I really don't want to be given up by a woman anymore, this experience would make me doubt the whole world.

I hated it and even wanted to give up on myself because of it.

It's a sign of depression, and I know it's scary, but I can't help it.

I slept intermittently that night, and I woke up at half past five in the morning.

But the summer sky was already bright, and my mother was probably awake, and she was used to being in the country, and often got up early.

I was worried that I would not be able to explain it if I went back like this, so I bought some breakfast at the entrance of the community.

When I returned to Liang Jing's house, as soon as I opened the door, I found that my mother had woken up and was busy in the kitchen.

I walked to the kitchen door and called out to her, and my mom asked me, "Ah Feng, why did you get up so early?" ”

Co-authored, my mom didn't know that I wasn't at home all night, and she thought I just got up.

I raised the breakfast in my hand and said to her, "I'm going to buy breakfast, Mom, don't do it." ”

"You're out for breakfast so early?"

"Well, I know you woke up early."

"You kid, sleep a little longer!"

In the face of my mother's concern, I felt very uncomfortable because I had deceived her.

After calling my mom out for breakfast, my mom asked me to call Liang Jing again.

I said no, she usually has to sleep in, and when she wakes up, she will do it.

So my mother told me to be kind to Liang Jing and stop working all day like before.

My mom was right, I used to be a workaholic.

But it's not that I don't have a family in my eyes, but that family makes me feel no warmth.

After breakfast, my mother was going back to the country, and she was not used to living in the city.

Before leaving, she asked me to go and talk to Liang Jing, I didn't want to tell Liang Jing because her mission had been completed.

But at this time, Liang Jing walked out of the room by herself, and she seemed to hear what we said.

As soon as I came out, I asked my mother, "Mom, are you going back?" ”

"Well, I have to go back, there are still chickens and ducks at home that no one feeds."

"Oops! You should have a few more days! I'm also going to take you to Fairy Mountain to play, and it just so happens that I'm fine these days. ”

My mother smiled kindly: "No need, I am glad to know that you are doing well, the child will take care of us more in the future, Ah Feng, he sometimes has a bad temper, don't take it to heart." ”

"I know, Mom, we're all a family soon, we've all been hurt in our marriages, and we all know how to manage a new relationship, don't worry."

"Okay, just be nice."

"Mom, you wait for me, I'll take you to the station."

Ten minutes later, Liang Jing changed her clothes, washed up briefly, and went out without makeup.