I sat down on a chair in the room, lit a cigarette and smoked it.

Sun Xiaoxiao also sat cross-legged on the bed, and she said to me again: "If you come and lie on your stomach, I will also help you press it." ”

"No, you don't."

"Come on, no one else can ask for it, don't you want to."

"I just don't want to."

She pursed her lips and said, "You're really boring, I don't want to make you comfortable, I always feel like I'm going to eat your tofu." ”

"I don't want to, let's be quiet for a while, I've been making trouble for so long, I'm tired."

"Are you hungry? Do you want to go to dinner first? ”

I shook my head and said, "I'll go later, I'm not hungry yet." ”

"By the way," I suddenly remembered the Durex in her bag, and asked her, "did you really buy that case?" ”

Sun Xiaoxiao replied with a smile: "How is it possible, it was given when I booked the room, how could I buy this thing!" ”

"Booking and getting this free?"

Sun Xiaoxiao shrugged his shoulders and said, "Isn't this normal, what's the fuss." ”

I smiled wryly, "I thought you were really going to buy it." ”

"Are you so afraid? I'm not worried about a woman, what are you afraid of. ”

I shook my head a little speechlessly, and Sun Xiaoxiao gave me another room card and said, "Forget it, I won't tease you, I know that you are clean and self-conscious." ”

"I'm not clean, I'm afraid...... Forget it, let's not talk about that. ”

"Why don't you say it, say it."

"Sun Xiaoxiao, you should be serious, we can't be too ambiguous, it's not good."

"I don't think there's anything, I don't know what you're afraid of."

I looked at her, stopped talking, and finally didn't say anything.

After taking the room card, I went back to my room.

Lying on the large soft bed, I fell into deep thought.

As far as Sun Xiaoxiao and I came to Beijing all the way, to the fight just now, I really felt quite relaxed during the whole process, and I haven't been so happy for a long time.

Sun Xiaoxiao is indeed the first person who made me so happy after An Lan left, she has a lot of playfulness and can also drive me to feel happy.

But it was impossible for me to be with her, first of all, I had a failed marriage, and secondly, I had lost the woman I loved the most, and I was not sure that I would be able to treat her so hard in the future.

And Sun Xiaoxiao is a very clean woman, don't look at her heartless for a day, but I really haven't heard any scandals about her.

And she's so much younger than me, I don't deserve her.

Even if I were looking for it, I would find a woman who had a similar experience as me, who was also divorced, and I didn't mind having children.

I don't expect any feelings to speak of in this kind of marriage, and the two of them can live the rest of their lives hand in hand.

After staying alone in the room quietly for a while, Sun Xiaoxiao sent me a message and said, "Shall I take you to visit Beijing City, Tiananmen Square?" ”

"Now?"

"Well, it's still early anyway, and I'm going to make an appointment with them at seven o'clock in the evening."

I thought about it for a moment and replied, "Okay, I'll wash my face and come out." ”

After a little frustration, Sun Xiaoxiao and I left the hotel, and we hailed a car and took us around Beijing.

It's been almost 10 years since we last came to Beijing, and the changes are still quite large, we passed by the Bird's Nest, walked past the Water Cube, and passed through Tiananmen Square.

I feel the prosperity of the city, and at the same time, I am glad that I was born in China.

Sun Xiaoxiao seemed to be very familiar with Beijing, and she introduced me all the way like a tour guide, saying that if it weren't for the limited time, she would take me off the bus to go shopping.

Sun Xiaoxiao is a university here, so she is naturally very familiar with Beijing, and I can see that she has a lot of feelings for this place.

At ten o'clock in the evening, I went with her to a cemetery to see her master.

That was the first time I had seen Sun Xiaoxiao so calm and serious, she knelt in front of the tombstone and told her master about her experience over the years.

As she spoke, her eyes turned red.

There was a light snow in the cemetery, and the snowflakes fell on her shoulders one by one, gradually accumulating more and more......

I reached out to help her pat the snowflakes off her body and said to her, "Don't stay on your knees all the time, it's cold on the ground." ”

"It's okay, you don't have to worry about me."

I knew how it felt, so I stopped trying to persuade her.

At this time, I thought of An Lan again, I didn't even want to go to pay tribute to her, but I didn't know where to go.

Because An Lan didn't even have a tombstone, her body has not been found until now.

Even so, I have always believed that she is still alive, and I am reluctant to erect a fake tombstone for her, even if it is to leave some memory for myself.

I don't know how long it took for Sun Xiaoxiao to stand up from the ground.

She patted the snow on her body, looked at the tombstone with tenderness, and said, "Master, I'm leaving, but if I can successfully join the group today, I may spend a lot of time in Beijing in the future, and I will come to see you often when the time comes." ”

With that, she bowed three more times to the tombstone and said to me, "Let's go." ”

After passing through one cemetery trail after another, we left the cemetery.

Sun Xiaoxiao's mood seems to be a little heavy, I didn't take the initiative to talk to her, I should let her calm down for a while at this time.

We stood side by side on the road outside the cemetery waiting for a taxi, Sun Xiaoxiao's mood was still a little unrefreshed, she looked up at the snowflakes that kept falling in the sky, and stretched out her hand to catch the snowflakes that kept falling.

Suddenly hummed a lyric: "The snow is one by one, spelling out the fate of you and me, my love is born because of you, your hand touches my heartache, the snow is one by one, quietly and colorful in the sky, seeing that spring is coming, and I will no longer live......"

It was like the first time I'd ever heard her sing, and she sang so well, and her voice was the best I've ever seen.

When she stopped, I applauded and said, "Good singing!" This song is so appropriate, what's the name? ”

"Fan Xiaoxuan's "Snowman", you won't have heard of it, right?"

"It's a little familiar, I forgot the title of the song."

The car came, and I reached out and beckoned it off.

It was much warmer when he got into the car, and Sun Xiaoxiao told the driver a place, which was the theater where the stage play crew was located.

"I didn't expect you to sing quite well, why haven't I heard you sing before?" I opened my mouth and said to Sun Xiaoxiao.

She recovered a little, smiled and said, "Why do you want to sing when you have nothing to do, I don't like singing very much." ”

"It's really blind that you have such a good voice."

"I like to listen to songs, I don't like to sing, is there a problem?"

"No problem, I just think you sing well, you should sing more."

"You want to hear me sing?"

"Hmm."

"Okay, I'll sing it to you slowly when I have a chance in the future, so that you will be bored by it."

I smiled and saw that she was back to normal, and I felt better.

That's when I realized why she had been hoping that my depression would get better some time ago, and even asked me to live with her.

Because other people's emotions can also affect our own emotions, none of us should bring our own distress to others.