After I got through, she told me that she had gone to Beijing and would return to Chengdu after the New Year.

I hummed twice, and then paused for a while before I said to her, "Xiaoxiao, my mother really doesn't mean anything else, don't mind." ”

"Don't mind, we're still good friends."

"It's really disappointing to you, if I go to your house, your family will treat me like this, I will definitely be very unhappy."

"I don't blame you for this, and your mother must have a hard time, I'm really not angry, don't think too much."

"Okay, let's not talk about this, let's see you in Chengdu when we go back."

"Well, let's not talk about it for now, I made an appointment with my former classmates, and now I'm going out to eat."

"Okay, you stay safe."

As soon as he hung up Sun Xiaoxiao's phone, before he could put down his phone, the mobile phone rang again.

I grabbed my phone and saw that it was Chen Min, who I hadn't contacted for a long time, calling.

I didn't think much of it, I immediately answered the phone and said to her, "Happy New Year, Lawyer Chen." ”

She also replied to me with a "Happy New Year" and then said in a somewhat eager tone: "Chen Feng, there is something I want to tell you. ”

Hearing her serious tone, I immediately cheered up and said, "What's wrong?" ”

"I don't feel like An Lan is dead."

My brain suddenly "buzzed", and then my ears couldn't hear anything, and my eyes were white.

"Hey, hey...... Chen Feng, can you hear me? Hey......"

After Chen Min called me several times in a row, I reacted and asked her, "What did you say?" You repeat. ”

"I said, Anlan may not be dead yet."

This time I was quite clear, but I was in a trance again, how could I not die?

I saw her fall into the sea with my own eyes, but the wind and rain were so violent that even a strong swimmer could not have the slightest hope of survival.

An Lan knew how to swim, but she couldn't survive the extreme weather at that time.

I swallowed hard before I spoke, "Why do you say that?" Is there any evidence for this? ”

"I have no evidence, it's just my speculation."

I suddenly smiled bitterly and said, "I also think she is not dead, but those are just self-comforting words, why are you the same as me?" ”

"No, I'm different from you, I've been collecting some evidence before An Lan was killed during this time, and based on some of the information I have now, I finally came to the conclusion that An Lan may not be dead."

"Okay, she's not dead, so tell me where she is now?"

Chen Min groaned for a while before he said, "I don't know where she is, and I said that she may still be alive, but I didn't say that she must be alive." ”

"Maybe, maybe, still maybe...... There has to be a possible reason, right? ”

"Don't worry, I'm telling you this in the hope that you don't give up, even if it'...... Even if Lan Lan really has an accident, then we have to find out the person behind her frame. ”

"I will, but don't come and tell me she's alive again, because it's too painful for me, do you know how much hope there is, how big is disappointment?"

"And do you believe she's still alive?"

I was silent for a moment before replying, "I used to believe it, but now I don't believe it." ”

"Why?"

"Does this need to be why?" I sneered and said, "If she really lives, she must know that we have been looking for her, and she knows how heartbreaking I have been during this time...... But what about her? If she's still alive, why doesn't she show up? ”

"What if she has a hard time?"

I smiled wryly again, "Is there anything you can't tell me?" ”

"Perhaps!"

"Okay, let's not talk about it, I don't want to be so sad about the New Year."

"Well, bye-bye."

After ending the call with Chen Min, I was not well, and I was about to come out of the shadow of An Lan.

But now she's come to tell me that Anlan maybe, and only maybe.

I don't want to have hope anymore, because the despair after hope is really too painful.

I think Chen Min is just like me at the beginning, a little crazy.

If I was no longer at the time of Anlan's accident, maybe I still believe that she is still alive.

But I saw her fall into the sea with my own eyes, I saw the sea water submerge her, how could she still have a chance of surviving?

This night I had a nightmare that An Lan was really alive, but she had become a monster living in the deep sea.

In the dream, she doesn't know me anymore, and she doesn't even have any humanity at all, I want to hug her, but she bites off a piece of flesh instead.

I woke up from the pain and realized that I had fallen from the bed, and the pain in my dream was caused by the fall on the floor.

Once I sat back on the bed, I lit myself a cigarette and inhaled it hard, trying to calm the dream.

I didn't sleep anymore, and I just sat down until dawn.

I habitually went out for a morning run, and when I came back, my mom had already sat down for breakfast.

Today is the second day of the Lunar New Year, and according to the custom of our side, we are going to start visiting relatives.

But my family doesn't have any relatives to leave, and when I was having breakfast, my mother told me that my second uncle would invite me to dinner today, which is very strange.

Since my father's death, although our family and my second uncle's family are still in contact, we haven't moved around much every year.

When I asked, I found out that it was the youngest son of the second uncle's family who was admitted to the civil service, and calling our relative was not simply to lose food, but to give gifts to his family.

I couldn't shirk it, so I had to follow my mother to my second uncle's house at noon.

It's very lively, but everyone who is related to the family has come.

My mother went to ask Sanxiao about their gifts and told me that Sanxiao gave them a thousand.

This is also appropriate, our family is not a rich person, since they send a thousand, we will also send a thousand.

The second uncle is usually submissive, but today he is in good spirits, wearing a delicate leather jacket, and even the second aunt seems to have dressed up deliberately.

At the dinner table, the second uncle patted his youngest son on the shoulder and praised vigorously.

What do you say that you have struggled for most of your life, and now you have finally come out, and what do you say that our Chen family has finally produced a civil servant, which can add glory to the ancestors.

My heart says it's just a civil servant, as for it?

Later, after listening to their conversation, I learned that the youngest son of the second uncle was originally admitted to the Municipal Planning Bureau, which is a popular department, and it will be mixed well in the future, even those big bosses will come to beg for help.

It's to say that it's so lively today, and some people who don't usually move around are here, isn't this just following the dip, and trying to stammer the second uncle's house.

I can see through human nature at a dinner, and when I think about my previous scenery, these people came to slap me.

Now they all know I'm down, and it seems like a waste of time to even look at me more.

Even some relatives even said in front of my mother that I, the eldest brother, was getting worse and worse, saying that I didn't set a good example for these younger brothers and sisters.

My mother has been a good person all her life, and she will smile and echo what others say.

I was very uncomfortable in this environment, and I left with my mother before I finished eating.

It's not that I'm jealous or anything, but the words that the second uncle said at the dinner table are so pertinent that I really can't listen to them.

On the way home, I received a call from Lao Fu, who asked me to visit his house.