Liang Jing once told me that the county where her hometown is located, including the detailed address on her ID card, is a small county in Hunan.

I drove a thousand kilometers from Chengdu.

It was a full eleven and a half hours of driving, and it was already evening when I got to the place.

I had to postpone the day when I made an appointment to see the cemetery today, so I found a hotel in the county town and stayed there.

I barely closed my eyes that night, staring at Liang Jing's urn.

I can't understand that a person of such flesh and blood is eternal in this small box between square inches at this moment.

I still couldn't accept this fact, my face was pale, and my mind was full of all the little expressions when Liang Jing was talking to me, and her mischievous energy.

Is there a regret pill in this world?

Or maybe I can go back in time, I hope to go back two days ago, I must have tried my best to stop Liang Jing.

But there was no turning back.

I reached out and held the urn in my hand, it was very light, as light as if Liang Jing had never existed in this world.

But it was heavy, because at last I held her in such a way, and her soul, her everything, fell into my hands at this moment.

I imagined that Liang Jing was by my side at this moment, she was leaning on me, and I was holding her.

I'll admit I miss her, in the boundless darkness, thinking very hollowly.

Just like Liang Jing said, it is obvious that we know each other and have to be investigated, but why did we become friends?

No one could explain this clearly, so I could only think about it emptyly......

Thinking about what it was like for us to go shopping together; Thinking about how it would feel if we were truly in love?

Thinking of my jokes, the way she laughed; Thinking about going on a trip together; Thinking that I like to watch Hollywood blockbusters, and she likes to watch innocent idol dramas and scramble for the remote control......

Thinking and thinking, a very strange feeling emerged in my heart, as if Liang Jing was fictional, and she could only live in my fiction......

I've never felt in love with her, but she can't be erased from my memory......

I will remember her for the rest of my life, and I will tell her story to my future children, for sure.

It's just that I can't hear her voice anymore when I think about it, and I can't see her thief's expression anymore, and the two lovely pear nests she laughed at.

My heart ached indescribably, I wanted to cry, I wanted to cry.

Could it be that my depression is about to start sprouting again?

Last time, it was because of An Lan's departure that I suffered from depression, which was finally cured, and now there is Liang Jing's incident again.

Thief God, me, right?

Okay, then I'll fight you to the end!

……

I don't know how I fell asleep, but I didn't seem to sleep for long, and it was dawn.

After getting up and washing, I reached out to the cemetery's salesman, and we made an appointment to meet at a restaurant for morning tea.

We didn't talk much, and after breakfast together, he took me to the cemetery.

This cemetery is very good, the scenery is very good, especially the highest place, standing there and looking down, there is an illusion of looking down at the mountains.

Liang Jing likes places with good scenery, and I think she should accept sleeping here!

The sale of the cemetery introduced me to various price points, naturally the top two floors were the most expensive, almost seven or eight hundred thousand, and several of them called villas in the tombstone were sold for one or two million.

I don't have any money, if I have money, I will definitely choose the best one for Liang Jing.

Anlan transferred 200,000 yuan to me, and finally negotiated with sales, and chose a place in a halfway up the mountain, a total of 170,000 yuan.

There was no crying during the burial, there was no solemnity, and I seemed to be the only one in the whole cemetery.

I'm not afraid, because the one I'm holding is my best, best friend.

I put her in the little box with my own hands, covered the slate with the beast, and erected a tombstone for her with my own hands.

I went to buy lilies and put them in front of her tombstone, which was her favorite during her lifetime.

The photo on the tombstone was my choice, it was a photo with a smile, although it was black and white, her smile was like a red flower.

After sorting these out, it was already afternoon, and I had not left the cemetery.

The thought that she was really no longer there made my heart hurt.

I don't want to leave so soon yet because I don't know when I come back next time.

I lit a cigarette and sat down next to the tombstone, so I felt like I was getting closer to her.

When the distance is shortened, you can speak from your heart.

My head rested on the tombstone, and my eyes saw a big tree, a blue sky and white clouds.

I closed my eyes and took a deep puff of my cigarette.

The breeze was blowing, and listening to the sound of birds in my ears, I finally said to Liang Jing: "Do you know, I really found that the scenery of your small county town is very good, and it is more beautiful than any place I have been...... For so many years, you have been telling me that the scenery of your hometown is good, but you have never had a chance to take me to see it, but now you are here......"

"Liang Jing, how on earth should I accept the fact that you have left this world? I'm really hard to accept, I just want to ask you, why do you want to go to Min Wenbin? Didn't I tell you? I told you not to go to her, why didn't you listen to me? ”

"I really don't think it's worth exchanging Min Wenbin's life for your life, he is already a wanted criminal, you really don't need to be stupid! You're such a fool......"

As I spoke, I laughed, laughing and laughing, and tears flowed out involuntarily.

I closed my eyes again and took another puff of my cigarette, and then some fragmentary images came to mind.

In those pictures, there are pictures of me talking and laughing with Liang Jing, and I found that she has never been troubled, she is always happy, and she will also transform her emotions into me.

Even when I'm at my saddest, she will find all kinds of ways to make me happy.

What I remember most vividly is that every time I drank too much, she always liked to pinch my arm, and when I looked at her coldly, she would look at me and smirk......

I can't forget that giggle.

Pouring out the cigarette in my mouth, I opened my mouth again and said to myself: "The most impressive thing is that when we graduated from college, we had a party, and you sang a song "Wild Child" in KTV...... Later you told me that this song was given to me, and you said it was also your favorite song...... You said that you are the wild child, knowing that you love such a boy, but you can only do this. ”

As I spoke, I couldn't hold back the sadness in my heart, and I took my phone out of my pocket.

and found this song called "Wild Child" in Netease Cloud, and after pressing the play button, I also hummed along:

"Even if you only talk about a relationship, except for a moment of vanity, it does not mean that you can go out of the fairyland freely after playing in the honeymoon suite; I am willing to gain your respect, bear the charge of being too proud, and squeeze into your arms, if my feelings are getting cold, I am not lonely and miserable; I know that I love this kind of boy, maybe I can only do this, but I will become the woman you care about the most; Twilight makes you wonder how to tame me, if you hold it with your own hand, or it doesn't have to be; Many people say that I don't know much about boys, and that not being ordered is the worst name, and laugh at me, a wild child who has no way to control me, and I don't even mind that I don't have happiness......"

I am sad how familiar the melody is, because the melody is the most indelible memory in the world.