After separating from An Lan, I went back to Zhou Mo's residence alone.

I felt like a prison that imprisoned my whole body and soul.

Standing downstairs, I didn't go upstairs immediately, because I hadn't figured out how to face Zhou Mo yet.

It's too difficult to choose, the child is innocent, if she is really killed, then it will be a life!

But if this child is born, it is also unfair to the child, because he will not have a father at birth, and he will not have an intact family.

When I think about these things, I feel very depressed, and then I light a cigarette in my boredom.

I really wanted to quit smoking, but when I was upset, I wanted to rely on nicotine to numb myself.

After smoking this cigarette, I finally went upstairs.

As soon as I got home, I heard movement in the kitchen.

It was Zhou Mo who was cooking, and she looked like nothing had happened.

When he saw me coming back, he smiled at me and said to me, "Come back, wash your hands with pleasure, and you will be able to eat soon." ”

Judging from her tone and expression, it seems that she is no longer angry.

But my heart was still heavy, as if it had been filled with lead.

When I went to the bathroom to wash my hands and came out, Zhou Mo had already brought the last dish to the table, and beckoned me to say, "It's time to eat." ”

After serving the meal, sitting at the table, I didn't say a word the whole time, I didn't even make eye contact with her.

Zhou Mo also put a piece of pork ribs in my bowl and said to me, "Try it, how about the ribs I burned?" ”

I lowered my head and ate quietly, I couldn't taste anything at all, I wasn't even hungry.

Because before that, I had eaten so many snack skewers with Anlan.

Zhou Mo kept staring at me and after eating the ribs, he asked me expectantly, "How does it taste?" ”

I was stunned for a moment, then nodded mechanically and said "delicious".

Zhou Mo immediately laughed when he heard this, and then put a piece in my bowl and said, "Eat more if it's delicious." ”

"Zhou Mo." I suddenly called out to her.

"Huh?"

"I want to talk to you about the child, I think it's ......"

Before I could finish speaking, she interrupted me and said, "Eat first, we'll talk later." ”

"It's not clear, I'm not in the mood to eat at all." I put down my chopsticks and looked at her with a serious expression.

Zhou Mo was still eating, and she really looked like nothing had happened.

It wasn't until I stared at her for a while that she finally put down her chopsticks and said to me, "Do you care that much?" ”

"Can you not care? What a big deal! ”

"Then do you want me to kill the baby or give birth?"

"I suggest knocking it out." After a pause, I said to her, "I know it's a life, but if this child is born, it will affect him for the rest of his life, and he will hate us for the rest of his life." ”

"Alright, I got it." She said calmly, picked up the chopsticks again and continued to eat.

I didn't quite understand what she meant, so I asked her again, "Then do you agree to kill her?" ”

"I'm not pregnant at all." She said calmly.

"W-What?" I looked at her with wide eyes.

"I'm not pregnant."

I gasped, my brain suddenly became a little confused, and after a moment of confusion, I said, "Then what happened to the pregnancy test stick you showed me earlier?" ”

"That's not a pregnancy test stick at all, it's an ovulation test strip, and the parallel bars represent that I am ovulating in the past two days."

I don't quite understand this.

But Zhou Mo's words surprised me enough, and I didn't even believe it, so I asked her, "Really, fake?" ”

"Really, including the day you got drunk, I didn't do anything with you."

"Then why are you lying to me by saying that? Do you know how nervous I am? It's like...... It's like making a huge mistake. ”

Zhou Mo smiled faintly and said, "I just want to see your reaction, and I already know your reaction, so it's okay." ”

"You're really not pregnant?!" Still in disbelief, I pressed her again.

"Really not, if you really don't believe it, we can go to the hospital for a check-up now, I'm not trying to hide from you that I gave birth to the child, there is nothing at all."

She said it very seriously, and her expression was very serious, not like she was lying to me.

She wouldn't lie to me about that, but she'd already lied to me once, so of course I'll have to ask.

I took a long breath and finally said to her: "I know you want to see if I want to say this, but Zhou Mo, you are sober, our marriage is just a scam." ”

"You think it's a scam, but for me, it's my first marriage in my life, and I want a real life, you know?"

"I know what you said, but please don't talk about children anymore, it's impossible."

"Don't worry, I won't say any more, we'll be divorced in two months."

I didn't speak anymore, I just wanted her to do what she said.

Even though she was pregnant, I wasn't in the mood to eat it anymore, and I wasn't hungry.

After eating the rice in the bowl, I left the table, told her that I would wash the dishes later, and then sat down on the balcony by myself.

I really don't understand, why did she say that to see my reaction?

Do you really want to have a child with me?

It's a terrible thought, you must know that I have only lived with her for a long time, and if it takes a long time, it will be worth it!

When I was losing my mind, Zhou Mo's voice came from behind me: "You ran out for more than two hours just now, did you go to find An Lan?" ”

I looked back at her and startled me as she was standing straight behind me with a mask on her face.

I let out a long sigh of relief before I said to her, "I hope we don't ask each other about each other." ”

"I can just ask you about it, and I can't stop you from going to whomever you want, but I only have one request, that is, you can't go to Anlan during the period of your marriage with me."

"Why?"

"I don't want to make it too clear with you, anyway, you can't go to her anymore...... When we get divorced, you'll be spending a lot of time with her, and I'll only have those two months. ”

She's trapping me and making me feel like a prison.

Now An Lan has come out of the detention center, but I have entered another prison.

This feeling makes me feel inexplicably irritable, I just don't like to be constrained, I like freedom, I don't like to be imprisoned.

But for now, I can only agree to her unreasonable demand, just because I owe her.

After Zhou Mo left behind me, I lit a cigarette again and smoked it.

I don't want to quit anymore because there's no way to quit it, and besides, I'm a dying person, and it's too late to quit smoking now.

What's more, I have stomach cancer, not lung cancer.