Early the next morning, I went to the airport with Zhou Mo.

There was no send-off, because we didn't tell anyone.

It's just that in the airport terminal, I received a WeChat message from An Lan, and she said to me: "There is no hurdle in this world that cannot be passed, you must relax your heart, I believe you can survive this hurdle, and I will take Xiaoman to Beijing to see you." ”

It was a very simple sentence, but it gave me a lot of confidence that I could get through it.

After a three-hour flight, I was in Beijing again.

This time is different from the last time, I remember the last time I came here was a week ago, I was relatively calm, because at that time I was not diagnosed with stomach cancer, but only came to treat amnesia.

This time, I was nervous and uneasy, but because the purpose was so clear, I didn't think too much about it.

Zhou Mo had already helped me contact the hospital, and we didn't delay, and went directly to the hospital after leaving the airport.

It seems that there are a lot of people at Union Hospital at any time, and I remember that the last time I came here, it was also crowded, and this time it was the same.

Fortunately, we had an appointment in advance, and with a little connection, we went directly to the hospital to treat stomach diseases with a very prestigious doctor.

According to the preliminary diagnosis, I no longer have the conditions for conservative treatment, and I must have surgery to have the possibility of recovery.

For me, it was like a fateful gamble, and I was definitely nervous, but I also wanted to be able to get through the surgery once and for all.

And I've figured out that no matter what the end result is, this is the hardest part of my life, and I'm going to have to get through it.

So, I signed the letter of responsibility for the operation very firmly.

The surgery was scheduled five days later, and that was the fastest the doctor could get.

Not long after I was admitted to the hospital, I received another WeChat message from Anlan, and she asked me, "Have you arrived in Beijing?" ”

"I've arrived, and I've now gone through the admission procedures." I replied.

"Well, that's good, cooperate with the treatment, don't think about anything at this time, listen to the doctor."

"How I feel like a child."

"Did you just find out now?"

I replied with an emoji and said, "Don't you know? A man is a teenager until he dies. ”

"I hope you've been so optimistic."

"I'm definitely so optimistic because I have a lot of faith that I'll get through this."

"Well, come on! Waiting for me to bring Xiaoman to Beijing to see you. ”

I suddenly remembered something, and then said to her: "By the way, don't tell anyone in the company about me, including Gao Sheng." ”

"I know, but they will always know if they can't hide it after a long time."

"Anyway, don't tell them now, I don't want to make it too sad, and even if I want them to know, I'll have to wait until after my surgery."

"Well, when are you going to have surgery?"

"The doctor said five days later, but the exact date was not determined."

"Okay, then I'll tell you when the operation is confirmed."

"Okay, then you can work first, I'll have to do some tests later."

"Well, you have to eat on time, try not to lie in the hospital bed all the time, and have time to go out and do more activities."

"I know, you also have to eat on time, I told Yang Man, if you keep working and forget to eat, she will report to me."

"Send an undercover agent to my side, right?"

"Even if it's okay, who called you a workaholic, everyone knows that you don't eat on time most of the time."

"Okay, this time I must, you have to be obedient, good!"

Looking at the last sentence sent by An Lan, I smiled unconsciously, and it made me forget the feeling of nervousness for a while.

I lay comfortably in my hospital bed, and the Omega Constellation watch that Anlan gave me yesterday was sitting on the bedside table next to me.

I'm a little too preoccupied, and I've been fantasizing about what I'll be like when I'm cured.

Thinking, thinking, I fell into great loneliness again.

It's not as good as Chengdu, where at least a group of friends came back to visit me.

But here, Zhou Mo is the only person I know, and if she is not there, I don't have anyone to talk to all day.

Fortunately, she has barely left since I was admitted to the hospital.

But even so, I hated the feeling of being in a hospital, and even though my room was more upscale and like a hotel, it still made me feel uncomfortable.

This feeling reminds me of the days when An Lan was locked up in the detention center, and I wondered, will it be the same feeling as I am now?

Perhaps, it is more difficult for her than me, at least I can move freely now, I can go downstairs in the hospital, at least eat well, live well.

I've never been in jail, so I don't know what it's like to be in jail, but I've never wanted to feel it in my life.

After thinking a lot, Zhou Mo suddenly peeled an apple and handed it to me, saying, "What are you thinking?" Isn't it boring? ”

"It's a little." I took the apple and said to her, "I can do it myself now, so don't help me cut it." ”

"I'd love to," she said, making another look that I couldn't help her.

I smiled and turned to her and asked, "Zhou Mo, have you ever thought about how you will tell your mother and uncle after our divorce?" ”

"It's not suitable, it's not difficult."

As she spoke, she asked me again, "Why do you suddenly ask that?" ”

"I just suddenly remembered, you said that you are such an excellent person, a senior intellectual who graduated from Tsinghua University, and such a good family...... But you are married to a person like me, and you are going to divorce in less than two months, will it have a bad impact on you? ”

"It's my business, why do you care about this?"

"It's just that I don't feel worth it for you."

"I know in my heart whether it's worth it or not, just have a clear conscience."

After she finished speaking, without waiting for me to reply, she said to me again: "Okay, don't say these mediocre things to disturb yourself, what are you doing so much, you should relax now and accept the treatment." ”

"Okay, I don't want to do so much, I'm suddenly a little sleepy." I yawned.

"Maybe it's because of the potion, you can sleep for a while."

After thinking about it for a while, I fell asleep, and I dreamed again, and it was still related to what I was experiencing......

I dreamed that my illness was not cured, and the surgery was successful, but the follow-up chemotherapy was very bad.

As a result, my life fell into an endless abyss, and my life began to count down......

At first, I was miserable, but gradually I accepted the result.

But in my dream, An Lan left me, Zhou Mo no longer existed, I was just a person.

Even in the dream my wife is a person with a physical defect, we have no children, no feelings.

But we never quarreled, and even when my life had entered the countdown, she was always with me......

I was relieved in my dream, but when I woke up, I couldn't do it.

I'm starting to be sensitive again, I hate the smell of potions in the hospital, I hate the bottles and cans with potions, and the patients who talk loudly in the hallway, I don't want to be here for a second.

But in this strange place, the only place where I can move is destined to be the hospital.

I even regretted coming to Beijing for treatment, if I chose to be in Chengdu, at least I could find someone to talk to, even if it was a patient......

It wasn't until I received a call from Anlan that I came out of this garbage mood.