Chapter 9, Chen Kexin's illness
In this quiet cabin, Chen Kexin's soft voice was so clear.
The sleepiness in Berlin vanished in an instant...
"How... Why do you suddenly say such a thing? "Berlin was a little flustered for a moment. He was in a trance, and Chen Kexin had the illusion of entanglement and hesitation after seeing Le Yao.
"I've thought about it, Berlin. Recently, I found that my body began to show some symptoms, and I don't know how long this disease can last, I am afraid that I will be gone one day..."Chen Kexin's words slowly stopped.
“...”
At 12 o'clock in the night, the world was silent. Even the ticking of the clock hanging in the corner echoed harshly through the room.
Suddenly, a faint cool breeze came into the hut through the window, and it swept away some of the boredom in the room, and made the silent Berlin more awake and far from sleep.
Berlin realized that perhaps it was the unconcealed annoyance and entanglement on his face when he came back at night that made Chen Kexin speculate in the wrong direction.
To be honest, Berlin didn't know how to solve everything in front of him, and he was really confused. Obviously, he will not give up this family, but he can't accept Le Yao to beat the child...
Coupled with Chen Kexin's illness and the anxiety that always worries him, everything in the future is so difficult for him to adapt.
And what belongs to him allows him to relax a little, as if there is only this simple home, only his wife and daughter... He didn't want to lose it all, but he didn't know what to do.
It costs money to check, it costs money to treat a disease... The family doesn't have much money.
Therefore, at this moment, Berlin does not know how to reply to Chen Kexin's words.
Comfort?
How could he comfort him?
Could it be that you weave some false promises to deceive Chen Kexin?
Berlin can't do it.
"Le Yao's matter, I will try to deal with it, I promise you... If we're sick, we'll find a way to find a job tomorrow, well, tomorrow. We slowly save some money and go to the cure... Everything will be fine. ”
Berlin is not good at expressing himself, and in the end, he gave all his inner thoughts in this way.
It's just that Berlin didn't wait for Chen Kexin's response.
It was as if she was asleep.
It wasn't until a while that Berlin, who was about to look back, suddenly felt a warmth coming from behind him. Then a pair of hands hugged him, and a trace of softness snuggled behind his back. He, who had never been too intimate with his mother's wife, was panicked by this sudden move.
He subconsciously wanted to struggle, but strangely, these delicate hands made him feel very warm, so warm that he calmed down along with his thoughts.
Berlin did not break free from the normal embrace between the couple...
It's just that in this dark night where you can't see your fingers, no one can see half of his red face, and hear his pounding heart.
On this day, all this finally came to a temporary end.
Berlin feels so tired, so tired...
He also knows that tomorrow may be even more tiring...
....
That night, Berlin had a dream.
He dreamed that he was back in school, and it was just a dream after ten years.
The Chinese teacher was chattering about the class, the snow-white chalk was tapping on the blackboard, the students in the next class were reciting enthusiastically, the students in the physical education class downstairs were making loud noises, he was enjoying the cool breeze of the creaking iron fan on the ceiling, everything was so as always...
He went back as he wished.
But Berlin's heart was empty...
For some reason, in the dream, he cared about Chen Kexin's illness and thought about his daughter Nini, and finally tears kept falling....
It was the faint sound of frying that woke Berlin up.
Berlin opened his eyes, and the hut was still gray, and a few rays of morning sun shone into the window, adding some light to the hut. A crisp morning breath blows in through the half-pushed door, a few wisps of wind blow open the calendar pages hanging on the wall, and when the wind stops, the page with the date of July 16, 2006 is clearly printed in Berlin's eyes...
"Dad, are you awake?"
A childish voice came from the left, Berlin turned his head sideways, and his daughter Nini grabbed chopsticks and drank porridge. There was a plate of pickles on the table, and Chen Kexin was stir-frying eggs.
"Berlin, you wash up and eat, I just fried the food." Hearing her daughter's voice, Chen Kexin put out the fire and turned her head to say softly.
Berlin came to its senses.
This is ten years later.
That's the reality he's experiencing now...
It's all so real.
But in a trance, he still stopped in the habit of getting up and going to school again... In seventeen years of life, everything became subconscious.
After washing up and sitting on a stool, Berlin began to eat breakfast. Breakfast was as simple as yesterday's lunch, and the family was still so quiet.
Memories of his mother preparing breakfast and waiting for him to finish school still linger in Berlin's mind, but the rest of the routine will no longer be the usual routine. Now it is his home, strange and familiar. His daughter, who is still a little rusty and timid, doesn't know when he got up and made breakfast, and his wife with a somewhat haggard face.
He's going to get a job today...
"Berlin, now we have a supermarket that is still hiring. If you can't find a suitable job, check it out... Although the salary is lower, the work is not tiring. ”
At the end of breakfast, Chen Kexin, who was going to work in the supermarket, left such a sentence.