Chapter 112: Ambiguity
The heat echoed in the cabin.
Outside, the sun was fierce, and the cicadas were screaming desperately.
Time seems to freeze in a moment.
Berlin's vision blurred inexplicably. He could vaguely see that Chen Kexin's demeanor was beginning to change. Stunned, incredulous, confused, dazed, and finally overwhelmed...
Her complicated expression was clear in the frozen time.
He wanted to hear Chen Kexin's reply, he knew that he was too direct and proactive, and she would definitely panic, after all, the future was his wife's memory, and Chen Kexin didn't have it. But Berlin wants to change everything in the future, he is ready to explain and persuade Chen Kexin well, he wants to see how Chen Kexin will reply to him.
Decisive refusal, or something else ...
But Berlin didn't wait.
The sudden blur made him disappear along with his hearing. He only saw Chen Kexin open his mouth to speak, but he couldn't hear anything... What did she say?
When Berlin recovered from this blur, a bitter chill swept over him, a very different kind of icy cold from the hot and dry summers of the past ten years...
In front of him, Fang Yuan was drinking chicken soup, and Lin Manman's complicated gaze was on him...
It's back...
Back to the future.
There was a trace of bitterness in Berlin's heart, and when he met Lin Manman's eyes, Berlin did not feel any stranger.
However, his mind was not on Lin Manman, he was thinking about how Chen Kexin would answer him. He didn't understand why he was allowed to return to the future at such a critical time. In any case, let him finish Chen Kexin's affairs, isn't it? Could it be that a few days have passed since the back tense?
Berlin was a little bored, but there was nothing to be done.
"Why did you start staying in Berlin?" Fang Yuan gnawed on the chicken bones and asked with a smile.
"No... Something from the past was remembered. Berlin replied.
Lin Manman's body trembled slightly, and his eyes lowered as he looked at Berlin...
"You've been weirdly nostalgic lately." Fang Yuan said lightly, he didn't look like he was impressed, he just felt a little strange.
"People can't help but think of the past, there is an idiom that is not also very good, touching the scene and feelings..."
“....”
End of conversation.
After eating the duck soup, Fang Yuan and Lin Manman left.
In the face of Fang Yuan, Lin Manman still had the tone and attitude of reprimand, and what was placed in front of Berlin was a different image from when he was young. Without Chen Kexin's past, Berlin may not understand why her personality is so different, but now he knows very well that people change, nothing more than the growth of life in the face of successive setbacks.
That's not a bad thing.
At the very least, no one will make the same mistake twice.
After the caretaker of the Internet café took over in the evening, Berlin did not go to Le Yao, he went home directly.
Since he had just moved, he hadn't adapted for a while, and walked to his original room. When he saw the constricted door of the house, he remembered the matter of moving, and hurried back to the house.
People are like this, everything needs to be adapted slowly. Whether it's in life or emotionally...
Back at home, the dim incandescent lamps of the house have been transformed into eye-catching fluorescent lamps, and although the cottage has become brighter, Berlin finds that it has lost its former warmth. It wasn't until I walked into the bedroom and saw Nini who was doing my homework and Chen Kexin who was sweeping the floor that the warmth came up again.... It turns out that it's not a matter of moving, it's a problem of people.
Seeing Chen Kexin, Berlin's gaze froze.
It's the same person, and I've just seen it in the past, but Berlin has a strange strangeness. It seems that this is another Chen Kexin...
It's a different feeling, isn't it?
Berlin was quick to give itself the answer.
The past can never come back, and it is precisely because of this that the young and young Chen Kexin makes him so nostalgic. But from now on, even if he goes back to the past, he may never see the girl with a shy smile again.
"What's wrong, Berlin?"
Seeing that Berlin kept looking at herself when he got home, Chen Kexin was puzzled for a while, and couldn't help but smile, "Is there something on my face?" ”
"Nope..."
"Are you hungry? I'll go stir-fry for you, the rice is almost cooked. Chen Kexin asked.
"Hmm... Good. ”
Chen Kexin put down the broom in her hand and walked from the bedroom to the kitchen.
Berlin followed her.
"What's wrong? How weird..."
Seeing Berlin follow into the kitchen, Chen Kexin had a trace of doubt, brushed the hair in front of his forehead, and looked at Berlin with those good-looking eyes, "If you have something, you can say it, it's okay..."
"Show me a smile."
"Huh?"
Berlin's request made Chen Kexin stunned.
She couldn't help but laugh.
It wasn't that she meant to laugh, it was Berlin's strange words that amused her.
There is no shyness in the smile, a simple happy smile.
Berlin stretched out her hand and suddenly hugged Chen Kexin into her arms, the sudden move made Chen Kexin startled, she didn't resist, after losing her mind for a long time, she frowned slightly, and said worriedly, "Berlin, is something wrong?" If there's anything you can discuss with me, it's okay..."
"It's nothing, I just want to hug you suddenly..."
“... Is it..."
Chen Kexin couldn't understand the suddenness of Berlin.
But from Berlin's tone, she really didn't feel that something was wrong. After thinking about it, she finally blamed Berlin on a whim. Smile gently, let Berlin hug like this.... It's a feeling that is strange to her, and it's familiar. Chen Kexin forgot how long ago Berlin had hugged her so hard...
It's so far away.
She couldn't even remember.
Berlin is a little strange, but Chen Kexin doesn't hate this strangeness. From Berlin, she could feel something about her, but she couldn't understand what it was...
"Okay, right? I've got to stir-fry for you? More than a minute passed, and Chen Kexin was also a little embarrassed, and urged in a low voice.
Berlin loosened.
He laughed, "If only you laughed as often as you used to." ”
“.....”
Chen Kexin naturally couldn't respond.
She has been smiling for many years, how can she simply change the habit?
Besides, people can't go back to the way they were.
"You cook." Berlin knew that his behavior was strange, Chen Kexin must have some strange thoughts, and he couldn't let the emotions he brought back from the past interfere with Chen Kexin.
But what Berlin can know is that Chen Kexin did let go of a lot of past things.
Just like this room, she obviously has a lot of sad memories, but now she has chosen to come back. Berlin, who didn't know the past, didn't have any ideas, only thought that Chen Kexin was nostalgic. And now Berlin knows that she has let go of the sadness of the past and wants to return here to find some good things in the past.
But things have long been different.
How much can you remember?
Soon, dinner came, and the family had dinner. Today's Chen Kexin seems to be celebrating the move, her dinner is very rich, although the taste is as bad as usual, but at least it is delicious.
"Kexin. Let's eat noodles tomorrow. Berlin laughed.
"Noodles?"
Chen Kexin was stunned. The expression was a little strange, but he didn't refuse Berlin: "Okay." ”
After speaking, Chen Kexin thought about it, but continued to speak, "It's been cold recently, do you feel it?" ”
"Hmm... It's a lot colder. ”
"Let's see which day you're free these days, let's go out and buy some clothes as a family, right? Buy some winter clothes to wear. Also, by the way, I bought two for my aunt. She is old and her legs are inconvenient, and she usually saves money, so she takes it as a New Year's gift.... What do you think? Chen Kexin asked.
Berlin thought for a moment: "Then tomorrow." Your aunt's decision is yours, I'm sure I'll have no opinion. ”
Berlin remembers very well what Chen Kexin said ten years ago.
To repay her relatives' money, her aunt helped her deal with her mother's afterlife.
Chen Kexin didn't go into great detail, but from the tone, Berlin seemed to hear that her relatives wanted to find her family to get the money back, but Chen Kexin's mother died, and she couldn't count on her as a child... Probably this kind of discussion was heard by Chen Kexin? The only thing with more gratitude was when Chen Kexin mentioned her aunt...
He didn't know the old man yet, but Berlin knew that if he could go back in time, he would be able to reach her over time...
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