Chapter 203: Mental Journey
Jiang Li and the others slowly faded a little bit of the powerful fear in their bodies, and then dialed An Jingluo's phone again with a hint of luck, who knew that this time it was directly from being unable to connect to turning off the phone, and for a while, the panic in his throat and eyes was about to pop out of the tip of his tongue.
At this moment, his head was flooded with countless things about the novice mother he had seen in the news before suffering from depression and finally hurting himself, and he never thought that this kind of thing would happen to An Whale Fall.
At this moment, he actually went through the situation between the two of them during this period of time, as well as An Jingluo's emotional changes, language changes, and the abnormalities she usually behaved.
For a moment, he felt that An Whale could not be as said in the news, but the next second he was not so sure, because he really didn't seem to pay attention to her emotions during this time.
Every day, as soon as I open my eyes, I can't finish my work, and I don't come back until midnight or even early in the morning, tired and close my eyes and my mind is messy, I want to hear her voice, and I want to see her thoughts quickly stop when I look at the phone.
He was out of breath from work, and An Whale was emaciated by the baby in swaddling clothes, he knew all this, but the bad mood brought about by his own exhaustion was inadvertently spilled out to the person he cared about the most, and then it was out of control regret and stubbornness.
So after An Whale fell from complaining at the beginning to not saying a word later, his whole person became more irritable, and his ears suddenly became clear.
There is also a trace of grievances that are not humane to outsiders, like the kind of puppy that has been cared for before but was suddenly left out in the cold, and the huge gap from heaven to hell makes him difficult to accept for a while.
He felt that he was either driven crazy by work, and his brain was a little unconscious, or he was poisoned by An Whale, and it was the kind of poison that penetrated deep into the bone marrow, and no medicine could solve it.
Originally, he wanted to wait for An Jingluo to take the initiative to come to him with a backbone that was not so insistent and little confidence, but he couldn't help it, but he waited for her call, and then it caused a quarrel, and then there was no news now.
He felt that these were all his own faults, he was a second goods, and what he endured was at most problems at work, but An Jingluo endured much more than him, all kinds of trivial things in the family, Jiang Huaizuo's various needs, and her own emotional regulation, plus her own inconsiderateness.
Thinking about it, he couldn't wait to beat himself, Jiang Huaizuo was not just An Whale's child, that soft and small baby was their common child, the crystallization of their love, he actually pushed all the things about the child to her in a jerk.
If you don't help take care of her, when she wants to seek comfort and recognition, not only does she not help her, but also argues with her, stimulates her emotions, and destroys her mood even more, such a self is really irresponsible and unforgivable.
Things have come to this point, he has already thought clearly, he will definitely correct it and treat An Whale Fall well, no matter what happens, he has no idea of wanting to separate or leave An Whale Fall, he clearly knows that he has to be her in this life.
For the man next to An Whale, although he knows her feelings and intentions for him, he will be jealous and angry, and now that he thinks about it, isn't that also a kind of distrust of her, questioning her love for herself.
Ann Whale Fall gains a presence in front of him by complaining because he lacks sufficient security, and he emphasizes his place in her heart by deliberately arguing in front of her because he is not confident enough in front of Ann Whale Fall.
At that time, they undoubtedly loved each other, that love was pure, clean and young, but fragile, not as fragile as a vulnerability, but it could not withstand many small things to hurt.
It seems that two people who are in love and in love are hurt by each other's love, and in addition to the sweet filter of being inseparable every day, distance brings not only beauty, but also more insecurity and unconfidence to bring crankiness or suspicion.
At that time, at the critical moment, after thinking about everything with extremely clear brain logic, he quickly dialed the phone at home, and An's mother was also at home to help take care of An Jingluo and Jiang Huaizuo, and the news he wanted to hear most was that she was safe and healthy.
But as if the whole world was working against him, there was still no one answering the phone at home, he looked at the phone screen that was automatically hung up for the second time irritably, thinking that if no one answered the last time, then he immediately asked for leave and flew back.
The voice before the phone was connected made him feel infinite anxiety, the process of standing in the dock waiting for the verdict to be handed down was so long that it almost stopped his heartbeat, forget it!
When he gestured to the fourth brother to book a ticket to go back recently, the phone rang, and at that moment the tip of his nose was sour, and a little water welled up in his eyes, which was great.
An's mother said that she took Jiang Huaizuo out for a walk, and An Whale went shopping with Fei Feitiantian, maybe she didn't receive his call when the phone was out of battery, she was fine, but the whole person has been depressed recently.
At the end of the phone, An's mother said to Jiang Li that if he had time, she hoped to take the time to come back to see An Whale Fall, she was a little worried about An Whale Fall, and she felt distressed by forcing a smile and pretending to be strong, but this was a matter for their little couple, and as a parent, she could only persuade her to make peace, and they were really good if they were doing well.
Jiang Li agreed without the slightest hesitation about An's mother's words, and his plan was to put his scenes together to shoot a film, and then ask the director for a few days off to go back to accompany An Jingluo, communicate openly and honestly to solve the problem, he is fed up with the days of falling in love and killing each other with her.
And depending on the situation, the situation of An Whale is really not very good, otherwise An's mother would not have deliberately told him these things in private. Because the parents of both sides are now fully recognized and satisfied with their relationship, they usually do not interfere with their way of getting along at all, and once they open their mouths, it means that there is really a problem.
If he hadn't been so nervous and listened carefully at the time, it would not be difficult to find that An's mother was a little hesitant when she was talking about An's whereabouts, as if she was hiding something.
Later, he found out what An's mother was hiding, it was An Jingluo who secretly came to the city where the set was located to look for him and wanted to surprise him, but the surprise turned into a fright, which made the relationship between the two even more tense.
He swore that he was really just playing against the heroine of the play in the hotel at that time, and the assistants on both sides were there, and he was still noisy and went back to his room to make up for sleep, his room was booked in a suite, and the assistants were playing in the living room outside, and he didn't participate.
During this period, he received a call from An Whale, he thought she was joking, but he didn't expect that the footsteps that stopped because of doubts not only missed the opportunity to see her, but also broke her heart.
Although he went home non-stop to coax her after that, although An Jingluo's whole person became a lot brighter after seeing him, but behind the inadvertent back, he could still detect her tangled expression and smile that did not reach the bottom of his eyes, looking at the indescribable bitterness around him.
The turning point of things came after he finished filming the drama at that time, which was a drama that he was a producer and also entered the final filming and production, but the investor suddenly decided not to inject funds again, it was his first drama and a topic that he wanted to express, he had already filmed more than half of it, he couldn't let it go if he didn't shoot it, and he couldn't bear to shoot it badly.
During that time, he felt heartbroken, he had never been so worried about money, he integrated his assets, and planned to spend his own money first, and this decision was also supported by An Whale.
During that time, An Whale was extremely gentle with him, and the relationship between the two returned to the period of love with honey and sugar, but it would be better if they didn't worry about money.
An Jingluo always comforted him and told him that although he was relieved that it was okay to shoot, she would also help find a way to deal with money, which made his mood not very bad.
The money is spent day by day, and his own funds barely make the filming completed, but the post-production still requires a lot of money investment, and if you want excellent special effects and worry-free and pleasing vision, you can only spend a lot of money to produce, and he has no money.
He thought about making an advance with the company in advance, and he didn't want this money in vain, the contract expired in less than a year, he didn't want to renew the contract and wanted to open his own studio to do it alone, but now he is willing to renew the contract again, as long as the company promises to pay him a signing fee first.
But the boss who is like a human spirit blurs his requirements with Tai Chi, and he doesn't know whether to give it or not, but only says that everything will be said after the contract is renewed.
In fact, he has communicated with other investors in private, and that investor has invested in several dramas, and each time he is asked to be the protagonist or the second male who has a lot of roles but is more likable.
The investor appreciated that he was willing to open a studio for him, to put it bluntly, it was to invest in him as a person, and the only requirement was to make more money from him, and in the eyes of the investor, perhaps he was a commodity, a commodity with a clear price, and at best a promising commodity that could make more money.
And he agreed to the investor's request, he is capable, talented, willing to endure hardships and has high requirements for himself, what he lacks is just an opportunity, since there is an opportunity to no longer be controlled by others, he must seize the opportunity to fight hard.
After the result happened, he wanted to contact the investor again, but he didn't know that the other party had changed as if he had changed his life, overturned all the promises he had sworn before, and pulled out some other bad excuses that the investment failed and was not so expensive.