I just had a video with my aunt, asked me about my situation, and also talked about my cousin's situation, and then urged marriage as usual (covering my face), what about me, poor and white, not to mention deposits, but also owe tens of thousands, the current assets are half a house and a small broken car, the house is still a partition house, no money to buy a house, no object, but there is a favorite, but Lang has a love and the concubine has no intention, think about it, or the strength is not enough and the conditions are too poor.

In terms of housing, the family can't support it, because my parents divorced when I was one year old (in fact, it was just an impulse back then, and I didn't have a certificate when I was born, and then I still found a way to ask someone to get it when I was a child), and they formed a family, so I grew up with my grandparents, and there was never any so-called maternal love and father's love, sometimes I really envy those peers who are accompanied by my parents, but these things have never been told to anyone, and they don't know, alone, used to it.

If one day, when she is old, she comes to me (in fact, she may not come to me for the rest of her life, so I often feel lucky, so even if we meet now, it is only when she is a strange relative, of course, she does not recognize me as a son, in fact, the biggest disappointment in the world, there is nothing more than the death of the heart), I am not very filial, you can scold me, you can despise me, you can scold me, but you must not say that I am ungrateful, because you have not been said' There is a wild seed raised by a father who is not taught by a mother', and has not been ignored and pretended not to know since childhood, let alone the experience of calling an elder for twenty-five years without getting a response, nor has he been warned face-to-face: You are not allowed to call that person, if her lover asks, she can only say that it is just your relative.

I remember that year, I was nine years old. It's been seventeen years, and I still remember this incident, as for the strange things that followed, there are many, many more, so I won't list them one by one, I can only say that if you haven't experienced the pain of others, don't persuade others to be generous.

This kind of blow, no one explains, no one comforts, and no one cares, so no one cares about this except myself, hahaha, isn't it miserable?

Some people may say that this is bullshit, some si, father, mother, and family are much worse than you, yes, but they have at least had it.

Fortunately, my grandparents treated me well, so my three views are quite normal, not so cynical, and not so hateful, but my heart has long been cold. Became selfish, became cold-blooded. My dad is away all the year round, and he doesn't come back for the New Year, just calling, I used to persuade him to go home often, but now I don't ask, I can't go back to my hometown to care about my, I don't care if it's dead or alive, really, you may scold me for not being filial, scold me for being ruthless, or scold me for being ungrateful. But in fact, what kind of relative is a relative who is rarely with him? Do I need those phone calls from you? Do I need you to fake a hush on the phone? Don't worry, I will definitely pay for the pension, and I won't starve you to death, otherwise I will be scolded for my backbone. But actually, there is really no emotion.

And I know that as soon as my grandparents leave, this family will basically be scattered, and I won't go back.

I'm not a purely good person, but I'm not a bad person either, just a little cold and selfish.

Human nature is selfish, there may be well-wishers in this world, there are also good people, and there are good parents who are selfless, but I'm sorry, I'm more unfortunate that I haven't met such people.

Is there only a mother in the world? Scold.

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To get back to the point, the protagonist Xiahou Chun is not a good person, he has the righteousness of his family and country in his heart, but he was born in the royal family, so he is ruthless and selfish, his father (Emperor Jing) is not a son, nor is he a good father, he is also just a little selfish; It's the same with mothers, abandoning their families and children to pursue her goals, do you think she is great or selfish and ruthless? Her identity is a mystery, which will be revealed later.

And the male protagonist, what happens in the end does not depend on him, but on the world.

This book, there may be a break in the middle, and it will be poorly written, but I will definitely give it an ending.

Because, I want to see them end.

In hell, my heart is in heaven.