She felt her body suddenly become lilt, and gradually soared into the air. She looked at the lifeless body below, her eyes widened unwillingly, as if she was looking at herself, and next to her lay on her body and wept sadly, it was the faithful maid Chunju.

Is this considered dead?

She slowly remembered her name, Zhuang Meiyan, the third daughter of the Zhuang family. The daughters in the family are all named with the word "beauty", the eldest sister Zhuang Meiyu, the second sister Zhuang Meiyi, the fourth sister Zhuang Meiling, and the fifth sister Zhuang Meiting, but she uses "charm", just because she was born ugly and disliked by her father, and even her name is only worthy of the ghost charm.

It is said that when she was born, she almost scared the midwife to death, and even said that the main mother gave birth to a little monster. Father looked for Xiangshi to calculate, said that her life is not good, Ke Father and Mother, father and mother, father originally planned to send her to relatives in the countryside to raise, but her mother insisted that she stay in the house, at that time, the mother was not crazy, and she was still the wife of the Zhuang family.

Yiqiē was unfortunately said by Xiangshi, her life was really bad, she found three nurses, and she actually got sick one after another, or there was an accident at home, so that no one dared to take care of her, and her mother had to raise her herself...... However, my mother was also crazy.

Is it really my own life?

Zhuang Meiyan felt that she was flying higher and higher, she had left the living room, came to the top of the house, overlooked the living beings, and saw a middle-aged woman staggering not far away, her hair was scattered, her clothes were disheveled, her face was at a loss, and she couldn't stop muttering something, that was her mother!

When the mother accidentally bumped into an oncoming woman dressed as a servant, the woman pushed her impatiently, and the mother fell to the ground. The servant-woman man spat contemptuously:

"Maniac!"

Zhuang Meiyan's heart throbbed, she only felt that she was about to cry, but she couldn't cry, she wanted to scold loudly, but she couldn't shout, she heard it clearly, she heard her mother in her mouth:

"Yan'er, Yan'er, where are you? Come back quickly!

The mother's madness was getting worse and worse, to the point that she didn't recognize people, but she still remembered her—in the memory of the poor madman, she always felt that her Yan'er was a very small baby, and she still needed her protection.

However, it has nothing to do with her anymore, she's dead, isn't she?

Farther away, in the outer corner of the house, outside the door of the family school, kneeling a boy of eleven or twelve, with a stone slab on his head, and a pair of big black eyes, looked pitifully at the school, where the other students were listening to the master teach a new subject. He is his own biological younger brother Zhuang Rongxi, he was born to a crazy mother, and there are a lot of rumors that his brother who is four years younger than him can sit in the school and study, and he didn't enter the school until this spring. In the school, he was often bullied, and if he quarreled with someone, his husband would always punish him.

It has nothing to do with her in the future, she's dead!

A little farther away, there is a garden of strange rocks and planted with various colors of grass and trees, in which the maids and nurses wearing red and green are clustered with the pearls of the banker's palms, and her sisters and sisters are playing in the yard and enjoying the best time of their lives.

Why is life so unfair? Why did God give her such an ugly appearance? She felt inexplicably sad and indignant in her heart, if God could also give her a new skin, she would definitely not fall into such a field.

She felt that her body was getting lighter and lighter, rising higher and higher, and gradually she could see the entire town, and even the temple halfway up the Qilian Mountain, Ci Nian Nunnery. She went to the temple every month rain or shine to burn incense and pray, although the money was tight, but she never cut off her incense money, she had no other way but to pray for the protection of the gods.

But, God, what is it for her? is a truer and more tragic truth.

Her eyes swept over the stone steps in front of the Ci Nian Nunnery, and saw a vague figure of ricket, that figure should be the crazy old man, a few days ago, I don't know where to come, I stayed in front of the Ci Nian Nunnery every day, often talking nonsense in my mouth, and laughing wildly at every turn.

Yesterday, she saw that Lao Dao was pitiful, so she put the only little broken silver left in her hand beside him, Lao Dao looked at her with a pair of cloudy and yellow eyes, smirking, and did not know gratitude at all.

"Girl, what are you going to worship?"

"Enter the temple to worship the Buddha, burn incense and make wishes. ”

"Hehehe, girl, it's just a puppet mud fetus, you cry, he can't see it, you call him, he can't hear it, you suffer and suffer grievances, he ignores it, never wants you, you worship him, what's the use?"

The conversation in front of the temple yesterday suddenly sounded in her ears again, the voice became louder and louder, deafening, and Zhuang Meiyan had a sense of epiphany.

“...... Girl, you have a seven-pronged heart, and a pair of hearts can do things...... It's better to ask for others than for yourself!hahaha!"

Should she suffer and suffer if she is ugly, and suffer from the eyes of the world, and not even be able to catch a fair chance? Should her sisters and sisters be blessed with their beauty, and even bully her?

Why?

It is better to ask for others than for yourself!

Zhuang Meiyan closed her eyes, as if she heard the sounds of heaven, she only felt clear in her heart, and it took a long time before she suddenly opened her eyes.

The fluttering sensation disappeared suddenly, and she felt the heaviness of her body and the weakness of her prostration, and it took a lot of effort to open her eyelids and look around with difficulty.

"Miss, Miss, Miss, Miss, you finally woke up and scared Chunju to death. ”

Chunju pulled her arm excitedly, crying and laughing.

Zhuang Meiyan settled down, knowing that she had been closed by the ghost gate, although she did not die, but she already knew that death could not change anything, including fate, and if she wanted to change her fate, she could only live.

"Miss, what's wrong with you......?

"What about my mother?" Zhuang Meiyan did not answer Chunju's question, but eagerly grabbed her sleeve and asked rhetorically.

Chunju patted the back of her hand and comforted: "Miss, madam, she is fine, and when the slave and maid go back, Madame will have returned to normal." Alas, Madame's illness should really find a good doctor to take a look, since returning to the old house, the medicine prescribed by Lang Zhong in the countryside did not work at all, and Madame's epilepsy attack became terrible. Miss, we'll have to figure out a way. ”

Chunju said worriedly.

Zhuang Meiyan knew that she was a kind-hearted maid, and she had never abandoned her mother and son all these years, if it weren't for her, life would be even more difficult. She knows all these concerns, but to find a good doctor, she needs silver.

Chunju suddenly smiled and said, "It's okay now, miss, the slave maid just heard Hong'er in Aunt Liu's room in the garden say that the little marquis from the Changxin Marquis Mansion came over today, and now he is in the master's study." The slave said, Mrs. Tai can't forget us, can't forget Mrs. and Miss. ”

Zhuang Meiyan's mother was originally the daughter of General Qi, the only pearl in her hand, General Qi was prominent for a while, and later died early due to a recurrence of injury. Zhuang Meiyan vaguely remembered the appearance of this mighty grandfather, in her impression, when her grandfather was alive, her father was kind to her mother, at least not as ignorant as now.

Grandfather General Qi and Changxinhou are righteous brothers, the two families are friendly, I heard that grandfather had saved Changxinhou's life, Mrs. Tai treated her mother like a daughter, so, when the mother was pregnant with her, the two families exchanged tokens and set an in-law. Later, the Marquis of Changxin was transferred to the border pass, and the two families naturally had less contact. A few years ago, Changxinhou was transferred back to the capital, and the two families gradually moved around again.

All along, this ethereal family affair has always been their only hope, whenever she is bullied and secretly chokes tears, Chunju will comfort her: "Miss, when the little marquis comes to pick you up, it will be fine." ”

In her heart, the little marquis who she had never met was like a statue enshrined in the shrine, exuding a holy light.

In the past, when Chunju said such things to her, it would definitely bring a trace of relief and hope to her depressed heart, but now, it has become the biggest mockery.

Zhuang Meiyan lowered her head, smiled, diverted the topic, and said:

"You go to the garden and bring my mother back, I don't worry about letting her stay outside by herself. ”

She urged Chunju to go out, but Chunju didn't seem to be at ease, walked to the door, looked back at her deliberately, and stopped talking.

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