After Zhang Xu sent me to the factory, I stayed there that day. There are four people in our dormitory, a little girl surnamed Xiao, we call her Xiao Xiao, two eldest sisters, one eldest sister is almost sixty, she is a child for the proprietress, and one I call her Sister Li, she is five or six years older than me.

After getting off work that day, Sister Li came to the dormitory and said to me, "Xiao Ji, why don't you go home after work so early?" How nice is it to live at home? ”

I smiled and said, "I don't like to live at home, I want to live here, there are so many people here?" How lively is it? At home, I got home late and couldn't do anything, so I could rest a little longer. "It's not what I'm talking about, but I certainly can't talk to everyone. My person's idea is the idea that "the ugliness of the family should not be publicized", so it is better not to let others know about the unhappy things at home.

When Sister Li heard me say this, she asked, "Then is your husband willing to let you live here?" Isn't he angry when you live here? ”

"If you don't get angry, what's there to be angry about? We are all old husbands and wives, and we are not young couples who have just gotten married, so we don't have so many ideas. "I'm half-truthful, whether she believes it or not, that's all I can say anyway.

After listening to what I said, Sister Li smiled and said, "Anyway, it's too tiring to go back every day, so you just need to go back every once in a while." You can also have a good rest here. Besides, there are no more days, and you will have to live here when you work overtime for a few days. ”

After we talked for a while, Sister Li asked me, "Xiao Ji, I'll go out for a walk, do you want to go?" ”

"I don't want to go, I just want to lie in bed for a while, I'm lazy, if I like to walk, won't I just go home?" I say. I finally found an excuse for not going home.

"Okay, then you can lie down, I have to go out and walk around." Sister Li said.

"There you go." I say.

After Sister Li left, I started to wash, and I really lay down after washing, because I really don't like to go out. And Zhang Xu tortures me at home these days, and I haven't slept well, so I feel quite tired.

After lying down, my heart was surprisingly steady. Yes, it's really good to stay here, no longer have to listen to Zhang Xu's nagging like an old woman, and no longer have to think about him getting up in the middle of the night to find trouble.

It turns out that it feels good to leave him.

Now I'm the only one left in the room. Because Sister Li went out. Xiao Xiao also went to the supermarket with a few girls. And the eldest sister with the child has not come back yet, because she is still with the child. I hadn't lived here before, but I knew that she would not be able to come back until she had fallen asleep at night.

I lay alone in bed and closed my eyes for a while, thinking about something that had happened recently. I felt inexplicably uncomfortable again. If Zhang Xu really divorces me, how do I have to tell my father? Or you can hide it from him first, but for how long?

Suddenly I thought of my son Xiaobo again, since the car happened, Xiaobo has not been very happy, not only him, I am not happy, I quarreled with Zhang Xu for this matter.

But I'm not happy, I think I'm self-inflicted. Didn't I live well by myself? Who wants me to get married again? If you don't get married, wouldn't you have these things?

Now Xiaobo is not only angry with Zhang Xu, he is also angry with me. Or does he think I shouldn't call him over? I don't know exactly what he thinks. Anyway, I think Bob is mad at me. I don't know if it's because of my sensitivity or if I feel sorry for him in my heart.

Hey, I really shouldn't have listened to Zhang Xu's words and let Xiaobo come over. I think this incident should have had a certain impact on Xiaobo's heart. Anyway, he trusted Zhang Xu so much at the beginning, and even regarded him as a relative, but Zhang Xu came to such a hand. And I have said more than once that Zhang Xu is good to him, and I will also let him be good to Zhang Xu in the future. But it's a slap in the face. It hasn't been long since I said it, and Zhang Xu has been revealed.

In this way, how can Xiaobo believe in people in the future? It's really going to hurt him. But I didn't expect things to come to this point, and of course I didn't think about it.

After thinking about this, I suddenly remembered Xiaobo's father. I divorced him because I misunderstood him. I was really sloppy.

I have always been demanding about marriage, but at that time I always felt that he didn't love me enough, if he loved me, why did he always make me angry? Why doesn't he know to coax when I'm angry? Did you coax me into lowering my value? And why did you say yes so quickly when I said I wanted a divorce? If you don't say yes so happily, we won't be able to go this far?

I've been blaming him for not being meticulous and considerate enough, in other words, not loving me enough, but it wasn't until Zhang Xu and I wanted to get a marriage certificate that I found out that Xiaobo's father was actually the person who loved me the most.

I remember when I went back to him to get my household registration book, I met a good neighbor of ours. But she has since moved elsewhere. At that time my neighbor said to me, "Why are you divorced?" You care so much about you, how can you say that you will leave? ”

I said to her, "We don't have the same personalities and we always quarrel. ”

"You, Xiao Ji, you're just too impulsive, how can the two of you not quarrel? There is no problem of principle, just quarrel two sentences, how can it not come to the step of divorce? The neighbor said with a little regret.

"He doesn't care about me at all, and if he cares about me, why did he say yes as soon as I said divorce?" I said to my neighbors.

"Xiao Ji, I also asked you before. Such a good daughter-in-law, how can you say that you will agree to divorce? Are you stupid? After the divorce, where do you go to find such a good daughter-in-law? Do you know what you said to him? "The neighbor asked me.

"I don't know, what did he say?" I thought it was too late to say anything, but I couldn't help but ask.

He told me that Wen Li had never done much work since she was a pampered child, and her parents and brother were so good to her. But since he came to me, he has done all kinds of work, and he has not enjoyed a single day of happiness in so many years of marriage with me. She wants to divorce me, and I am reluctant, but even if I am reluctant, I can't rely on her, Wen Li is good-looking, smart and capable, and if she leaves me, she will definitely be able to find a good one. I hope she finds someone better than me, can enjoy some blessings, and never get tired of me again. As long as she's doing well. ”

When I heard what my neighbor said, tears flowed uncontrollably. It turns out that the child's father agreed to divorce me, but this is the idea? Why didn't he tell me in the first place? If he had said anything to me, I wouldn't have divorced him. But I'm getting married to Zhang Xu now. There's no going back.

Thinking of this, my heart suddenly ached like a pinprick in the face. I forced myself not to think about the past. The past is in the past.