When I woke up, I thought about the scene in my dream, and I knew that I must have been too insecure, too lacking in love, and too much wishing for someone to talk to, so I dreamed of my mother. I used to dream about my mom all the time, but I haven't dreamed about it for a long time lately. I just thought of my mother after arguing with Zhang Xu. I knew it might be that I was too dependent on my mother before.

Ever since my mom died, I haven't missed her old man.

When I woke up from my dream, it was not yet two o'clock in the morning, so I started to close my eyes again and get ready for bed. I fell asleep again in a daze. I slept well until dawn. I woke up after dawn and went to work as usual.

Because I needed to reverse when I got to the factory, the place where I got off the first train was at a station not far in front of Gu Liyan's house. Even so, sometimes Zhang Xu would take me for a ride in the past, all the way to the next station. So after going to class for such a long time, I haven't met Gu Liyan.

Another reason is that if Zhang Xu didn't take me to the station, because I went to work early and got off work late, there were not many opportunities to meet Gu Liyan. But because I had an unpleasant quarrel with Zhang Xu, I didn't wait for him to give me a ride when I left early, but chose to reverse the car early.

Coincidentally, I met Gu Liyan when I got out of the car, and she went out to buy breakfast. When she saw me, she was surprised and asked, "Hey, eldest sister, aren't you going back to your hometown?" ”

As soon as I heard Gu Liyan ask like this, I said, "Yes, I came back yesterday, how do you know that I have returned to my hometown?" ”

Because today is the first day of work after taking leave, and because I was angry with Zhang Xu the day before, I advanced the morning according to the previous time. Naturally, there was more time, and I hadn't seen Gu Liyan all the time, so I stopped and talked to her.

"I listened to your eldest brother. My husband and I went out with it the other day to see your big brother. Gu Liyan said.

"Really?" I wasn't too interested in what Gu Liyan said. See him and see him, what is there? But Gu Liyan wanted to speak and stopped: "Eldest sister, I think I'll tell you something directly, and you should be a little prepared." ”

I heard Gu Liyan seem to have something in her words. Thinking of the fact that she had hinted at me Zhang Xu before. Now that she says this, it is naturally related to Zhang Xu again. "Xiao Gu, if you have something to say, just say it."

"I shouldn't have told you this, but I'm worried about you. Eldest sister, we have been together for so long, I also know that you are a sincere person, and your heart is also good, if you don't tell you, I always feel that I can't go up and down on my conscience. ”

"What's wrong with Gu? If you have something to say, just say it. What else can not be said between our sisters? ”

"Your eldest brother has someone, my husband and I saw him go to the hospital with a woman, I don't know what they do, he saw us and felt unnatural. Then we asked you and he said you had gone back to your hometown. And you don't know how many times you have to go back to your hometown a year, and you don't care about this home. ”

As soon as I heard what Xiao Gu said, I had no doubt that she would tell a lie. Because there's no need for her to lie to me, it's not good for her. Besides, when I came back, didn't Zhang Xu say in front of my fourth brother that I always go home? And he actually said that I kept changing jobs, and I couldn't work anywhere for long, and when I was in front of my fourth brother, I could talk nonsense in front of me to deny me, let alone in front of outsiders. His purpose is just to make excuses for him to cheat.

After listening to Xiao Gu's words, I didn't get too angry, "Really? If he has the ability, he will find it. The calmness I reacted made Xiao Gu very puzzled: "Eldest sister, why don't you believe what I say or what?" ”

"Believe, how can I not believe your words? You don't have to lie to me. I said.

"If you believe it, why aren't you angry at all?"

"What's there to be angry about? People don't look down on whoever I want to find, so I can find whomever I want. That's not something I can stop, is it? ”

"Eldest sister, why are you so cowardly? I didn't see you like this when you opened the store before? What's wrong with you? ”

After listening to Xiao Gu's words, I smiled bitterly. Yes, now I am a wreck, and I let Zhang Xu grind it out. It's also a disappointment in this relationship. I don't have the mood to deal with this now, nor do I have the energy and time to take care of his business.

Xiao Gu was obviously very disappointed when she saw my performance, she was nothing more than holding grievances for me and wronging me, but I was acting like I didn't care, what else could people say? So we had another conversation, and I left. One is that I am afraid that I will be late, and the other is that Xiao Gu also has her things to do, and she still has children to take care of.

After leaving Xiaogu, I went to the next station. The next station is a short walk away, not far

When I arrived at the station, I waited for the train while thinking about what Kogu had told me. Even if Xiao Gu doesn't say it, I also know that Zhang Xu will have someone outside. But let Xiao Gu see it, that's another matter. That is to say, she has developed with that woman to a certain extent, otherwise he would not dare to take her around. Or even go to the hospital. Suddenly, I thought, did he take someone to have an abortion? It's really possible. Otherwise, what can two people do when they go to the hospital? Zhang Xu's physique is as strong as a cow, and it is impossible for him to have any diseases. I let my suspicions startle me. Thinking that Zhang Xu actually asked for the bracelet he gave me back, does that mean that he is really going to give up on me?

If you love it, you can do it. I don't have the heart to think about him now. If he wants a divorce, I'll promise him. I've really had enough of him, too. I don't have the courage to compromise and maintain it again and again.

My biggest thing right now is my son, Bob. Bob's thing is enough to give me a headache. How can I have the energy to think about this myself?

Just as I was thinking about it, the car came, and I hurriedly got into the car, and I didn't dare to think about things when I was in the car. Because I have had the experience of thinking about things when I was in the car, but I didn't know after the station. By the time I came to my senses, the car had already passed several stops, but by the time I got back in the seat again, it was too late, and I got there and received a lot of criticism. You can't make the same mistake twice.

Soon it was in the factory. But when I got off the bus and walked to the factory, I was worried again, how to say that I went? Anyway, it's another beating. When I first asked for leave, I was given 10 days off, which is a good thing that I missed for almost 20 days. Originally, I wanted to come back yesterday and called Yanqiu to tell her and say something to her. But Zhang Xu came out again, but I kept crying there, I forgot about the phone call a long time ago, and it was too late when I remembered it, so I couldn't call someone in the middle of the night, right?

I knew I couldn't be fired because they didn't fire workers in this factory easily. I'm not the only one who takes a leave of absence like me, but it's avoidable. Along the way, he was thinking about how to lie to Yanqiu. After thinking about it, I finally came up with a reason that I thought was not bad. Just like that, I arrived at the factory unconsciously.