In the end, I chose to forgive Zhang Xu, not because of how sincere they were, nor because I could believe that Zhang Xu would reform in the future or that the prodigal son would turn back, I no longer believe in these.

The reason why I forgave him first and didn't pursue this matter again was because I really didn't want a divorce. I don't have any requirements for feelings anymore, and I don't believe in love anymore. So be it. If Zhang Xu doesn't bring the women outside to the house in the future, it's fine.

I don't have the energy to talk about any feelings anymore, and another reason is that I'm really afraid that Zhang Xu will call my father. We kept a lot of things in our family from our father. I'm afraid he won't be able to stand the blow

But if I don't forgive Zhang Xu this time, he said it, he asked my father to comment on it, and I know that his words are soft and hard. Although it was said that it was very kind, the implication was that if I did not forgive him, he would tell my father everything we had hidden from him.

I'm really afraid of him now, and I can't afford to provoke him, so since I don't want any extravagant feelings, what can I do? Anyway, he didn't dare to beat me anymore since I reported the crime. That's it.

I know I'm useless. It is also weak. I can't afford to fight him, and when I chose him, it was doomed to the fate of the rest of my life. It can only be if he chooses not to want me, and without the right of me to choose not to him, unless one day my father is gone, and I have no worries, then I can make decisions about my own affairs.

Now that we have chosen to forgive, we are back to our old way of life. Fortunately, after this incident, Zhang Xu seems to have changed his temper a little, he has nothing to do anymore, and he will go to the factory to pick me up every day, even if I don't work overtime, he will start to pick me up. This took me by surprise. But it was just an accident, and it didn't move. My feelings for him have been worn out by him. Now it can only be regarded as a partner, to put it mildly, it is to use each other. He used me to do his laundry, cook, and work as a babysitter. What about me? I used him to get him to give me a seemingly complete home, so that I wouldn't be too ashamed in front of outsiders.

In this way, it passed peacefully until the end of the year. Although there is no emotion anymore. But such a peaceful day is also what I yearn for, and I am content. As long as it can make my life peaceful. If Zhang Xu has always been like this, although I have no feelings, I can also fulfill the obligations of a wife.

At the end of the year, when Zhang Xu was on vacation, he said to me: "Wen Li, you see that our house will fall if we don't build it, let's build the house next year." ”

"Okay, you can build it if you want." I say. Because I've always wanted to build a house, this house is really ugly, my relatives and colleagues want to come to our house to see me, I don't dare to let them come, I have been married to Zhang Xu for so long, except for my niece and my son Xiaobo, no one else has come, I'm afraid it will make people laugh.

In the past, Zhang Xu's ex-wife Zhao Yan didn't let us build it, but now Zhang Xu said that he wanted to build it, so it must be his ex-wife who stopped making trouble, otherwise he wouldn't have brought it up?

Another reason for building a house this time is that Zhang Xu's daughter is about to get married. Because she is Zhang Xu's daughter, she must go out of Zhang Xu's house when she gets married, so he has no choice but to build this house. Otherwise, such a dilapidated house, when the time comes, the guests must not make people laugh and lose their big teeth? It's not good to look at Zhang Xu's daughter Lingling's face.

"I've calculated, we have to build this house more than 200,000 yuan, and now we don't have enough money, we have to be about 50,000 yuan, Wen Li, see if you can go back to the fourth brother's house to borrow some, and when we finish building the house, we will pay them back in the future."

As soon as I heard Zhang Xu say let me go back to my parents' house to borrow money. I said, "Yes, it's no problem if I want to borrow tens of thousands of yuan from my fourth brother." But when it came to building a house, I had to be involved, and I took time off to build it at home. ”

When Zhang Xu heard that I was going to ask for leave, he said, "Wen Li, you have so much work, can you take a leave of absence when the time comes?" ”

"Let's put it on, no matter how much I live, I can take a leave of absence when I build a house. How can they give me leave for such a big thing as building a house. I said to Zhang Xu.

"You don't understand what you build at home? Why delay that time? Is it also a delay in making money? Zhang Xu said to me.

"We don't always build houses, and it's too late to go out and earn money after we finish building. I don't understand, don't you have to contract labor? Isn't it enough for the contractor to understand? "I said that the reason why I wanted to participate in building a house was that I didn't think about anything else, but I was afraid that I wouldn't need so much money, and Zhang Xu asked me to go out and borrow it. Only if I participate will I know how much money will be used, when Zhang Xu's father was sick, he said that we should take the money, but Zhang Xu's mother said that Zhang Xu gave it to Zhang Xu again. Until now, Zhang Xu has not mentioned this money to me, so I have to be a little bit of a long-sighted. And Zhang Xu is a person who has cheated publicly, which also makes me have some precautions against him.

When this matter came to this, Zhang Xu did not express his position again, that is, he did not say that he would cover it for the next year, nor did he say that he would not cover it for the next year, anyway, he left it there.

In a flash, it was the Chinese New Year, after the first day of the thirtieth lunar year, and on the second day of the new year, I said to Zhang Xu: "Zhang Xu, I have to go back to my father's house, I will leave today." ”

Because I also talked to Zhang Xu before. In previous years, Zhang Xu and I went to my father's house for the New Year, but this year Zhang Xu's mother is in our house, so he can't go, what should he do if he goes to his mother? Zhang Xu didn't go, so I had to go alone. It's impossible for me not to go, I don't usually see my father, and if I don't go during the Chinese New Year, am I still a person? “

Zhang Xu is not happy when I mention going home, he is a very selfish person, he never thinks about things for others. His relatives are all around, so he doesn't know what it's like to be shared by others.

"If you want to go, you can go, you don't care about this home for the New Year, my mother is here, but you have to go back to your parents' house."

"Your mother is here, isn't there you? Zhang Xu, you can see your mother every day, but my father and I can only see it during the Chinese New Year, your mother is a mother, isn't my father a father? I retorted to Zhang Xu.

Although I was unhappy, Zhang Xu still sent me to the station when I left. When I returned to my father's house, my father saw me coming alone and asked me why Zhang Xu didn't come.

I told him that Zhang Xu's mother had come to our house, so he had to take care of his mother at home. My father didn't say anything when he heard this.

Because it was the Chinese New Year, my father did not live in the hospital, but returned home, and my second and fourth brothers all came back. When my father was on dialysis, my fourth brother drove him to the hospital and came back after the dialysis.

Usually, my father would rather live in the hospital for fear of troublesome for his children, but after the Chinese New Year, we can't let him live in the hospital for anything.

In this way, I stayed at my father's house for ten days, went on the second day of the first month, and came back on the twelfth day of the first month. Although I was reluctant to give up, there was no way, who let me marry so far away?