In the end, I really thought I was unlucky, and I didn't call the police or sue the bank. Let him take it and take it. Even if I hate him again, I don't want him to go to jail. Although I was in pain, I just couldn't give up. It stands to reason that Zhang Xu really deserved what he did to me, even if he was to go to prison. But I've always been soft-hearted and can't do anything like that, so now that I think about it, I deserved to be hurt.

Although I didn't take out the money, I still have to see my illness. So I went to a big hospital nearby for a check-up. The result of the examination was that I had a nodule in my thyroid gland, and it was quite large, no wonder I always felt that I couldn't breathe, and it was difficult to get out of air with such a big nodule there. Actually, I'm just rough-hearted, and the nodule is obvious, and you can see it at a glance. But I didn't find out.

Fortunately, the doctor said that there is no need to take medicine or surgery, as long as there is regular check-up. But after this disease, I also thought about it a lot. I don't think anything really matters anymore except health. The doctor also told me that I must keep a good attitude when I have this disease.

Of course, if you have a good attitude, you can't get angry anymore. It can be seen that my illness also comes from anger. Why wasn't it before? Ever since I found out that Zhang Xu had brought women from outside to the house, I have been angry, although I always comfort myself not to be angry because they are not worth it. But whoever it takes will be the same as me. None of us are saints, and none of us can do everything without getting angry. If you can do that, you will not only be a saint, but also a Buddha.

Because of this disease, not only did I not maintain a good attitude, but also deepened the burden on my mind. I hate Zhang Xu for not doing anything about him, and I want him to go to prison, but I can't do it.

So I had to bear all this silently alone. That inhuman thing, not thinking about the love of husband and wife, almost drove me to a dead end. He took my money, and he denied the debt he owed to my son. He also built half of the house on the ground of his ex-wife. And it is also a house in the name of his daughter, Jiang, he not only wants me to leave the house, but also wants me to be burdened with a debt of 20,000 yuan from my son.

How can there be such shameless people and shameless families? Generations of young and old have joined forces to count me. When I think about this, I can't eat or sleep. I can't concentrate when I'm working, and I often stand there alone in a daze. I knew it wouldn't work, and if it continued, I wouldn't be able to keep my job. I'm penniless by him now, and if I lose my job, I'll be sleeping on the streets. So I often told myself to forget, forget, forget. Forget all about it and start all over again. I really wish I could have come out of this shadow sooner.

Now I can't go back to my family, and my life in the factory is not easy, because I am in a bad mood, I will often start a fire for no reason, so many of my colleagues have been offended by me, and I am not aware of it. There are always mistakes at work, and the attitude of the boss lady and Yanqiu towards me is not as good as before.

Now I really hate everyone, everyone is annoying. I was so depressed that I suddenly realized that I couldn't find someone to talk to now. I can only take all this by myself, and put it in my heart. There is no one to talk to.

I really miss my mom. If my mom were still alive, maybe I could talk to her. But I could only see my mother in my dreams.

I'm living like this. But Zhang Xu still didn't let me go, he called me or chased me to divorce him. I said to him, "Aren't you able to sue?" Then you will sue again, right? ”

"Now it's less than six months and you can't prosecute at all." Zhang Xu said.

"Then you just wait, you wait until six months before you can sue." I said, "But I'm telling you, even if you sue again, I won't agree to leave." The longer it drags on, the better, I don't want to look for it anymore anyway, I'm not in a hurry. I'll drag you all my life, and I'm going to drag you to death. "Emotions that have nowhere to vent can only be replaced by harsh words.

"Ji Wenli, do you think you're so interesting? Even if you drag me for the rest of my life, you won't get anything good. ”

"I don't drag you, what do I have to do? I have suffered with you for so many years, I have been so good to you, what have I gained? If you buy a broken bracelet, you can go back. You're counting every penny on me. ”

"Don't say those useless, I just want to divorce you, do you agree or not?"

"I don't agree, I don't agree all my life, didn't I say it? Even if it's six months, I won't agree to sue again. I'll drag you along, and you won't call me in the future. If you have the ability, you go to the court. With that, I hung up the phone.

Now I don't have anyone behind my back on the phone. Because there is no point in it anymore. Now everyone in the factory knows that my husband is having an affair and won't let me go home and will divorce me.

Those who are better with me, who sympathize with me, and those who are not so good with me, talk about my affairs as an after-dinner joke. They have a topic for recreation. I really lived as a joke. I have never lost anyone in my life, but I have encountered such an unfortunate thing. Who is to blame for this? Blame myself for not seeing people's faces clearly, and blame me for the first time I found out about Zhang Xu or after I knew that Zhang Xu was divorced because of cheating, I should have stopped the loss in time

If I hadn't wanted anything else at that time and had decisively divorced him, I wouldn't have been hurt by him again and again.

How can a person who can abandon his wife for twenty years take me, a second-married couple, seriously?

Think about it, no one is wrong, it's me who is wrong, it's me who thinks too well of others. also underestimated the ugliness of human nature, and even underestimated the shamelessness of Zhang Xu's family. The thing I regret the most now is that I was so kind to their family in the first place.

Why was I so kind to his parents in the first place? Parents who can raise children like Zhang Xu and Zhang Qing will definitely not be much better. Besides, what do they have to do with me? Why should I take care of them wholeheartedly? If I hadn't been so nice to them, maybe I would have been less injured today. At least I won't regret it.

Zhang Xu called me several times to urge me to divorce, but I didn't agree. After that, I simply stopped answering his calls. He didn't call me anymore.

I know he's discouraged, too, and he might just wait for another six months to sue again.

Zhang Xu stopped calling me. But my life is not easy. Naturally, the pain in my heart will not be healed. I, and thyroid nodules are tormenting me. I'm having a hard time getting angry. Also, I don't have a good night's sleep at all. I didn't sleep well in the first place, but now with these things, I can barely sleep for long every day. I've tried a lot of things but I can't improve the quality of my sleep. And it actually added other problems.