I feel like I'm at rock bottom with my life, I'm at the end of my rope. God has given me the greatest punishment. After I reached middle age, I not only had no place to stay, but also suffered from poverty and illness.

But the bad luck is far from over. At this juncture, I added a new problem. I don't know why, but when I got my period, I said that I didn't leave, and the amount was very large. I was terrified, how much blood can a human body have? If you continue like this, the blood will run dry. I almost didn't dare to move, as long as I did, it felt like a spring underneath. I can't afford not to go to the hospital. But now I don't have any money. I can't open my mouth to borrow from my relatives. I'm a person with a lot of self-esteem, the kind of person who would rather be hungry than open my mouth to others.

What to do? You can only pay money to the boss. But since I went to work after the New Year, I have asked for leave today and tomorrow. I was embarrassed to open my mouth to pay money, but now I not only have to pay money, but I also have to ask for leave. And I don't know what kind of illness I have, and I don't know how many days off I will take. I had no choice but to resign, so that I didn't have to open my mouth to pay money or ask for leave.

After resigning, the bill will be settled. Of course, there is no need to find any more excuses to take time off. Because I asked for too much leave, it was really hard to ask for leave again. And I really don't want to stay in this environment anymore. For a variety of reasons, I had to give up this job.

The resignation went well. I don't think they liked me doing there for a long time. After all, I occupy a position, but when I am busy, I always ask for leave to delay the production progress of others, but it is difficult for me to say if I want to dismiss. Now that I've said it myself, I'm just right.

I am very reluctant to do this job. But there's really no way to do it anymore. I can't sleep well every night, I'm always dizzy, I always make mistakes in my work, and I always ask for leave. Now I have added this problem and need to go to the doctor. Now I can't support it mentally or physically.

I had a salary of less than 6,000 yuan in my hand, and I was really worried. What are you doing with just a few thousand dollars? First of all, I had to rent a house, because I couldn't live in the factory anymore. After renting a house, you have to buy pots and pans and other daily necessities. When it's all done, I don't know how much money I have left. But I have no other way out.

I found the cheapest house, and the landlord was supposed to pay three pressures and one pressure, but I had to say that I had to pay two pressures and one after saying it. After the rent was paid, I didn't go to buy groceries first. Because I have to go to the doctor first. I didn't go to a big hospital because I was afraid of spending money, so I went to a smaller hospital nearby, which was opened in the town, and it was okay. One of them is quite famous. I heard from a former colleague, so I went there first and hung up a TCM department.

When I got to the hospital and told me about my situation, he asked me to take a film first. After too much patting, he handed it to him, and he told me that it was a liver hemangioma and that there was nothing too big a problem. So he prescribed me medicine for a week and told me to go back to him when I was done.

Although there is no major problem, I still feel distressed when I see these medicines in my hand. These drugs cost nearly a thousand dollars. If these medicines are finished, I don't know how much it will cost. I've never cared so much about money as I do now. I finally understood what it was like to walk without money.

After taking the medicine, I went back and ate it first, and then I started to buy daily necessities, although I just bought some of them, but it also cost seven or eight hundred yuan. In the past, I didn't have to take care of anything when I stayed overnight, and I didn't have to buy anything until this time I realized how much it cost to rent a house outside alone. Everything costs money, and if you knew this, you would be cheeky and do it there, and you won't resign. I'll leave when they're going to pick me up.

I have less than 3,000 dollars left in my hand. Looking at the little money in my hand, I panicked. When I opened the store before, Xiao Gu told me that I should have some eyes and save some small treasury by myself. But I thought about it, first, I can earn it, and second, how nice it would be if we could save some money to build a house? It's a shame to live in such a dilapidated house. So I shouldn't have saved any more money for myself at all.

Now that I think about it, I was really stupid. I don't leave myself a way back.

It's too late to say anything.

I got everything I needed and stayed in the little rented house. I still don't dare to move, and there will be blood underneath. Fortunately, after taking the medicine, it gradually got better, and finally stopped.

But my body is still not very good. It's not good at all. At night, my chest hurts, and I still can't lie down, and it hurts so much when I lie down, but it's better to sit. I don't dare to go to the doctor anymore. Because I have limited money, I won't go to the hospital as long as I can hold on.

During my time I barely contacted anyone except on the phone call to my father. I draw the curtains tightly both day and night. I just sat quietly in the house, not going anywhere, not leaving, and I had to eat for days to buy food. Minimize the number of trips you go out.

My father also asked me how I am. I told him I was doing well. My father no longer doubted it. My chest pain hadn't healed yet, and my legs suddenly hurt so much that I couldn't walk. There were no signs or injuries. It's just that all of a sudden, it hurts so much that I can't move. If I try to move a step, I will frown in pain. I don't know what's wrong with me. Lying there sometimes I think. Am I going to die? How long will I live? Is there some terminal illness in my body, and these symptoms are all manifestations of a serious illness?

It hurts, it hurts, if you can't move, you can't move, it's good if you die quietly like this, although there are still worries in my heart, and I still have reluctance. But destiny is like this, and I can't change it. Once, in a phone call with my eldest brother, I said, "It's good to be dead now, and I can see my mother when I die." ”

But the eldest brother said to me, "When you die, you see your mother, but you can't see your father?" So it's better to be alive. ”

But that's all I can do for now.

Fortunately, I live alone now and there is no sound at night, so I sleep much better than before. In the past, there were a lot of people in the dormitory, you slept with her, and there were people snoring, plus I thought about a lot of things, so I couldn't sleep for a few hours at night. Now I'm more open than I thought before, I live in a room and it's quiet, so I sleep much better. It's not every day that I'm dizzy anymore.

After staying at home for more than 20 days, I finally recovered well, my body was not in pain, and I was able to sleep well. But the job is gone. With the little money left, I had to find a place to make money. Otherwise, I might not have enough money to eat. But after looking for a job for several days, I couldn't find it. Sewing workers are recruited by any factory. But the boarder couldn't find it.