The court session is on the twelfth day of the first month, and I go to work on the twentieth day of the first month. Originally, if there was no trial, I could have accompanied my father more, and I could have accompanied him until the nineteenth day of the first month, but now it is not possible. I have to go back early, go back to fight this lawsuit. The court is in session on the twelfth day of the first month, so I have to go to the factory on the eleventh day of the first month, because I can't be there on the twelfth day of the first month.

And our factory can go in. But if you don't start work, there is no one to cook. There are only doormen in a huge factory. Although I didn't want to go back, I had no choice, so I had to buy a ticket for the tenth day of the new year. On the eleventh day of the first month, I arrived at the factory.

On the eighth day of the Lunar New Year, Zhang Xu suddenly called me. I don't know what he called me for, and I don't want to answer or talk to him. But the phone kept ringing. I just let the phone ring there and just stared blankly until it hung up.

But after a while, Zhang Xu made another phone call. Still don't want to pick up. But I thought about it and didn't insist any longer, but answered the phone.

Zhang Xu's voice came to my ears, no longer yelling, but restoring the gentle voice that I had when I first got married: "Wen Li, where are you now?" ”

"At home." I replied. I always thought that Bo's house was my home, so I answered like this. I didn't ask him what he was calling me for, because I knew that since he called me, there must be something, so I didn't say he would ask too.

Sure enough, Zhang Xu asked me, "Then when will you come back?" ”

"Why are you asking this?"

"I want to ask if you can come back to the day of the trial?" Listening to Zhang Xu's words, I understood that Zhang Xu was afraid that I would not be able to appear in court and would delay the divorce. I thought his voice had become gentle, and I thought he regretted wanting to divorce me, but I didn't expect that I thought too much about myself. That's right, he was so obsessed with wanting to divorce at the beginning, and now that the goal is about to be achieved, how can he regret it?

"Don't worry, I won't delay my court appearance. And you don't have to worry anymore, I will agree to the divorce. "I gave him a reassuring pill. Yes, that's what I thought in my heart, what is willing to be unwilling, I deserve to be unlucky, no matter what, I don't want to hold on anymore, I don't want to be entangled anymore. I don't have that energy anymore. Now I am not only physically not as good as before, but even my mental state is not as good as before. And my father is sick again than before. There's so much going on in me. So it's broken early and cleaned early.

"That's not what I meant by calling you today, I meant to get you back, come back now." What Zhang Xu said made me very puzzled.

"What should I do now? Our factory hasn't started yet, why do you go back so early, don't I just delay when I go to court? ”

"Wen Li, come home first, aren't we divorced yet? You buy a ticket now and come back, and I'll get you the money. Zhang Xu said. For a person like Zhang Xu, who regards money as his life, he has to say a few words for spending a dollar, but now he wants to buy me a ticket and let me come back. As soon as I heard it, I also understood in my heart that eight or nine are not far from ten, it seems that he and his thought about it and there was a problem again, and he must have thought about it and left. Otherwise, how would he let me go back? Go back to him?

"Haven't we been divorced yet?" After hearing this sentence, I was so aggrieved that I burst into tears in an instant, and I really don't understand why such a simple sentence made me so sad. "Do you know we're not divorced? Since you know we're not divorced, why didn't you let me go home in the first place? Why do you drag me by the arm when I get home? I almost shouted these words.

I thought to myself, I'm not going back. Even though I'm still reluctant to get a divorce, I can't believe anything he says anymore. After the one he had thought about was gone, he also let me go home, but as soon as he came back, he immediately revealed his true form and didn't let me go home again. I've already learned the lesson once, and I can't make the same mistake twice.

"Wen Li, come back, it's my fault. We'll discuss anything when we get back. All you have to do is come back. You go buy tickets now and come back tomorrow, right? ”

"It's dark now, and I can't go to the station to buy a ticket." I say. Seeing that it was already more than five o'clock, I really didn't understand what Zhang Xu was thinking when he said this? Who does he think he is, even if I don't want to divorce anymore, no matter how worthless I am, I can't be called and left immediately, right?

"Then you hurry up and buy it tomorrow, and come back when you finish buying, and I'll pick you up at the station." Zhang Xu said again.

"We'll talk about it tomorrow." I said, although I had already made up my mind that I could not go back. But I wasn't as absolute as he was.

"Okay, then call me when you finish buying your ticket and get on the bus, and I'll pick you up at the station when you get off." Zhang Xu said again.

"I won't go back so early, I'll go back eleven, I won't change the train ticket." Hearing that Zhang Xu was still chasing me back, I still said what was in my heart.

After Zhang Xu heard this, he was silent for a while and said, "Okay, I'll pick you up when I'm eleven." Call me before you get out of the car. We'll have a good talk when I pick you up. If there is anything we have to say, just say it. ”

I didn't say anything more. Seeing that I didn't speak, Zhang Xu told me a few more words, telling me to call him when I got out of the car.

"We'll talk about it then." I'm still saying that.

After hanging up Zhang Xu's phone, my heart couldn't be calm again. I started thinking about it again, although I always scolded myself for being unproductive, but I just couldn't be as calm as water. Zhang Xu, Zhang Xu, even if you have a little affection, we will not come to this point today. Think about how good I was to you at the beginning, and that's what I got in exchange for that. If I go back now, it will happen again in the future.

It's been more than a year since I found out that he brought Xiao San back home, how have I been doing this year? The torment I endured in my heart is beyond anyone's comprehension. Mentally and physically, I was on the verge of losing it.

Even if he had a little pity for me, I would not be as determined as I am now. A true heart was torn apart by him. I lost sleep all night. My heart was uncontrollably thinking about the harm Zhang Xu had done to me. One moment I hated him so much that my teeth itched, and the next I felt sad that I was about to divorce.

I still don't want a divorce. But I couldn't hold on any longer. Who can understand this contradictory feeling? I really don't know why I chose such a path in the first place?

Before I knew it, I was reminded of my mom again. If only she was an old man, I could complain to her. I can also ask my mother to help me figure out a way. However, she was gone. There is no one to help me. No one can talk to me. I can only carry everything by myself.