I was cooking at home, and Zhang Xu came over to ask me why I didn't stay in the unit and why I went home every day. I was very angry and said to him: I can't go home now, what do I have to do with you? When you didn't get divorced, you could do it, but now that we're divorced, we have no relationship at all, can you control me? "I'm also very unkind to him.

I didn't want to talk to him like this, but when I heard him talk, I got angry, and when I saw him, I was angry. That's why I'm angry with him.

"Why don't you say you're sick? We've met now, and you don't like me, and I don't like you, but you prefer to stay here, and you want to see each other every day. ”

When I heard what he said, I had to raise my head, put down what I was doing, and said to him angrily, "Who wants to see you every day?" If you don't come to my kitchen, will I be able to see you? It's not that I want to come to you, it's that you come to me every day when you have something to do. I hope you try not to come here in the future while I'm cooking. When I'm done, you come back, and if I see you doing it here, I won't come too, okay? I'll come back when you're done. Besides, didn't you say that when you have time, you can clean up by yourself, and I'll just cook here? ”

Originally, he always came to my kitchen, but he wanted to say that I always relied on him, and in his heart my house was still his.

"If you don't come back, won't you see you?" Zhang Xu also said to me angrily. As if I occupied his house, such three views also made people speechless. I can't go back to my own home.

Seeing that he was messing around in front of me, I really didn't want to talk to him anymore, so I said to him, "Okay, you are here, I won't do it, okay?" I can't afford to mess with you, I can afford to hide from you. "When I was done, I put the half-finished dish there and came out of the kitchen. As he walked, he said, "I'll go out to eat." ”

Back in the house, I got dressed and went outside. There is a small restaurant at the entrance of our village, and although I have never been there to eat, every time I pass by the door of his house, I will see a lot of people there. It seems to be quite affordable. Nowadays, there are many people who don't usually like to cook, so they go out to eat something, which is not too expensive anyway.

But I'm not the type of person who likes to eat out too much, and it should have something to do with the economy, so although there are always a lot of people in this small restaurant, I never ate there.

Zhang Xu saw that I was dressed and walked out, and he was no longer in the kitchen, and when he came out, he still didn't forget to be angry and said: It seems that he is really rich? Are you embarrassed to take my money and eat and drink outside? “

I ignored him anymore. I opened the door and walked out. There is really no reason to talk about people like him.

However, Zhang Xu hasn't been like this for a while, it seems that there is a purpose for coming to me to make trouble today, and his mother has a purpose for putting garbage in front of my door, just to squeeze me out of this house. I think it must have been his new girlfriend who said something. Maybe he's afraid that his girlfriend will know the truth of the matter, right? He was afraid that people would leave him, so he tried his best to let me go so that he could fulfill his lie.

I walked to the door of the hotel and wanted to go in, but I saw too many people inside, and I was afraid that I would meet someone I knew, and it would not be good to talk about it when the time came. After all, it is a widow who has a lot of right and wrong in front of the door, and this is deeply understood. So I try not to go to crowded places, and I try not to go in front of acquaintances, I am afraid that someone will ask me this and that.

But where to go? Go far away, and don't want to go too far. I don't want to spend that money, my biggest wish now is to earn more money and save more money, but now I don't earn much, so I can't spend money casually. The deepest experience of divorce for me is that people must have money, and only with money can they have confidence. If I hadn't taken out all my money and had my own little coffer, maybe I wouldn't have been so downset. If I hadn't quit such a good job just to be closer to home, not only would I not have suffered so much, but I would have earned a lot of money, so I wouldn't have been able to afford a lawsuit with him. This is what I learned after the divorce.

There is also the experience that the epidemic has given me, that is, people must have savings, as long as they have savings, they can cope with all emergencies. It's not just me, this epidemic should make many people experience this way, right? So, all the realizations are that people have to be rich. I now crave money more than ever and more than anyone else. But I will not obtain money through any improper means. I can only do this through labor and savings.

When I think about money, I don't have the urge to go out. I walked around the outside and didn't eat, but went to the supermarket to buy some groceries and came back. Naturally, Zhang Xu would not stay in the kitchen anymore, and he also returned to his own room.

Naturally, he could hear the door ringing when he came back, but he didn't make trouble again. Seeing that he didn't come, I went to the kitchen and continued to cook what I hadn't finished cooking. While cooking, I felt a nest in my heart. How could I let Zhang Xu be bullied to such an extent?

Is it all his fault? Of course, it was my misfortune to meet someone like him, but when he beat me for the first time, I left him, would it not have happened so many things in the future? I didn't stop my loss in time, it's my fault, not his. I have too many concerns, but now that I think about it, those worries are superfluous.

It's that I'm not brave enough. is not only afraid that he will hurt his father, but also afraid that others will say irresponsible things about his divorce again and again. For the sake of so-called fame, I actually gambled on my own happiness. In the end, it was a mess.

There is also the fact that I also underestimate the bad nature of human nature, I have never seen anything too bad since I was a child, so I always don't think of people too badly, I always feel that even bad people have a good side, and there is a day when I am moved, I am too naïve and too stupid.

While cooking, I was thinking about my thoughts, and I accidentally scratched a small wound on my hand, and I felt pain, I looked down and saw that my finger was cut by a kitchen knife. Although it was not very big, but the blood also flowed out quickly, and it was a lot of bleeding, looking at the blood dripping onto the cutting board, I quickly put down what I was holding, went to the bedroom to find a tissue wrap, and then pinched the injured finger with one hand, and then went to find a band-aid. I don't know if I have it at home, because I haven't used this thing for a long time, so I don't know if there is one.

I searched for a while but couldn't find it, but there was no way, so I found a piece of gauze, wrapped my hand around it again, and then found a sticky cloth to glue the gauze on. After all the work is done, I don't have the heart to cook and eat anymore.

Back in the kitchen, I simply put everything away and went back to the bedroom. In this way, I was busy all day, and although I was hungry and tired, I didn't even eat a bite of food. The more I thought about it, the more aggrieved I became, and the more I thought about it, the more I held my breath, and I couldn't help but shed tears again. Thinking about how much grievance you have ever suffered in front of your parents?