June 25, 1966 was sunny

Bai Yunfei, who had disappeared for ten days, finally appeared, and it turned out that he had returned to his hometown in Hebei. I don't know why, but I lost my temper when I saw him, blaming him for not greeting me when he left. But from the look in his eyes when he saw me, it can be seen that he also misses me very much, and brought me a silver bracelet, saying that his mother left it to his daughter-in-law, and asked me if I wanted it, I wanted to wear it on my hand very much, but my mouth refused vigorously, seeing that I didn't want a bracelet, he was very disappointed, he was really stupid, that can be said so directly, how can I also be a girl, to be reserved, but looking at his disappointed expression, I hurriedly said, forget it, see you are so sincere, I will keep it for you first, see I accept it, he is as happy as a child......

On August 1, 1966, the sky was cloudless on a clear day

Now I have to see Bai Yunfei every day, otherwise I won't be able to sleep. Although it is so chaotic outside, we have a heart-to-heart connection, and even a glance at each other can express deep love. My father also noticed our relationship, Bai Yunfei has always been his most beloved student, so he also agrees with our relationship very much, which makes me very happy, I really hope to live happily ever after!

Light rain on August 6, 1966

Which friend who took care of my father was knocked down, and my father was also implicated, wearing heavy wooden signs every day to parade around the streets, and being imprisoned at night and tortured, how could my father, who was nearly fifty years old and powerless, bear it, I was very sad, I cried for a whole day, fortunately, Bai Yunfei has been comforting me, but when I think of my father is being tortured, I still keep being sad......

On August 12, 1966, heavy rain poured down

Bai Yunfei was also arrested by the Red Soldiers because he had my father's books hidden in the house, my spirit suddenly collapsed, why would God punish me so much, what should I do, losing Bai Yunfei is like losing my backbone, but in addition to being sad, I am determined to do something to alleviate Bai Yunfei's pain......

August 14, 1966

In order to alleviate their suffering, I brought an ancient painting from my father's collection to his house, hoping that he could take care of my father and Bai Yunfei. At the beginning, I was very nervous, I didn't know if such a reckless gift would be arrested as a capitalist roader, but after contacting Director Zhao, I found that this person was very friendly and reasonable, and he had already heard of my father, and was very willing to help me, not only did not accept the ancient paintings, but also brought me a lot of fruits when I left, so that I should be careful and take care of myself, which made me very moved, it seems that there are still many good people in the world.

August 15, 1966

Director Zhao really said what he said, from today my father and Bai Yunfei were transferred to the single cell, and I don't have to go to the street anymore, because my actions have alleviated the pain of my beloved, I am very happy, so I came to Director Zhao's house to thank him, and he must accept the ancient painting, but he did not accept it anyway, saying that he helped because of his father's quality, not for this ancient painting, which made me very moved, and finally, he said that if I really want to thank him, invite him to have a meal, and it is best for me to do it myself, I know, he said this in order not to let me break the bank, I am very movedSo the next day I invited him to my house for dinner.

August 16, 1966 was cloudy

It turns out that there are so many hypocritical people in this world, I originally thought that Director Zhao was a nobleman, but I didn't expect him to be a bastard with a beast's heart, in front of his family, he was such a humble gentleman, but after arriving at my house, he revealed his true side, it turned out that he had already taken a fancy to me, and he was deceiving me with the lives of his father and Bai Yunfei, if I didn't obey him, I would beat my only relatives and loved ones as reactionaries and send them to Xinjiang.

Bai Yunfei, the person I love the most, how I want to stay with you forever, please forgive me, for the safety of you and my father, I can only succumb to him and give the innocent body that originally belonged to you to the devil.

September 1, 1966

Now I have become a shell, completely soulless, always entangled by that demon, I don't know when it will end, dear Bai Yunfei, can you forgive me? I have sealed my heart in the dust, waiting, waiting for your return, it will always belong to you......

November 16, 1966 was sunny

Today is a day to remember, that demon has been ousted from the stage and can no longer haunt me!

Dear Bai Yunfei, can you forgive me for what I have done these days? I miss you, I really miss you, I really miss you, I will always wait for you, come back soon......

December 31, 1966 was sunny

Got a good news and a bad news today. The good news is that you are coming out tomorrow, how I am looking forward to this day, but another bad news makes me unable to see you, because I am pregnant with the devil's child, it has been four months, although I really want to see you, I want to hug you, I want to be with you, but it is too late, I will never have the face to see you, oh my God~~~ Is this my fate?

January 1, 1967

Today is my last day at home, pack my bags, I'm ready to leave here, to a place you will never find to remember the sweetness of our time together, I hope you can forgive me, maybe you don't know, when you came out of prison, I have been hiding in the corner next to me, secretly looking at you, looking at you I love you deeply, do you know how much I want to rush out and hug you? But I can't, I hold back my tears, turn my head and let you fly to my house....

February 9, 1967

Today is the Spring Festival, running outside for a month, I found that I can't do without you at all, so I came back again, often hiding in the corner of your house and secretly watching you, the weather is already very cold, my luggage was stolen on the way back, I can only wrap a tattered sack to resist the cold, but that's it, I am also willing to wait in the cold for an afternoon, even if I only see a back when you enter the house, I am satisfied.

I know you're looking for me, asking friends to look for me everywhere, but I'm right next to you, can you feel it?

I really miss you, I really can't do without you, but I can't see you, I can only look at your figure from afar, feel your breath, Bai Yunfei, I really love you!

May 1, 1967

As the little devil in my stomach continued to grow, my body became more and more clumsy, and hunger became the biggest problem I faced, so I slipped into the Yenching campus where we used to walk together, and found a dormitory where no one lived and lived in, and at the same time, the trash can in the school cafeteria could also solve my stomach problem. The rest of the time, all I have to do is hide in the corner and watch you from afar.

On the way back from your house today, I was hit by a carriage and managed to get back to my dormitory. And the little devil in the stomach seems to be about to come out, don't worry, I will not let it survive in this world......

May 2, 1967 at 2 a.m

Hahaha, I finally strangled this little devil to death. Bai Yunfei, I may never see you again in this life, please forgive me, if there is an afterlife, I will definitely be your wife, because I really love you, really, really love you......

In the autumn morning, the sun wakes the earth from its slumber early, and it is so bright everywhere. The playground was full of people exercising in the morning, and I would have come here early to run in the past, but today, he is still lying under the covers, reminiscing about the stories in his diary.

On the last page of the diary, a few words were written in blood: "I hope that after you Bai Yunfei see this diary, you can forgive me for leaving, and only then can I be freed from painful self-blame." ”

It turns out that love is like this, for the sake of the beloved, the owner of the diary can actually do this, which is so touching. And she still didn't want to leave here after she died, sealed herself in this diary with pain, and waited patiently, hoping that her heart could be discovered by the man she loved and forgive herself.

But in a few days, everything in the warehouse will have to be disposed of, and if the bed board is burned as chopping wood, then the girl's wish will never be fulfilled, which is why her soul has been crying so sadly these days, but this cry has been heard by me, who is very sensitive by nature, and I took out the diary one step in advance, so that she escaped her doom.

Don't worry, I'll help you find Bai Yunfei and give him this diary. I had now made up my mind that I must fulfill the girl's last wish and free her soul from her misery. So, another strange game was set up to predict the outcome of this matter. The bureau shows that Bai Yunfei is still alive, and he can still be found in the end, but the whole overall situation is Fu Yingge, the main slow, and the ultimatum guò calculates the dry branch, and it is determined that this person will not be able to be found until the next year at the earliest. It seems that she is destined to suffer for a few more days. So I pasted a yin gathering charm in my diary and placed it at the bottom of the cabinet, thus enhancing the yin qi around her and greatly alleviating her pain.

Next to Yanjing is the world's famous royal garden, the Summer Palace. Every session of Yanjing freshmen from other places, the first stop of the tour must be there. My class is no exception, this weekend, Xu Hu is responsible for organizing a one-day tour of the Summer Palace, anyone in this class and non-this class can participate, the reason why the words "non-class personnel" were added is completely to encourage me to bring Xiao Xian'er with me. I didn't agree at first, but I couldn't stand the coaxing of everyone, and finally reluctantly agreed to give it a try, so surrounded by everyone, I found Xiao Xian'er nervously and said my thoughts, but I didn't expect Xian'er to agree very simply.

After returning to the dormitory, everyone began to heckle again, thinking that my relationship with Xian'er was unusual, otherwise she would never have agreed so happily. I had no choice but to let him talk nonsense. That's the way it is in college, even a small thing can be exaggerated and used for analysis and discussion.