June 209 BC

Before I got up in the morning, there was already laughter in the courtyard, and when I got up and asked, I realized that it was a family in the village who married their daughter today, and sent some snacks and happy fruits over, saying that they were grateful to Mrs. Zhang for taking care of her. Mrs. Zhang happily accepted it, and then gave a newly woven red cloth as a gift.

At lunchtime, Mrs. Zhang deliberately took out those dim sum for us to taste, and then said unintentionally, "I also want to give people a happy fruit." ”

Zhang Budo, who was originally eating quietly, blushed, he glanced at me, and then coughed dryly and said, "Mother, don't laugh." ”

Mrs. Zhang looked at him with disgust, and then asked me, "What do you think of Xue'er?"

I smiled and nodded, "At my age, I should indeed get married." ”

"Do you really think so?" Mrs. Zhang looked a little pleased, and she asked me with a smile, "Then Xue'er would like to consider my family?"

"Smack!" The chopsticks in my hand fell to the ground, my face turned white, and I smiled hard: "Madame, Mo said that she laughed." ”

The joy on Mrs. Zhang's face faded immediately, she sighed a little disappointed, then put the dim sum on Zhang Budo's table, and sighed: "Son, since Xue'er is unwilling, then my mother can't help you." ”

Mrs. Zhang's desire to match me and Zhang Budo is not a matter of a day or two, after Zhang Budo came back four months ago, she began to knock on the side, saying that I am seventeen years old, and many daughters like me have been married when they are old, and it is time for me to get married.

"Could it be that you still can't forget that Wu Yi Gongzi?" Mrs. Zhang persuaded me: "Hu Hai has been on the throne for so long, and it is rumored that Wu Yi Gongzi has died unexpectedly. I don't believe you haven't thought about it, why can't you let go of it if you have survived until now?"

At that time, I was sewing a belly pocket for Dan'er, and when I heard her words, my hand shook, and the needle went deep into my fingers.

"It's not that I'm not small, it's that I really don't have any plans to get married now. I shook my head, smiled faintly at her, and said softly: "I am grateful for Madame's concern, but I still have a knot in my heart, and if this knot cannot be untied, I am afraid that it will be difficult for me to be at peace." They all said that Wu Yi was dead, and if he was really dead, then I had to show his bones and grave, otherwise I wouldn't believe that someone as smart as him would die. ”

"It seems that you are not the only one who is thinking about this Wuyi Gongzi. Mrs. Zhang smiled bitterly: "That's it, that's it, forget it if you don't want to, it seems that I am persecuting." If the master knew about this, he would be angry again. ”

When I heard her say this that day, I thought she would never mention it again in the future, but I didn't expect to bring it up again at dinner today. Fortunately, Zhang Liang has already gone far away, otherwise I am afraid that it will embarrass both parties.

After eating, I didn't help Aunt Li clean up as usual, but sat down in the courtyard alone.

The footsteps gradually, and then I saw Zhang Budo sitting down opposite.

"I'm sorry, but my mother was abrupt just now. He pondered and said, "If you make Cher unhappy, you can say it directly." ”

I shook my head, reached out and poured him a cup of tea, and said lightly: "I don't feel angry or unhappy, I know Madame's temper, and she is also for my good." ”

"Although I know that this shouldn't be my question, I wonder if Xue'er can tell me the reason why I don't want to marry?"

I was amused by his look of wanting to inquire and being embarrassed, smiled, and softened my tone: "What can't be said about this? Women don't want to get married, the reason is nothing more than that they have someone else in their hearts, and I am the same." So it's not that I don't suspect that you're bad, brother, but that I have someone in my heart, and I can't tolerate anything else. ”

"But that Wu Yi Gongzi?" Zhang Budo's eyes showed a trace of compassion, and he wanted to speak and stopped: "But he ......"

"It's not him. I shook my head, gently shook the tea in the tea bowl, lowered my eyes and said, "I knew him earlier than I knew Wu Yi, and I met him on the first day I first entered Afang Palace. ”

"That's ......"

"That was three years ago. I stared at the tea leaves in the tea, "He was bullied by a group of Qin soldiers at that time, and I saved him." No, he doesn't really need me to save him at all, it's me who is too busy. ”

"Why?"

"His own identity is noble, the reason why he is incognito and disguised as an ordinary musician in Afang is just to collect information to deal with Ying Zheng, there is a skilled master by his side, if I don't go out that day, the guards will definitely take the lives of those Qin soldiers. I smiled bitterly, and my voice was bitter: "And I really regard myself as his benefactor, greedily enjoying his good, and taking it for granted." It wasn't until one day that he told me he was leaving, and I realized that he was so important to me. ”

"He's gone?" Zhang Budo frowned, a little dissatisfied: "He actually left you?"

"He wanted to take me away, but I didn't agree. ”

"Why?" Zhang Budo looked surprised.

"Because he is a person who wants to achieve great things, he shouldn't be tripped by me, it's not that I'm arrogant, I have no talent and no family, I can't do anything but dance, is it possible that when the time comes, he gallops on the field, and I am still dancing for him next to him?" I sighed lightly and said with a smile: "Although he also likes me, but his family has arranged family affairs for him, and I don't want to share him with others." Maybe I'm too greedy, I always feel that since I can't get all of them, I don't want half of them. But I still overestimated myself in the end, and I sent him away with a dashing appearance, but now I think about it day and night, like a fool. ”

"It's not your fault. Zhang Budo's eyes were filled with loss, but he still barely cheered up and comforted me: "Zi said that you can't have both fish and bear's paws, and this is also something that can't be helped." ”

When I heard this, I couldn't help but tremble in my heart, and I spilled half a bowl of tea. The tea was still a little hot, and it actually burned a red mark on my hand.

"Xue'er!" Zhang Budo hurriedly took out a handkerchief to wipe the tea on my hands, looked up and wanted to say something, but froze when he saw the tears on my face.

"Snow ...... Son?"

"Two years ago, on the day I saw him off, he said to me: 'Although the son says that you can't have both fish and bear's paws, I am greedy by nature and will not let go. Xue'er, I'm not an abusive person, since I have identified you, it will be a lifetime. ’...... But...... But until I was taken away by Wu Yi, until I left Xianyang, he didn't come back. I know I shouldn't blame him, but I feel bad...... I'm really uncomfortable...... I want to see him...... I really want to see him...... "I bit my lower lip and tried to hold back the tears, but I found that no matter how hard I tried, those tears were like the water that burst the embankment, and I couldn't stop."

"Cher......" Zhang Budo's eyes were sad, he reached out to hug me into his arms, but his hand was retracted when it touched my shoulder.

"Will see you again. He said, "You love him so much, why won't he come back?"