He is not a madman who thinks that he must agree to his grandmother's proposal, mainly because he fantasizes about the so-called bustling city in his grandmother's mouth, or rather, he used to be a madman, he has also heard about the big world outside from the mouth of others, which is full of the taste of happiness, and the people who come back from working in the big world every year are always so bright and dazzling.

So soon, really quickly, on a drizzly noon, the madman arrived alone at the technical school, and there were many, many students here, and now the madman just came to visit.

It's not a dilapidated classroom, at least it's a brick structure, and the place where the madman himself used to live was basically a mud house, so it's still pretty good.

However, in this little classroom, the madman saw a girl with short hair, who looked to be seventeen or eighteen years old, but whose eyes shone with a light completely different from the others, a light so beautiful that the madman swore that he had never seen it before, and he was fascinated by it.

Even as if the madman at this time had gone to the so-called heaven in an instant, he had forgotten the former maîtress and seemed to have forgotten Juan, he was like having found a new world, the new world was full of colors, and these colors fascinated him and made him happy.

The madman was like a real madman, full of joy and completely indifferent to the drizzle at the moment, he was smoking a cigarette on foot, he understood that he had to hurry up and tell his grandmother that he needed to go to school here.

Anxiously waiting, after grandma got off work in the evening, the madman told his grandma that he wanted to go to school, saying that everything was fine and good at school. But the madman understood that he was lying at the moment, because all he saw at school was the girl whose name he didn't know yet, and that was really all he saw.

But grandma thought that the madman had enlightened, so she was very happy, and said that she would borrow money tomorrow to help him sign up.

Grandma did borrow money again, and the madman got his wish. The madman saw the girl at school and even talked to her, even if it was just a question of what is your name? And this made him feel as if the whole world was full of colors.

The teachers and classmates at the school are very good, but the madman has recently felt that he must be crazy, because he is not thinking about the school's academic problems at all, it is completely this girl named Yuhan, yes, her name is Yuhan.

Another madman also discovered another thing, it turned out that he was not the only one who liked Yuhan, it turned out that there were people chasing Yuhan, the madman thought that he was useless and would definitely lose, maybe this was the case, which made him depressed, made him sad and sad, and made him overwhelmed.

But the madman didn't give up, he thought that if he made a lot of money working outside in the future, he would be a rich man, maybe only in this way would he be able to go to Yuhan like a normal person and convey his love to her.

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More than three months have passed in a blink of an eye, and on this day, the principal of the school told everyone that a placement fee is needed, and one person is 1,600 yuan, but he has paid more than 300 yuan in tuition before, doesn't this add up to more than 2,000 yuan? That's a lot of money! The madman was confused, because he understood that his grandmother didn't have so much money, and he regretted spending all his previous money on the Internet café.

But is there any other remedy? Not at all, the madman was sad and helpless to tell his grandmother all this. The madman thought that he would never see Yuhan again, because Yuhan was going to work in a big city and become a city girl in a big city, and because he had no money, he could only exist in this small countryside forever, and maybe one day, he would die here unconsciously.

But the grandmother just smiled slightly, and even told the madman that she would arrange everything, and she would borrow money. Then the grandmother also told the madman more things, saying that when he made money in the future, he must pay off his father's debts, and his father's debts must be repaid, which is a matter of course.

The madman just agreed, and the day before he left the school for the big city, he went to the school to pay the principal, but he accidentally saw Yuhan crying, and in front of her father, who was riding a dilapidated motorcycle, because there was no resettlement fee of 1,600 yuan.

The madman is so worried when he sees this, now he has his own resettlement money, but Yuhan doesn't, so after he leaves here, does Yuhan want to stay here forever? In that case, what is he going to do in the big city? Is it carrying the heavy burden of paternal debt? No! The madman thought it wasn't supposed to be like this, so he thought about praying to the gods, and even thinking about how nice it would be if he himself had money. It's a pity that he can't do anything on his own.

Perhaps it was also the gods who heard the madman's prayers, because the madman had never prayed anything to the gods, and this was really the first time, so the gods granted his wish.

Yuhan, like the madman, paid the resettlement fee, got on the bus, and then went to the big city to find and realize the so-called happiness in the mouth of others.

It's just that in the shabby suitcase of the madman at this moment, in addition to a few worn-out clothes, there is also a torn fountain pen, which is still wrapped in a handkerchief, and the madman understands that in the future, in the big city, there will be many, many stories, so he needs a pen, and then use this pen to write about his own happiness, and even what he has seen and heard.

However, this fountain pen has long been unable to write, but the madman understands that in the big world, someone will definitely be able to fix it, and when the madman thinks about these things, Yuhan is sitting in the car with the boy who chased him, and many classmates who are crazy and he doesn't know also coax, and even talked about marriage.

The madman was very sad about this, he thought, he likes it so much, loves Yuhan so much, why doesn't God give Yuhan to himself? Is it just because he is good for nothing? Perhaps it was not for this reason, but in this panicked situation, the madman took out his own torn pen from his luggage and put it in his pocket, perhaps only when he touched it with his hand could he feel a little reassured?

But he still can't get peace of mind, he feels so scared of the madman at the moment, he forgets that he is going to the big city to find the so-called happiness and future of others, his mind is full of pictures of Yuhan and the boy, and even the picture of Yuhan and the boy hugging each other, how sad and uncomfortable it is for him, but he is useless, and he can't change anything at all.

Maybe the madman is not as bad as he imagined, it turns out that there are still girls who like him, for example, there are a few female classmates in the same class who want to talk to him, and even blush in front of him, the madman knows what is going on, but he doesn't like them, there is only one girl in his whole world, Yuhan.

The madman's indifference did not discourage these girls, they still talked happily to the madman, trying to pick some happy topics, but they didn't know anything about the madman, they didn't have the ability to make the madman happy, because the madman gave Yuhan all the power that could make him happy.

And the car is driving on the wide road, at ten o'clock in the night, the car is so quiet that you can hear everyone's snorting, the scenery outside the car window is flickering rapidly, the madman fantasizes about the so-called future, and fantasizes that one day, he has the ability, like a man who others say, to proudly tell Yuhan the love in his heart.

In such an environment, the madman lightly lit a cigarette, opened the window of the car a little, and smoked quietly, quietly fantasizing and thinking.

When you get to the big city, this is Kunshan. Before, the madman imagined the beautiful picture here, but the moment he really arrived here, he found that the scenery here was completely different from what he imagined, the accommodation here was charged by the hour, seven or eight people in a dilapidated house, ten yuan per person for twelve hours, it was simply sky-high! The daily income of one house was the entire income of his grandmother in a month, and the innkeeper had countless such dilapidated houses.

The building here has not changed much from the building of the madman's hometown, the biggest change is that the prices here are so high and high, a vegetable bun costs a dollar, while in the madman's hometown, one dollar can buy five, and this is not necessarily a beautiful big city? For example, in the crowd walking on the side of the road, there are still people scolding, and even using very standard Mandarin.

The madman's yearning for the big city was shattered at this moment, but fortunately, he had a torn pen in his pocket, and he could still see Yuhan from time to time, maybe all this was enough for him, right?

The day after arriving in Kunshan, the principal took them to a physical examination, and the madman panicked in the big hospital, because he was very afraid of the hospital, he remembered dimly that he often went to the hospital when he was a child, according to his grandmother's recollection, the madman always cried and cried when he was a child, and he couldn't find the reason, so he found out in the hospital, it was hereditary arthritis, and his legs hurt, so he cried.

At that time, in the hospital, the doctor would always test the blood, and the madman was afraid of blood, afraid of the sharp blade in the doctor's hand, although now he was no longer afraid of blood, but he was still afraid of the hospital.

The madman didn't dare to look at everything around him, so he became a coward in front of his classmates, who said that the madman was afraid of drawing blood, but they were all such big boys, how could this be?

The madman did not make any excuse, but silently touched the pen in his pocket with his left hand, as if he wanted to get some strength from it, and thus completed the whole process of drawing blood.