And every time he thinks of this, he can only silently pick up the wine bottle, cooing and drinking, he admires the beauty and prosperity of the city in his heart, praises the progress of the world, and praises himself for seeing all this.

However, he suffered because the beautiful, prosperous and noisy city is not what people call happiness, it is a place where people eat people, and it is a place where a group of people who cannot change their destiny blindly come here to be tools and lose the meaning of life.

Over here? Even in a place where personality and dignity are stripped away, whether it is an Internet company or any factory, all employees are just tools, and those pitiful wages cannot realize their dreams, but people still come here without hesitation, fantasizing about the beauty in their own hearts, thinking that they can do it, they must do it!

Is it their fault? No! Are they willing to be tools? No! Are they willing to lose their humanity and dignity here? No! Are they willing not to choose love? It's obvious, no, then, what? What makes all people come to this big city full of lies and cruelty?

Maybe it's just a lie that's too beautiful? Maybe it's the lack of wisdom of the people? Or desire? Or is it a so-called necessity? I don't know, I really don't know, anyway, the madman is drinking now, looking at the lively atmosphere around him, these new employees are his apprentices, and they compliment him, but? What's the point?

He touched the bank card in his pocket, the amount of money in it was decreasing, and he asked himself, is it his fault? No! Drink? It's not that he thinks he has any special hobbies, and it's not that he's very strange about drinking? It's just a need, it's really just that.

The anesthesia of alcohol made him feel that drunkenness and dreaming of death was the meaning of life, and he forgot his most noble dream and wrote wisdom! Forgot about Yuhan too?

No, he took out his mobile phone numbly, looked at Yuhan's phone number, and edited the text message casually: I miss you.

The apprentices on the side looked at the mobile phone in his hand with envy, saying that he was amazing, but he could only smile bitterly, because he knew that this mobile phone had lost its meaning to him at all, it was just an expensive alarm clock, and it didn't even have the function of an alarm clock, because he could wake up naturally, yes, this mobile phone was just a waste of the existence of a mandatory fixed phone bill every month.

He drank again, feeling that his thinking was so chaotic, but he didn't understand what kind of mess he had just thought, he smiled stupidly at the apprentices around him, but he didn't communicate with them, yes, he didn't want to communicate with the apprentices, he was afraid of knowing them, and after he knew them, they left here with a confused pace, and once they left, it was forever.

……

He came home from work at night, but he didn't come home, the weather is getting hotter and hotter, maybe it's summer now, right? Dressed in short sleeves, he lay on the edge of the moat of the ancient town, listening to a few locals, telling something in a language they didn't understand, listening to the mosquitoes buzzing in his ears.

Looking at the ancient town at night, I thought, did I ever want to know all the stories in this ancient town? It seems like? It seems like? I don't think so, right? Maybe not, now it's just a lonely person, picking up the wine bottle on the side again, drinking wine, drinking? Maybe you want to forget yourself for a moment, right?

The ancient town in the night, there is nothing beautiful to speak of, it is just dark, probably that's it, as for the occasional breeze blowing on the side of the moat, it makes people feel cool, stretch out their hands, and their hands go straight to the sky, this is an incomparably clear sky, but they still can't see the stars, because the pollution is too serious, yes, he only recently realized that this is pollution.

The pollution discharged from this layer of countless factories has captured all the dreamers, captured their dignity, captured their happiness and life, and even covered the vast galaxy that was originally so beautiful that it made people tremble! All the people are in this captivity, like inanimate machines, humble to the extreme, but some people will say positive energy, and there must be sunshine in their hearts, which is simply inexplicable.

The madman thought to himself, if he said that now that he had sunshine in his heart, would Lili be able to appear in front of him immediately? Obviously not, so he thinks that this sentence is just a self-deceptive thing, because in the city, in fact, there is never a tomorrow, unless you can become a person like the boss, you can get money.

But if money is tomorrow? So he thinks that the more than 10,000 yuan in the bank card in his pocket can make Lili appear in front of him instantly? Or even let Yuhan appear? No, no, no, don't want Yuhan, that's someone else's girlfriend, so I want Lili.

He drank hard, he knew that he had drunk too much, he was always dizzy these days, he understood, his mind had long been confused, maybe only God knows, what he was thinking about, he even understood, he had long been unable to see any scenery around him, but it was not that these scenes had disappeared.

He went back to the alley, bought liquor in the old man's shop, and returned to the dormitory, a small room, only enough for a bed, a tattered tungsten light bulb, what kind of sunset brilliance? Take notes? No, no, really, it's boring.

So sleep, right? Well, then sleep, shall we? Dreamers all over the world, good night? No, no, boring words, how can there be any dreamers in this world, everyone is just forced to do so, what boring dreaming, it's inexplicable.

He was about to go to bed, but the phone rang, was it a text message? took out his mobile phone and sat up suddenly, it was a text message from Yuhan, and the content of the text message was very simple: You don't pee and take pictures of yourself, you annoy me all day long, are you finished?

Oh? He felt that Yuhan's message might have been sent by mistake, and it was definitely not sent to himself, but? Since it wasn't sent to me, but it was just sent by mistake, why do you feel uncomfortable? Why drink again?

Sleep, really sleep, right? This bed, Lili once slept in, maybe there is really her breath, right?

……

Time flies, the sun and the moon pass, and in the blink of an eye, many months have passed, this is really summer, and it seems that summer is coming to an end, right? The current madman, he sits alone by the computer in the Internet café, but with a smile on his face, as if he is not lonely, smoking cigarettes, playing games like a madman?

That's right, he's playing a game, it's a competitive gun game, in the game and people from all over the world learn marksmanship, his marksmanship is very good, and there are few people in the game who are his opponents, so he laughs.

After a few more days, the madman at this time, wearing short sleeves, without buttons, exposed his belly, holding a cigarette in his hand, a pair of jeans that are not black and blue, and a pair of people on his feet, yawning, as if he did not wake up, so he shook his head, he seemed to wake up again, it turned out that this was in the company.

That's right, there have been a lot of changes in the company recently, the computers have been replaced with some new ones, and the number of employees has also increased, and there are a lot of girls, but a group of his apprentices before have gone, yes, they came with their dreams, and when they left, with their confused and overwhelmed footsteps.

Right now? He has a new apprentice, but these apprentices don't seem to be easy to serve, because it seems to be a summer job? Damn it! What the hell is it? God knows, how do they wear cotton clothes? Be all abroad!

The madman got up and leaned on the window to look out, and the crowd on the street seemed to be wearing cotton clothes, right? Good guys, it's winter, huh? These students aren't summer workers, they're winter vacation workers, right? It seems that a few days ago, he went to the Internet café himself, wasn't it summer at that time?

At this time, a young man in a cotton coat walked behind the madman and said respectfully: "Master, what are you looking at?" ”

The madman sneered and turned his head: "It's nothing, I've been drinking too much recently, I guess it hurt my brain, and all of a sudden there was a problem with the memory system, I remember that it was summer a few days ago." ”

The apprentice laughed after hearing this, and the other apprentices were also laughing, and this would be a female apprentice, listening to others, still a college student, a college student? Oh, and so does Lili.

Wait, why is the thought of Lili's whole brain returning to normal again? Do you remember the environment and time around you? So I can't think of Lili, absolutely can't think of it, but this female apprentice, or this female college student, walked directly in front of the madman and said: "Master, you are really handsome." ”

Handsome? What is Handsome? Does it mean to look good? He just grinned, and then touched a bottle of liquor from under his computer desk, yes, there's a box here, and there's a big thing that happened in the last few months, and this big thing is that the madman got alcohol poisoning and was sent to the hospital, spending more than four thousand dollars on medical expenses.

But the madman didn't care about it at all, he was still drinking, and even now he didn't even have a home, and he didn't go to the rented place, but just brought his own plastic bag to the company, the futon? Gel pen? And the so-called notebook? No, what are you going to do? Boring stuff, so now I work in the company during the day and sleep here at night, there is 24-hour air conditioning here, what are you afraid of?

However, why do today's madmen feel so chic? In fact, it was very simple, he decided to celebrate the New Year this year, and he committed suicide! I don't want to live anymore, this world is so painful for him, so painful that it's suffocating! He even seems to have been looking for Lili in the city in the past few months, but he doesn't seem to be looking for it, is it? I can't remember exactly! He just felt like his mind was so confused.