But why is there so little money? In fact, the madman understands very well that their group of security guards is in the form of outsourcing, not directly recruited by the company, so this matter is obvious, the salary must be set by the boss of the outsourcing, not directly given by the company where they work, so it is less than the employee's salary, which is also very easy to understand.

However, the madman did not tell his colleagues about these things, because the so-called ignorant are blessed, if he knew everything, he would definitely have some resentment in his heart, that must be resentment of the outsourcing boss, but the madman did not understand whether it was so-called right for him to never mention this matter.

And in the next working hours, everyone is discussing the salary, what to buy to treat themselves, and even say that they will go out for a meal together or something, but everyone's proposal, the madman did not participate, so everyone said that the madman is a little special, but what does everyone mean by special? Well? I don't know.

Anyway, after work on this day, the madman still follows the flow of employees off work, and he also sees a lot of couples, of course, they are also talking and laughing, so he immediately realized that love really has the magic of making people forget all the pain, such as going to work is very hard, but from these couples, it seems that there is no hard work at all, only happiness, and the so-called hard work can only be seen from those single people.

It's just that under the haze of this night, looking up at the sky, it's pitch black, I remember that someone said before that if the night is darker, then the stars will be brighter, and now it seems that there is a certain error in this sentence, for example, now the sky is seriously polluted, and you can't see anything at all, it's just pitch black.

Under the darkness of this so-called pollution, on both sides of the bustling and noisy long street, the sunset-colored street lamps seem to illuminate the direction of this extremely dark world, but the light of these street lamps, they only illuminate a specific direction, not the whole world, because they will only illuminate the long street, if someone tries not to take the so-called long street, then they cannot enjoy the light of the street lamp.

So the madman understands that he has to take what people call the road, just like the life that the world has planned for people, if we are curious about other dark paths, want to go and see, or have already set foot in them, then everyone will say that we are aliens, not taking the sunny road or something, saying that the darkness is full of all kinds of unknown dangers, yes, people are afraid of the dark, but what people don't seem to know is that these roads with light were also dark in the past.

The madman did not understand why he himself had such strange thoughts, and he did not dare to tell anyone, because anyone would say that his strange thoughts were very strange, and everyone would ostracize him, or that he was insane, in short, now the madman walked in the so-called long streets in a proper manner, and also enjoyed the lights of the setting sun.

But the direction of this avenue will pass through the river every time, and now, the madman is standing on the edge of this river, this river does not feel very good, and it will emit a foul smell, in short, the water in it is also black, but the water in the river can hardly see the color clearly, after all, it is dark at the moment, and there is no light in the river.

The madman lightly lit a cigarette on the edge of the river, stared at the dark river in front of him in a daze, and from time to time there were employees passing by after work, although they talked and laughed, but their topic was nothing more than work matters, or between men and women, or even maybe going to dinner or Internet cafes together, but they would never mention this river.

And this river is in the memory of the madman, there are many stories, such as the seventeen-year-old female corpse fished out some time ago, so far I have not seen the report on the news, and I don't know whether it was suicide or homicide, as if this incident had never happened at all, and like the current dark night, this dark night fills the whole world, and in the dark place, it seems that something very terrible is happening all the time, but there is no way to know.

Because, many people have died in this river, not just a seventeen-year-old girl, according to the madman he recently learned from the mouth of the security guards, this river in the past few years, has fished out four or five corpses, including a boy in his twenties, thinking of this, the madman he is sad, is it that these people died, is it just because they have set foot in a place where there is no light? Because, it was too dark in the river.

Obviously, things are not so simple, so the madman continued to smoke cigarettes, and when the flow of people around him became more and more scarce, he whispered to himself into the dark river: "May your next life be treated with the kindness and gentleness of this world." ”

Yes, because the madman has a sparse flow of people behind him, so in this world, no one understands what he just said to the river, and now the madman, he should have gone home immediately, and then prepared to record all the things today, but now he is in the Internet café, because he misses Lili too much, the current Lili, or the pen that Lili gave him, is already the only spiritual pillar he can live, after all, he can no longer find what he needs from this world, or, I can't find anything I need to protect.

And now he has walked to the door of the Internet café, looking at the lottery station, it is still overcrowded, and there are lottery tickets all over the ground, it is simply ridiculously thick, and there is more of a thing called scratching, I heard that the highest prize is 100,000 yuan, what is it? He didn't know about this madman, because he hadn't been in contact with him.

In short, the madman went directly to the second floor, and then paid the money and opened a computer, at this time, there were still more people in the Internet café, so it was smoky, but that group of degenerate young people, none of them could be found, it is estimated that they left here early, right?

But these things seem to be of little importance to the madman, because the madman judges that a large part of the reason for their fall is their own factor, so they also feel that it is enough to give them a small amount of sympathy.

opened the chat software on the computer, but Lili didn't reply to his messages, and among them, he had sent several messages to Lili, and then calculated, Lili hadn't replied for more than a month, was it very busy? Or has something happened? This had to make the madman start thinking crankily.

So he smoked a cigarette and really started to think nonsense, and then left a lot of messages for Lili, mainly because he cared, and even kept mentioning that he had money in his bank card and could buy her a mobile phone, so it would be very convenient to connect.

In short, he told Lili a lot, and he also said that he had just paid his salary today, which was less than 1,000 yuan, and of course he said some other things, but mainly around his daily work after work, or when he was at work, he saw a couple of couples passing by, and he was very envious.

……

When he came out of the Internet café and returned to his rental house, he started recording again, but recently he didn't want to record himself, because his fingers hurt a lot, and he felt that there was no real meaning in doing so, that is, at first, the interest was quite big, but at present, after so many years, it feels more and more boring.

But I think that the pen that Lili gave me must be used to do this, so I forced myself to start recording, but the sentences are becoming more and more concise, in short, not as pious as before, as if this is the attitude towards work, after a long time, you will feel that it is not interesting, you will feel like a kind of torture, there is no freshness at all.

As for at the end of the record, the madman wrote: There was a change of tenant next door, it was a little girl, she was not noisy, she was not noisy, she did not have a TV, she just got off work, went to work, she was very quiet.

Then the madman began to sleep, but he did not know when, and seemed to have forgotten to say goodnight to the dreamers of the whole world every night.

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And then it's going to work, yes, this kind of thing is set in stone, and it can even be said that it is boring to the extreme, the only thing that can make the madman stick to it, maybe only the existence of the pen and Lili in his hand, maybe only the existence of the pen and Lili, can prove that he himself also exists in this world, although this is a very, very terrible thing, but the madman thinks that this is the whole composition of the world in his own heart.

So I'm very worried about Lili, and I've been going to Internet cafes frequently recently, mainly to ask Lili why she hasn't replied for a long time. Indeed, Lili replied, but said that she was very busy, and she worked about 14 hours a day, so she was very tired every day, and she didn't even have time to wash clothes, so how could she have so much time to go to the Internet café?

But Lili finally said that she was doing well, so that the madman should not worry about anything, but the madman felt that this was completely in line with the words she said earlier, and it was not logical at all, what kind of logic was this? So the madman knows that Lili is having a bad time.

But what's the use of knowing that Lili is not doing well? Lili refuses to say where she works, and she seems to be reluctant to buy a mobile phone, so the madman has no choice but to tell his own thoughts about her again and again, even over and over again, and even his determination to buy her a mobile phone.

It is also in such an ordinary life, more than a few months have passed in a blink of an eye, and it is an extremely hot summer, and the madman is sitting in his security booth, and the captain and they will discuss an outrageous incident that happened only yesterday.